"Don't let perfection be the enemy of progress." - me.

"I may not be the best the best at anything, but that is good, because I can always learn to be better. I think this is the difference between high self-esteem and narcissism." - also me.

Yes, the first quote is based on various similar quotes, but that is how I phrased it yesterday in a conversation, and I'm using that exact phrasing for this note.  It is, in my opinion, extremely important.

This is what I am learning, really in all aspects of my life.  It is so universal (to me) that I think it may become something like a core tenant of my world view.  Let me break it down a little further.

I am far from perfect.
This is not in a religious/sin context. I don't believe in that.  It isn't even necessarily in a moral context.  This doesn't assume that I am living up to anyone else's expectations, or even my own, really.  What I am saying here is even though I might wish for something very strongly, the actions that I actually do are not always 100% aligned with that wish.  I might wish to never eat pastries again, because I know they are very bad for me, and still find myself eating a donut.  I might wish to have the best relationship ever, and still find myself doing things that would undermine it. I may wish for friends, but actually spend very little time actually doing the things I know will create and improve my relationships with others.  I may wish to spend more time with my family, and find myself playing games on my phone or typing long notes into Nostr.

It is this breakdown in logic that is my basis for stating I am anything less than perfect.  And I know that this isn't pure logic; the breakdown exists because of logical incentives that influence action; my actions are still reasoned; they still align with the Austrian principles of human action, even if on the surface, they seem to be contradictory.  But that isn't the point here.

The best I believe I can expect of myself is NOT perfection.  The best I can expect is to be able to learn and improve.  This means first accepting non-perfection, and becoming aware that learning and improvement are possible, then pursuing those paths.

This is especially important in relation to my health initiatives, my struggles with various habits and addictions, and my interpersonal relationships.  It is also important with my relationship with myself.

The humility to comprehend, accept, and embrace imperfection is, in my opinion, the essence of good self-esteem, and the opposite of egotism or narcissism.

And what follows from good self-esteem is the confidence that I am able to learn from my imperfections and improve upon them, without giving up hope or assuming anything is as good as it will ever be.  I can accept that everything is good enough for NOW, though, because there is nothing else to do with NOW but accept it.  There is nothing to be done with the PAST other than learn from it.  There is no need to regret, or condemn, or dismiss.

The only positive path forward is to learn and improve.  This is progress, in the positive sense.

I am able to learn from everything I perceive. Even if my perceptions are later found to be false or mistaken, I am still able to learn from them. In fact, I must always assume my perceptions are true - or to take a meta-step, assume that my analysis of my perceptions is true.  This is where I make the leap to believing that all emotions are true, as emotions are an analysis of perception.  In this, I am also able to learn from my emotions, and use them to improve as well.

This is not what we have been taught, that emotions are to be disregarded, or that emotions are illogical, dangerous, capricious, etc.. Not at all; emotions are the truest, most important things we will encounter.  Without emotions, our actions will no longer seek to improve upon our imperfections; they will only optimize for some logical extreme.  We lose the ability to accept the present when we ignore emotion.

That's far enough down this thought path for NOW.  I'm sure I will revisit it and refine it as I learn and improve.  But this is my progress as of TODAY.


Good luck with that.  I hope Savannah finds her match, and I hope she also is equal to his expectations.


A rare bitcoin note.

Thinking through using Lightning for plausible deniability.  The essence of tax law is to determine what was paid (in fiat) for an asset (Bitcoin) and then what the asset was sold for (in fiat) to determine some amount of "capital gain" (in fiat).

Let's assume both Strike and River have fee-free lightning send/receive capability.  I buy Bitcoin on Strike.  Then I send it to a lightning address on River.  Yes, I'm KYC'd on both services, but neither is necessarily aware of where the Bitcoin came from.  The sender is at least somewhat aware of where it is going, but may not know which user of the service it is going to.

I'm going to keep this simple - I wouldn't actually do this, but let's say I kept the balance on River.  Then, one day I needed some fiat dollars, and so I sent some bitcoin (not the same amount as any prior transaction) from River to my Strike account, again using lightning addresses.  Strike doesn't know where that came from, but has to assume I own it.  River knows that it left River, and may know it went to Strike, but probably doesn't know who it was going to, only that I authorized it.

Then I immediately sell the Bitcoin on Strike, and withdraw the fiat dollars to my US fiat bank account.

Who is to say what capital gain or loss is made on that Bitcoin? I believe the only gain or loss than can be determined is from the Bitcoin price (as determined by a third party) when the Bitcoin arrived at Strike (from River), and the price Strike opted to sell the Bitcoin at.  This would be happening minutes, if not seconds, apart, so there would be very little price change, and very little gain or loss.

Any other way of determining gain/loss would have to make assumptions that may or may not be true.  It would be prohibitively difficult for me to even determine a past bitcoin exchange rate or point in time to base a capital gain/loss from.  Even if I had great accounting that showed the exact time I acquired every sat I have ownership of, so I could follow a FIFO or LIFO method of accounting to determine gains, that would be ridiculous and incorrect, as I receive free sats from reward programs, I earn sats from mining, or exchanging for goods and services, and sats on exchanges might not technically be mine until I possess them in my own custody, depending on the exchange TOS.

This is an example of regulation that simply does not cleanly apply to a different technology.  What makes sense for a stock, bond, or even commodity, metal, or foreign currency, does NOT make sense for Bitcoin.  This isn't even poking at KYC, just at fiat pricing and capital gain taxation.

Try to poke holes in this and show me where I'm wrong, but I think using lightning in this way to create some plausible deniability and break the ownership chain should be enough to do what many are using coin joins, whirlpools, etc. to accomplish. I have a similar method that would work privately to break KYC by using lightning and a couple privately held lightning nodes, but it is a bit more complicated.  What I am describing above takes no technical skill and does not even assume self-custody.

I'm not telling anyone to sell a single sat.  I'm also not telling anyone what to declare to their governments.  This is a way of looking at things that may influence your behaviour, though. Stay humble.


Gn #nostr.

The affirmation of reuniting with old friends is priceless.

(And not at all the same as reuniting with family, which carries a different weight, although it may be just as joyous.)


Gn #nostr.

While the sky is falling, I am learning the new lessons each day seems to bring.

Those lessons rarely relate to the sky falling, but are just as important, maybe more so.

I may not be the best the best at anything, but that is good, because I can always learn to be better.

I think this is the difference between high self-esteem and narcissism.


Gn #nostr.

Processing firewood is arm day.


Gn #nostr.

We all live in a yellow submarine.


Gn #nostr.

Every day, the unexpected will happen. Embrace it.


Gn #nostr.

Every day I share this planet with my kids is worth it.


Gn yegor 🌝


Gn #nostr.

Nothing to see here.


I rebuilt a TH350 on a bench in front of my university apartment once, so maybe I'm a trans folk. But if you talking about whatever you've done to your genitals, I don't care - and I fail to see why I should care, or why you would advertise it. I don't show up hoisting a flag because I'm missing a gallbladder?


Gn kini 🌙


Gn #nostr.

Been more productive than usual this weekend. Feels good.


The longer issue is that I'm struggling a bit with both carb addiction and overeating, I think. Yes, removing caffeine improved my sleep, but it also removed the hunger suppression and the ritual of consuming something - so I started eating more, snacking more, etc. Even if I didn't stray to carbs, I was still eating sometimes twice as much per day as I was before.

So bringing coffee back, just trying to keep it to 1-2 cups per day, and maybe not every day, hoping it will help me get back on track.

This is mostly what my comments about addiction have been referencing as well. Sugar/carb addiction may be my hardest issue to overcome yet, because it is so easy to relapse, and everyone around you expects you to fail (or just eat carbs, if they don't know you're trying not to).


Tree is usually 2nd weekend of December, but lights and decorations go up anytime after Thanksgiving. Because we go cut a real tree, and don't want it dried out and shedding needles by dec 25.  Fun fact - I proposed at a tree lot while preparing to cut our family tree, with a ring box made from the previous year's tree trunk.


Gn #nostr.

I think quitting coffee may have been a mistake.


Gn #nostr.

Digging ditches.


Gn kini 🌛


Gn nostr.

Your mind will trick you. Your body generally doesn't lie.


Western medicine disgusts me.

There is no incentive to restore or even encourage health. Everything is for a sale of goods and services.  This is obvious in pharma, but it isn't any better in hospitals, medical offices, etc.

Of course it is no mystery that the population this mis-incentivized puports to serve is unhealthy and disease-ridden. This is much the same as a strung out junkie being good for the drug dealer, and all too often, precisely the same.

What if I told you that cancer is cured, as are most diseases we concern ourselves about? And that any charities taking donations to "cure" these diseases are as big a racket as the government agencies permitting their spread?

I now believe this to be the case. And it is one of those things that once seen, cannot be unseen. I will likely watch most of my family suffer and die from health problems that can be prevented or cured, if only they would stop poisoning themselves every day. This is an extremely saddening realization.

I'm not going to make this into another mega-rant, but this is what I must fall asleep knowing each night. Hopefully I will eventually save a few.  Stop poisoning yourselves with toxins, and you may have a fighting chance.

Do not trust a western doctor to solve your problems. Of course, use them to get the tests and results you need to help yourself, but take responsibility for managing your own health, and only take their opinion as exactly that, not as a mandate. We can learn for ourselves how to treat our issues in ways that don't poison us or serve our addictions.

Many won't make it. That will be the great shame of this era.


Gn #nostr.

Hooray!
For so many reasons, but likely none that those here are cheering about.

Priorities.
Doesn't mean I can't miss my friends.


Gn #nostr.

Addictions suck.


Gn #nostr.

Today was bullish. Tomorrow? Bullshit.

A quote, or at least close to one. Horseshit is bullshit someone is trying to sell you. Could be from Yellowstone, but maybe not.

Been seeing (through) a lot of horseshit lately. I feel the need to filter almost everything with some presumption of motive. Why am I being told this? Is it just bullshit being repeated, or is it horseshit? The latter is the case, far too often.


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Gn nunya 🌙


Gn #nostr.

Today's triumph - spare parts.


Gn #nostr.

Definitely drifting away from socials. Maybe a bit untethered in a way. Freeing. And by socials, I really mean here, one carnivore support group, and maybe youtube, but I don't comment or post content on yt. Any other accounts I may still have are dormant, and have been for a while.


Ah, fuck it. Gn #nostr.


Add Kellogg and Ancel Keys.


Where's fauci?


Early gn #nostr.

I've been missing a lot these lately, and I think its because of how the time between going to bed and actually falling asleep has changed with no caffeine.

Id like to say I don't use my phone in bed anymore, but that's not it. I think maybe it is how fast the switch between laying in bed relatively alert and being really sleepy is happening. There's just no time in there to smash out a note.

Waking up is changing too. I'm definitely waking up earlier, but often staying in bed until I actually need to be awake, which isn't optimal. So I need to change this. Who knows, maybe bring back the gm post.


Manners
Consideration


Water. Frozen. Just wait. Time preference.


Gn paulo 🌝


Gn #nostr.

Slowed down on the socials, but making up for it irl. Just a shift in the balance of things, nothing unusual. I enjoy the ebbs and floes of life, really. Whether I am content or not, a month or two will likely bring changes that challenge contentment.


Gn paulo 🌙


I rate everyone 5. that's what they always tell me to do.

also, I fucking hate compulsory rating/feedback systems.


gn #nostr.

I'm still on the path.


Gn #nostr.

Still getting the hang of everything; not so much here, but in life.

This is the result (but nowhere near an end) of meddling.

Meddling. It's in my nature.


Gn, #nostr.

My world probably needs more days like today.


Gn #nostr.

Many small things happened or were realized today. I'd like to say it was unremarkable, but I kept finding remarks.

Tomorrow will be my last scheduled session with a mental health counselor. It's been an interesting 18 months. I encourage everyone to give it a try if you can. Even if it fixes nothing, you will learn plenty trying.


Not for the next 5 months! But I may anyway. In a group that rides pretty much year-round.


Then I'm no gentleman, because she's no blonde.


Gn kini 🌛


Gn cat 🌙


Gn #nostr.

Today I passed my motorcycle endorsement tests and am now fully licensed to ride. I still have a lot to learn and practice, but I no longer will need to prove anything to the State, aside from my ability and willingness to pay their fees.

It was also my first time on the freeway in rainy conditions. That went fine thanks to proper preparations.

Oh, and managed a 24 hour fast in there, still no caffeine or milks.


Gn #nostr. I miss you.

Tomorrow is my motorcycle endorsement test. Time to see if this summer spent practicing was enough.


Right. There's trade-offs with some things so it's always worth weighing all sides. I think the most important thing is to figure out what works for your body, your mind, the condition you're in, and the lifestyle you want to achieve/maintain/get away from. And finding ways to transition there. That's the tough part.


You too!  Looks like there's a few of us on this journey presently.

Another thing to add - I'm definitely hungry more. Coffee worked nicely as an appetite suppressant, especially in the morning. I may not be able to skip breakfast for a while!


I prefer series SF - Dune series and Discworld series are my favorites.  Both have many titles.


I still have energy, but no desire to do much with it?  I've watched a ton of youtube, but not done much else productive over the last few days, aside from the things I absolutely had to do.  I assume that will clear up in a few more days.  More curious about what changes will happen with sleep, but too soon to tell (and too much other stuff impacting it)


Right there with you, dropped all coffee and other caffeine three days ago, but cheated at some point on day 1 (midmorning I think) and drank someone else's leftover coffee.  Still, nothing since then.  No headache, but my energy and drive to do anything productive are very different.


Why the fuck are you boosting your own notes? What horrendous waste of energy is even looking at a trending algo? Your nostr is becoming unrecognizable.  So glad I've kept it simple.


This really isn't a problem in Satellite.


Been falling deep down the carnivore rabbit hole over the past couple weeks.  You'll know when I crawl back out of the meat curtains onto your main stage. until then, just pull my strings harder, puppetmaster. I, of course, am here solely for your entertainment.


Gn #nostr.

Been a little shaky with thus habit over the last week. It isn't just here either. Something's going on.

Lost a couple hours of productivity this evening thanks to a power outage from a blown transformer.

Oh well, more tomorrow.


Talk to you on the other side, then, friend. it's been some minutes, I'm still here.


may fuck around and stop drinking coffee/caffeine for a while. Going to try it eventually, just not sure exactly when. My coffee cup is empty, so who knows, maybe I already started.

ngl, just like exploring withdrawal, apparently.


Fuck yeah!


Prospecting a riding club.


Gn #nostr.

Isn't life grand, some things are fine, other things, not so much. The most important things? Probably ok for now.


Not getting your ass handed to you is the other 20%.


Gn #nostr

I find it odd that my best engagement probably ever came from a rant about cell phones, something I am far from an expert on, and generally dislike thinking about.

I was thinking about a Venn diagram of my current interests. As i visualize it, it would have a central circle of Human Action/ Philosophy, with overlapping circles above it in a ring - Economics, Health/Diet, Psychology/Sociology/Anthropology, Religions; then a small circle completely separate off to the side with Technology, and a slightly larger few circles off to the side, Automotive Mechanics, Carpentry, Construction/Fabrication, Motorcycles.

Yet I work in Technology, and that is where most of my formal education and experience is.  This doesn't seem to fit well at all.

Anyway, I'm free to discuss any of those other topics at length. But tech is the last thing I normally want to write about.

#grownostr I guess.


Gn kini 🌛


Stella needs more 🍷.


I use things because my expectation is that by using the thing, my overall experience and outcome will be better than than if I did not use the thing.

Sometimes, proximity has something to do with it, as would familiarity.  And as I've pointed out, there are reasons I use a cell phone that might mean it is physically with me - so since it is with me, why wouldn't I use it for other things as well, even if it weren't the perfect thing to use, since I already have it with me?

Think of it like going camping.  Are you going to bring every pot, pan, whisk, spatula in your kitchen, because those are what you would use to cook a small feast at home?  Nope, you are going to only bring the fewest things you need to get the job done.  That might be a tin cup and a fork.  Are those the best tools for everything you plan to do with them? Nope, but they will keep you fed and hydrated.

How specialized we get with our tools is a reflection of our means and circumstance, as well as the attention and focus we bring to the task.  If I live in luxury but don't have any interest in working on cars, I won't have an extensive specialized tool collection.

While some of what I stated was self-inflicted and rectifiable, once you start digging into solutions, it immediately becomes apparent that you are moving contrary to convenience, and suggesting specialized solutions that would require additional attention and focus, as well as perhaps the luxury of time to figure them all out.


I think most of that, for most people, is cope. but if it works for you, great.  This last bit is nonsense, unless maybe you are saying that OSS isn't built with the intent to enslave and addict, and arguably other code is.

I like OSS too, but I think its strength is in its contributor group and the diversity it represents, and not every OSS project has a large diverse contributor group.  For something like an operating system, you would hope that would attract many contributors - but for simple tools, perhaps not.

The other thing about Open Source that I like is even more philosophical - in that I don't think intellectual property should be a thing. Thoughts and ideas should be freely shared, rather than hoarded and protected and hidden.  But on the flipside, I think the opposite about physical property.  And source code is somewhat there in the middle.  It is an idea that has been implemented into something, and someone did work to produce that product.  So I would say my mind on this aspect of open source isn't entirely made up at this point; I could be convinced to see this a different way.

At the end of the day, I think I want convenience and utility.  These are tools, we expect them to do something for us to improve upon the experience of doing similar tasks without.  Often OSS is not the best of these things.  Linux is inconvenient in how long it takes to learn, set up to your liking, etc.  Other OSS tools are developed to optimize a specific utility, while a more general closed-source tool has broader utility (more features).  I've found this especially true with map software.  There is a convenience to working with one software, or one software company, across a broad suite of tasks, instead of having separately developed and packaged tools for each use case.  Like for my automotive repair, I tend to buy tools from one supplier, and perhaps in larger kits.  I haven't acquired each socket and wrench independently, although I definitely have some specialty tools.  I might start with Craftsman, or a store brand like Kobalt, and then specialize into DeWalt or Snap-On.

Corporate closed source software tends to have a lot of utility and convenience because they are looking to attract the broadest market of people, so they add value by adding features for everyone.  OSS doesn't tend to do this, and rather focuses narrowly on features, because the incentive to sell to broad markets isn't there, in most cases.

Ultimately I don't need the best tool for each use case, just something that gets the job done easily enough with the least amount of bother, and unfortunately, OSS isn't really aligned with this, at least not today.


Ooh me too. Got plenty of ancient astronaut theories, and I'll even agree with others if I must.


Gn #nostr.

I shitposted enough today already.

Only because I'm intentionally slowing down at the fiat mine. I've been far too productive there lately.


Who the fuck buys that? Obviously this guy. But really? I can't think of one person, alive or dead, that I would want a fucking statue of on my bookcase, or anywhere else. Tool.


GN.

There is nothing silent about the surf.


Ugh.  This feels like programming.  When faced with a confusing and mentally taxing situation, we look to see if anyone else has solved it for us. And then, especially in the bitcoin/nostr world, I think we've been programmed to hope that the solution is open source, like any one of us is going to go and read the fucking code, or make changes to it.  It's a virtue signal.  If I say I want an open source solution to problem xyz, then the bitcoinbros will like me, and the nostrgirls will think I am a dev.

Dude, this really isn't personally aimed toward you, I promise.  Just something that sparked a fucking short circuit in my brainwaves.

Fuck this. I hope someone has the solution, and kept it themselves, and wants me to pay for it, and doesn't want to share at all. Then I can tell them to fuck off, and go about my day figuring out my best path forward, which probably isn't a solution to my SMS problem, that I don't even have!


Fair, but why?

As you mention, the cellphone for you is essentially a second laptop.  There are certainly reasons why having the utility of a laptop in a smaller form factor is a good thing - mostly portability.  I actually rarely use a laptop, and never really got used to using a tablet, although I tried one for a little bit.  For me, I can either use my desktop, or use my cell phone.  My wife has managed to skip the home laptop/desktop altogether, and ONLY uses her phone.  This works for her 99% of the time.

So why not ditch the laptop and keep the phone? Or fuck it, keep both?  Maybe ditch the carrier service? It's really tricky, once you start actually thinking it through.  We apparently are still expected, as human adults in America, to be able to provide a ten-digit number where we can be notified.  This is stupid, but true.  Ditching the carrier service means paying someone else for a 10 digit number. Yes, you can get them for free, but when you do, what are you giving up?  Also, I have had my 10 digit number for 25 years.  I'm a little attached to it, because that means that 25 years worth of personal and professional contacts have associated those 10 digits with me.  Maybe I don't want to disappear from them, should they want to reach out.

All worth considering though. I wouldn't tell anyone here what to do, because my use cases, preferences, experiences, etc. are not anyone else's.  The only thing I believe we should be doing is actually considering these kinds of things more carefully.


SMS is garbage, agreed.  Err - actually not.  SMS actually has some great use cases, but privacy isn't one of them.  The best use case I've found is getting a message out to a monitoring party when I am in very poor coverage areas.  SMS has usually done a good job of trying to send out whenever the phone detects even its most basic carrier connection.  I think this has actually gotten worse, because now I see messages come back as "not sent", and I have to manually try and resend them.

Most messaging isn't very private.  That doesn't mean it can't be anonymous. But relying on SMS - well, you'd have to be more precise on what you're relying on SMS to do.


Right - but that is the one thing I don't really need done!


"Does its simple job" - which is what?


Normalization.

Oh those silly ..., how silly of them. Of course that is so silly, because it didn't happen that way.

The reality - reinforced message to comply, comply, comply. Oh look, the state can take over your digital collar at any time! Comply! Listen to your state!

Serious psyop shit, but nothing new. State me harder, FEMA!


So that sounds like good advice, dunnit? But what exactly is a starter phone? And what of the use cases I outlined would that really work for? And what about the annoyance of potentially having two phones to maintain, keep charged, etc. for different purposes?  Whenever I really start digging in to the realities involved, it starts to feel like digging in quicksand, and I don't get very far.

At one point, I mentally walked through the steps needed to actually get a proper burner phone, as an early part of a larger exercise to create a full second "burner" identity (probably not a legal one, granted).  It was a huge mess, and just creating enough geographic separation was going to take a lot of time (and gas money).  It would also either piss off or alarm the wife, or both.  In practical steps, I got as far as having a couple prepaid visa cards sitting around, that might not be easily traced back to me.


Actually an annoyance that has come out of the ubiquitous nature of mobile devices and their tracking abilities is 2FA.

There are definitely 2FA maximalists out there.  Also those that will tell you to never use SMS text as a 2FA option.  Unfortunately, many services require some form of 2FA, and the worst of them require some interaction with a phone (unless you go to great lengths to subvert them).  I'm lucky, I guess - I obtained a YubiKey, and I have a password manager that includes a TOTP authenticator that will run as a browser extension. Between those things and email, I can manage to find 2FA options that don't require my cell phone to be on or present.


Got tickets for Ministry and Front Line Assembly in Seattle in March. I wanna party like its 1990.


I'm more of an 80/20 BTC to Sats maximalist, but I see your point.  Your risk profile is just a little different than mine!


Worth considering.


Ok, seriously time for a rant.

Your cell phone is no longer a phone.  It is a tracking device, with lots of things to distract you from the things you should be doing.  It's a fucking fidget spinner that also just happens to tell anyone who really wants to know exactly where you are and what you are doing.  It is a digital collar, at the end of a wireless leash.

What happens when someone tries to call my phone number? Nothing. most times the bloody thing doesn't notify me, and the call goes to voice mail, where a computer records a message.  Then I get an email that I have a message.  So why the fuck am I carrying around a phone that is always powered on? So I might get a notification that I have a fucking email, that someone might have tried to make contact with me?

My wife really doesn't understand this. Her normie self thinks it is fucking normal to be available and interruptible all day and night. That is complete bullshit.

So why do I even carry my phone around at all?  It is a fucking game-boy. I can do a crossword puzzle on it while taking a shit, instead of fucking around with a newspaper and finding a pen.  It plays music in my car, and has maps.  On my motorcycle, it shows my speed and RPMs, because the displays on the motorcycle itself are down by my nuts, and I don't ride around on my motorcycle looking at my own sack.  On my boat, it displays nautical charts, GPS positioning and plotting, and speed. I can also check tide charts. In the grocery store, it keeps my store coupons organized and actually saves me money, but I question this a bit. And yeah, when I'm pretending to sit around and watch TV, I can play Mah-jongg, read shit on Nostr, and shitpost.

Are any of those purposes necessary? Nope. Not one. But some are really fucking handy.  Probably the most handy are the maps and charts, MC displays, and maybe the coupons. The shittier part of this is the handy stuff is also the stuff that relies on mobile data and GPS, so going to WiFi only isn't a great option.

Does turning off my phone make sense? Not really.  Just more bother turning it back on when I want to do something with it. I think I'll continue to just leave it behind more and more.  That way the excuse "I didn't have my phone on me" rings true, because I rarely will have my phone on me.  If I need it for something, I'll know where to find it.

But you know what I won't be needing it for? Phone calls. I'll see whatever came of those when I check my email next, which might be a few hours, maybe even a day or more.  If you need something more urgently, come find me, or find someone else.


So glad I got the note about the notification so I could turn off my phone and avoid the notification and not have to be notified or test my notifications because who wants to get a notification?

Turn. Off. Your. Damn.


I don't need a support group.  Sure, as someone who is trying to make major changes to their diet, getting some support is a common recommendation.  I'm a little past that, though.  I'm not struggling to make the changes, I'm not looking to go back to eating slop and toxins.

I joined a discussion forum so maybe I could learn some things. Maybe I could help someone else by sharing my experiences.  Maybe I could channel some of the energy I come here with over there, and save you all the dietary posts here.  I still will post things here, but hopefully not as much.  I'm sure many of my 3 followers are sick of reading about meats.


Hmm. I could pick this apart. But I won't. I think I'll just say that diet isn't really a way of thinking, more of a way of action.


Gn #nostr.

Today is the day my shrink and I agreed to terminate my counseling sessions. Been doing that weekly for about 18 months, and I believe I am much better for it. I really think everyone should give it a try, at least once or twice in your life. I think I learned a lot. Now I will meet with him once more in 2 weeks, and then be done.

In completely unrelated news, I joined my first carnivore support forum today.

Really, you can ask me anything about either topic. In public or private, although I may not see a nostr dm in a timely manner if I don't know to go look.


Fact of life in some parts of the pacific northwest.


I need the Dragonhawks.
#tunestr

https://tidal.com/browse/track/87465014


I think he's making the point there won't be much sunshine for the next few months.

My take on the cheese grater - is that an LED light?


Ask him for the video version of the class so I could go home and watch it later.


Wasn't even aware that company still existed; had thought it had been outed as a scam a few years back. Maybe the zombie will finally die.


Fuck yeah, much better.  If you want to learn from me, then you'll probably be learning about shoving lots of meat in your mouth.  Or maybe riding motorcycles, as that is something I am still learning right now.  Mostly you'd probably learn how to be a whiney cunt, though, because I know I spend plenty of time whining on nostr about whatever bullshit my ass is bleeding over today.  Take a fucking syllabus.  But thanks for caring enough in between flaming all the liberals, racists, and whomever else in global you care to troll. I appreciate you.


This is super helpful, for comparison.

My primary sources are currently:

Hempler's ground pork (or similar sausage varieties), which I get on 30% off sale, normal price $5/lb.  These seem to have a reasonable ingredient list, much better than store brand or Johnsonville. I like this for a morning meal, with some butter over the top.

markdown steak, usually sirloin, top or bottom round.  I try not to get it sliced thin.  My goal price is under $7/lb.  I'm really flexible otherwise.  Today ate about 1 pound of top sirloin from walmart, marked down to $6.17/lb.

Shrimp. Walmart sells medium size, pre-cooked, for less than $6 per package.  I think the packages are 16 oz, but may be less, maybe 12 oz.

Pepperoni slices. 6 oz packs of store brand. (about $2.50)  Trying to keep this to two or less per week.

Salmon - typically the pre-portioned 4oz smoked peppered one, when it is on sale, for a little less than $7.  This is kind of a treat item, once or twice a month.

Butter - unsalted. on pork, steak, or by itself. occasionally in coffee. Try to find it on sale for $3.50/lb or less.

I eat other stuff my wife cooks too, and occasionally other stuff I cook.  I'm making a pork roast right now, that I will mostly turn into a Mexican inspired stew with green peppers and enchilada sauce.  I will probably have some, but not much, and as little of the sauce as I can manage.  I may save some when I shred it, before I add all the sauce stuff.

But those are my staples. I have a Cinder grill in my home office that I cook on during the day, which is when/where I normally eat most of my food.  I normally don't eat dinner with the family, even if I cook it.  If my wife makes a meat thing (she likes cooking me steaks sometimes), I'll eat some mostly to be polite, but usually it is overseasoned and often sauced.

I think generally I am between $10 and $20 per day.  I'd like to be closer to $10, maybe a little less, most days, but still learning how to get there.  Maybe I'll start on ground beef, as I have been accumulating it as its been on sale, often at less than $2/lb

I admit to being a little more leery of cooking things on the Cinder grill that require being cooked well or all the way through. That thing malfunctions all the time, already looking for better options. I don't care if my steaks are underdone, not sure how I feel about ground beef or organ meats being similarly underdone.

The liver I see at Walmart usually looks a little sketchy, not sure what they've added to it to preserve it. But I can probably give it a try.


This is pretty fucking weak for you. You can come harder than this. Bullshit aphorisms? You can do so much better, and change the world by doing so.


I prefer something that is solar powered, although kinetic powered also works.  Had good luck with Seiko and Citizen.  Beyond that, the simpler the better.


So you're not going to ask when you take my personal information, and you won't tell me that you did? Well, thanks for the reach around, friend!


Only 6 months in, and I'm already experimenting with various meat options.  I had been eating sausage in some form almost daily, and/or cured meats.  I'm trying to cut back on these. Finding sausage without corn syrup added, or at least sugars added, isn't cheap.  Cured meats add dextrose, which is a sugar, but pepperoni slices are a cheap and easy snack.

I started with nuts, but the peanut jar was one of the first things I gave up, maybe a month in. I'd been drinking more milk recently, even adding it to coffee (which I normally drink black). Interesting that you found it stalled weight loss.

I think my next thing to add is chicken organs (liver and others). I keep seeing the tub at the store, or the package of gizzards and others, and just haven't had the courage to pick it up. I'm afraid my cooking methods might fail me, more than the taste, which I don't mind at all.

I'm doing this on the cheap as best I can, out of the supermarket, hunting sales.  I'm not going to argue that this is the way, but it is the circumstance I am currently in.


It sure does, and has for quite some time. I think the guillotine was a pretty strong exemplar of its physical effect. Or the wiped out civilizations of South America.


Have you considered this from the other side? If you didn't think everyone was going to Heaven, why bother? Why set yourself up for some eventual sorting based on some criteria, performed by someone else?  I find that type of approach to be damaging to the self.  But then again, my belief in a heaven is about as weak as it gets. I'm not saying it doesn't exist - but I very much doubt it exists as anyone imagines, and would not be surprised if it didn't exist.  What does exist is Christians. And from what I've seen, no thanks, wouldn't bother.


Meat and other animal products are optimal.  Everything else is non-optimal. I can eat non-optimal food, but why should I? Personal enjoyment? Social grace?  I do eat some other things for those reasons.  Maybe there are certain situations where briefly using sugars for quick energy make sense, like doing some brief physical activity.  This is where I would see fruits as a decent suggestion.

Coffee and tea are an addiction, not food. I drink a lot of coffee, but I know it is because I am addicted to caffeine. I'm choosing to accept the risks associated with that addiction at this point, but that may change in the future.

Wheat is not food for humans. Neither is soy.

Quantity is interesting.  I think a good idea is to be inconsistent. I'm not necessarily advocating for intermittent fasting, but it doesn't hurt to go for a day or more without eating.  And don't always eat the same amount, or at the same time.  I think having some amount of meat, preferably during the daytime, most days, is the way to go.  I tend to eat a lot less on weekends. Last weekend I didn't have a meal between 4p Friday and about 5p Sunday, because I was busy doing other things.  I wasn't overly hungry, though, and I had eaten slightly more on Friday than usual.  I wasn't trying to fast either, it was just by circumstance.


Something new.


Ty Karnage. Satellite is my primary client; not sure mute words are coming there anytime soon. I probably wouldn't use them much, except maybe to get rid of airdrops.  Satellite's threading lends itself well enough to my purposes, by only showing the top message in the conversation, and a count of replies. If the top message isn't something I care about, it is easy enough to scroll on by.  It also sorts (and continually resorts) its feed by latest reply to a conversation, so the busy current conversations are at or near the top of the list.

My only gripe here (and I've expressed it often) is there is only one list, "Following".  (Technically there is also the "Featured" list, which Stuart was talking about the other day - but I don't need a popular algorithm, I need my curated lists).

I tried going back to Amethyst the other day, after getting Amber set up.  It was like going from a mostly calm neighborhood pub to a disco, and not really in a pleasant way for me. Muting words wouldn't make a difference there either. To each their own, though.


Do you want to fuck? That is what dating apps optimize for. There are better ways to meet people you want more from.


Gn #nostr.

I believe at this point, my experience with nostr has shown me more about what I find to be noise than anything else, allowing me to hone in on what I choose as signal.

And to our orange friends, I find almost everything about money and economy to be noise these days. Nobody knows for sure how or when things will play out. Running around like chicken little every time somebody says something is just silly.

Once you see how things work, there's little use trying to relearn it all the time. Maybe an occasional reminder is nice, but so is moving on and learning something new.


I get that. But 2 things.

1. You wouldn't feed a cow the same diet as a walrus, just because both are animals

2. Adaptive, yes. But there is a diffrtence between what we've adapted to be able to survive on, although not optimal, and what we have been selected to thrive on, as optimal nutrients.


I agree! Eating dog food is dumb dumb.  So is eating cow food, or rabbit food. DUMB DUMB!


Nope. zaps go to the attached wallet of the author of the post, not the person reposting. I always found that interesting in #zapathon when people would repost memes.  Now you can include a note reference in your own note and post it that way, more like a quote-repost.  Then you authored a note, so you would get the zaps (unless they still zapped the note embedded in your note).


That's quite excellent, sir. However, the term "Colored" may end up raising some of the wrong eyebrows.


YAAS!


big if true.

Penis.


These clearly aren't shite markers then, as you've been advertising.  Shite markers would be so dried out they would be streaky color at best on first use, fresh out of the package. You wouldn't be able to get anywhere near as consistent a color coverage as the light blue or magenta. The reddish brown looks a little drier, but that would be about the best I would expect out of true shite markers.

It's OK, I am sure your availability is limited. I would go down to my local diner and grab a cup full of the markers they give to the kiddos to draw on activity page handouts, but I don't think they trust those kids with markers anymore and have crayons instead. Safer to stick in your nose and ears, I guess. Maybe I could just send you a few golf pencils.  You could just imagine they were colorful. I have some broken ones sitting around from my past life as a karaoke host.


Best one yet! Although the pink haired skele is great too.

Will you be publishing as NFTs? (j/k - already right clicked and own my favs!)


Somewhere along the way, the western world seems to have forgotten who is in power, who is pulling the strings of control when needed.

Pick your favorite nefarious cabal. Maybe these days it is the WEF, but I would guess it is far smaller group, and less obvious.  It really doesn't matter much which group they are, or what they tell us to call them.

The group has been in power for quite some time, probably since the ends of the Roman Empire.  They would have easily been able to sit back through the times of the British Empire.  Some might argue Zionist roots.

The way they have maintained that level of control is by making sure everyone else didn't really know where to look or how to go about taking over.  One of the tools to use is the Hegelian dialectic.  I won't explain it here, but any time I see a clear message of divisiveness, something appearing to support an "us vs. them" mentality, I see that control structure.  It's not hard to engineer. Mean girls in middle school can do a passable job of it.

us vs. them doesn't really help us or them.  Under any serious inspection, it is when we cooperate and work together that both benefit.  Whenever it seems like the world is heading in that direction, a new separation is tested.  Race has been the nebulous factor in that separation plenty of times, in plenty of ways. Now we see gender and sexuality pushed on hard as being a separation.

As your uncle might say, you gotta keep 'em separated.  They'll be too busy worrying about each other's power to see the powers that are in the background, quietly pulling the strings and gaining more wealth and power.

It takes a strong mind to ignore most of that, or at least accept it and move on.  I can accept whites are being pitted against everyone else, and choose not to engage in that effort further.  I have other more important things to worry about than the genetics of my neighbors, like providing for my children and making sure they have the best opportunity to succeed in this world, while teaching them what traps to avoid and helping them navigate around them.

We'll see how it works out. Got my popcorn.


I don't understand why people think they should eat foods that animals eat.  Just because an animal eats it, doesn't mean you or I should.

Sure we could, but that don't mean we should. Might hurt later.


I believe in soil that is of an agreeable composition to nurture the growth of the plants that in turn nourish the animals that I prefer to eat.  Seems magic enough for me, but through the miracles of co-evolution, there's plenty of it to be had here.


Gn #nostr.

Spent the weekend peeling wallpaper... boo.

....

With my son. Yay!

This week, prep and prime. Next weekend, paint his room the color he picked.


Agree.

Rather annoyed that graphene lets google play send a notification that it has important notifications, which on inspection is a reminder to enable its notifications. Nope. No thanks. Nothing sandboxed google play has to say will be something I care to hear or act on.


Is the accent on the second or third syllable?


Gn #nostr.

Wiped out.


I don't think I understand this at all, maybe something lost in translation.

Maybe part of "the point" is to accept our understanding of the past is our best guess, and still be able to use that along with our present values and emotions to still decide on and act in ways that we believe consistent with improving our situation.


Gn paulo 🌝


Gn #nostr.

One thing I have been spending some cycles thinking about is consequence.

Like it is amazing to me that there are people out there that have no real consequences for their actions.  More and more children are being raised this way.  Television writing supports this, and many model their actions on what they see on TV, even subconsciously.

Another facet of this is support structures. As an orphan (lost both parents relatively young) from a small family, I know if I fuck up, I am screwed. No safety nets, nobody's going to lift a finger to save me. Its been that way for most of my life, to the point where I assume that this is more the case than it probably actually is.

Other people have families that will take them in, communities that might help support them, friends and other support structures. Must be nice. I have responsibilities and consequences, and it is a much different world for me.


Come and take my potato gun. Just try.


Well, actual history is not what you've been told.

Also, the past is not as you remember it.


Crosswords. Mahjongg. Occasionally sudoku. I've played pokemon go in the past, but decided I didn't want to be continuous gps tracked.


Friday night lights.


same.


When what you do matters, it matters what you do.


That is planning out to be my focus over the next 6 mos.  My trigs aren't at an alarming rate, but I can probably do more to help reduce them.  I agree I need more exercise.  Not sure about total calories, but I will probably be bouncing that around a bit.

I'm dealing with some knee pain now that is making the exercise more of an issue, got my first steroid shot in my knee yesterday, and early results haven't been promising; need to see how it works out over the next couple weeks.  I was told in my 20s I had some degenerative issues with the cartilage under my kneecap, and my doc now thinks this is just a progression of that issue, even though it did seem to come on suddenly a few months back and never get much better since.  I expect to go a couple rounds with ortho, maybe PT. the steroid was just an easy opening option.

If Saladino or Shawn Baker are around, happy to have that conversation.  I think I am battling a shitload of genetics fucked squarely on a lifetime of shitty self-care.  This isn't going to fix itself overnight, and what I'm not going to do is run back to pharma for a solution.  I believe there is a way through this, continual improvement, a little better every day, and a little more repairs made to past wounds.


My always low HDL definitely points to some things.  It had been 31 for a while, and in my 30s dropped to 26. Crestor and at least trying to be healthier got it to 32/33.  (not really crediting Crestor here, but that was a factor at the time).  Now carnivore got me to 39.  That tells me I'm on the right track.  I will be exploring more ways to raise my HDL number.

I've been tested for thyroid issues before, and had some family history of it. Tests did not show any abnormality. TSH with reflex to FT4 was 2.13, 5 months ago.


Thanks for the video, very helpful. I may have some disagreements with Ivor over the benefit of vegetables, but it does a good job of explaining the carbs and triglycerides (this one I hadn't dug into very much yet, as mine had generally been in normal ranges).

This is the test I will be taking for particle size. Among others, it is part of a package that also includes the standard lipids (cholesterol) panel.
https://www.questdiagnostics.com/healthcare-professionals/clinical-education-center/faq/faq134


This is my blog, friend. My notes, and other stuff like blog posts, transmitted over relays.

I also use long-form post services like habla.news and yakihonne occasionally.  This was a post to a community (something implemented in Satellite to resemble Reddit-style posts with moderation), but I also wanted it to reach others outside of that community that have expressed interest in my journey.  If that's not you, no worries.  If my notes aren't what you want to see, there's an unfollow option in most clients that can help with that.  I'm not an influencer, and could care less how many followers I have.  I do value everyone that takes an interest in passions similar to my own, one of those passions being what we consume.


Not sure how posts to communities show up in the general feeds, but for those following along with my carnivore path, here is the latest test results and explanations.

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https://satellite.earth/thread/note1n42wtnugu85z5mx8azd99spzxfxr2anu80jl0gaaacgm89vr44xslzh5q8


Results as of 6 months on low-carb/high-fat carnivore diet

I took blood tests at 1 month in, and now at 6 months in.  Prior to starting carnivore, I was being treated for slightly elevated cholesterol with a statin (Crestor - rosuvastatin), and have always also had low HDL cholesterol counts.  I was narrowly pre-diabetic (A1C at or above 5.7%, at its highest, 5.9%).  My weight over the past 10 years has ranged from 255lbs to 310lbs.  When I started this diet (and also quit nicotine within a couple weeks), I was pretty close 310 lbs, maybe a little heavier on a bad day.  I've also had my gall bladder removed, 10+ years ago.

I stopped taking Crestor several months before starting this diet.

My LDL numbers while on the statin were 83 and 73 (2021 and 2022 tests). HDL was 33/32, on those tests, and triglycerides were 132 and 161.  "Total" cholesterol was 139/129.  These numbers were keeping the doctors happy, and my cholesterol was "under control".  I don't really want to take maintenance medications at all. I'm trying to get to a place where I don't need any medications to live without being deemed high risk for heart disease, stroke, or other internal failure.  It may be a bit of a pipe dream, thanks to hereditary high blood pressure.

But the research on cholesterol is, at best, contested.  The science hasn't definitively said that having a high cholesterol count causes heart attack, stroke, atherosclerosis (artery hardening), or really much of anything.  It has potentially shown some specific correlations, but not causation.  Most of the cholesterol scare was based on a hypothesis that didn't end up proving out in studies, but once it had legs through the US FDA and American Heart Association, it refused to die, and now we have doctors trained on old bad science.

So, my numbers a month after going carnivore. anything other than meat, eggs, and dairy was avoided almost entirely.  No vegetables aside from herbs, seasonings, or medicines - and these were used rarely and minimally.  Mostly because I don't cook my own meals always; part of living in an active family.  Cooking in butter, ghee, lard, occasionally crappy olive oil.  Not eating expensive meats, either. Mostly stuff on sale at the supermarket. Plenty of sausage, cured meats, shrimp, even sometimes corned beef or baloney. I'm not a purist, but am slowly getting better at my selectivity when it comes to which meats I put in my mouth. Right now I am still a meat whore.

Yes, numbers.  1 month after, LDL was 193, HDL was 39, Triglycerides 160, "Total Cholesterol" 265.  My doctor convinced me to be prescribed Crestor again. I never filled the prescription.  A1C was 5.6%, technically no longer prediabetic.  Glucose at 98. BUN at 24 (twice prior number).  I don't think there were any other numbers that changed significantly from past tests, and nothing the doctor was concerned about.  He was definitely flipping out about the cholesterol numbers, threatening me with imminent death. Fuck that, still living, and living well!

6 months after (two days ago), LDL was 196, HDL was 39, Triglycerides 170, "Total Cholesterol" 269.  Dr still threatening my with imminent death if I didn't go back on a statin. Tried to recommend some plant based margarine substitute sludge, nope. Red yeast rice? nope. It contains the same active ingredient as the statin, but in uncertain quantities. CoQ10? Funny, this one. the best way to get CoQ10 is through MEAT! Organ meat and reindeer meat are the highest, but beef is way better than pork or chicken. I don't fault him for this, he was trying to do exactly what his training told him, and what any medical standards board would expect of him.

I asked for a cholesterol particle size test in our next round of bloodwork, scheduled in 6 months.  I'd even done enough research to know the name of the test from the testing service he uses.  I will take that test in March. The doc told me that he didn't believe the results of that test would convince him that the cholesterol was not an imminent problem or change his desire to see my numbers reduced, but he also said that he would need to do a little research to even interpret the full results of that test - so I find that a little helpful. I will definitely be doing that research!!!

One thing I did gather from the results - my numbers did not significantly change between 1 month and 6 months.  This indicates relative stability, not something running out of control.  HDL is still low, but better than it ever has been.  We didn't even do the A1C test, but glucose was at 95, BUN at 22, slightly less than the previous test.  I want to keep an eye on that BUN number, because I care about my liver and kidney function a lot.

I think the tests were largely as expected.  I will happily update with more in 6 months.  Happy to answer any questions about numbers, both the ones I shared and any others you may be curious about.

One thing to consider here.  The science, the research - it has been done almost exclusively on people that do NOT eat my diet.  If I were eating standard American foods, even the "healthy" stuff, I would be 100% agreeing with my doctor that death is imminent and cholesterol needs to come down as soon as possible.  I told my doctor this.  The reality in my situation is that organs are functioning differently in response to being in ketosis, among other things, and not having to filter out all the toxins and garbage from plant foods. The walls of arteries and veins behave differently when insulin is reduced thanks to lower blood glucose.  The efficiency of nutrient absorption is simply different.  Having additional cholesterol in my blood does NOT necessarily mean it will create additional plaque on vascular walls.  Some of this has also has to do with the particle size of that additional cholesterol.

I know that I will never return to a vegetable and sugar-heavy diet.  I may have a sweet dessert occasionally, or have some sauces or other things that I know are not healthy.  I may have a glass of bourbon, or worse, rum.  Maybe a beer, among friends.  However, I will probably never eat another bowl of pasta, rice, or salad.  I doubt I will ever eat chips, crisps, fries, or most other potato foods again; if so, very sparingly or incidentally (like my mother in law makes this really good tuna casserole, and uses potato chips to "crust" the top of it.  I may have a small portion, just because I really do like the taste, and out of general politeness).  This is much different to me than eating a bag of chips.  Yes, there are noodles as well, and that is why I would only have a very small portion, not a big bowl or mound on my plate.

Nothing in the last 6 months, including these test results, is convincing me of any need for plants in my normal diet.  I don't need fiber to take a shit, or do anything else for that matter.  Fiber continually scratches the walls of the intestines, making them slimy with a similar substance to what forms as part of a scab before the scab hardens.  This lubricates the intestine making waste that is difficult to pass slide through easier.  Well, my waste is much less than normal (normally only need to shit every 3-4 days), and is (actually thanks partially to not having a gall bladder) already more liquid and more comprised of oils and fats, so it is self-lubricating. I don't need scratched up intestines being at risk for inflammation or infection.  Because of this major change, as well as differences in where digestion is actually occurring in my system when it comes to digesting meats versus plants, and where stomach acids, bile, etc. are actually concentrated, I think I am likely at far less risk for intestinal and colorectal complications, cancers, etc.  I did have a prostate screening blood test and showed no markers for that.

Yes, this was a long read, but with lots of information.  Please don't take my word for any of this; these are my best guesses and assumptions based on my own research, which was far from exhaustive.  Do your own research, and if it directly contradicts what I am saying, let me know.


This sounds oddly specific to one substance.  I'm not even committed to what substance(s) I may try.


Fuck popular.  I am very proud of my Viking heritage.  Beer and sausage doesn't even enter into it.  That definitely includes all we did to liberate the island kingdoms from a bunch of pussies. Funny how those noble bitches didn't see it that way, but their women did! Don't even get me started on the ridiculous beliefs that spread out the Roman empire as a means to further enslave the masses, even in distant regions.  The only beef I have with jews is this silliness about being a chosen people.  I guess that makes up for being kicked out of every place they've tried to occupy.  They must have been chosen as the next to GTFO.


gm kini 🌞


Explain? May have missed this "amber".


Gn #nostr.

I really want to understand microdosing.

I get recreational use - like hey, we're all out here camping, let's go to la-la land for a while.

I also get using in a guided or solo spiritual, ritual, or healing session.

I'm not quite sure what to make of repeated use by microdose, though. Like if I were to try it, what would my intent going in, and desired outcomes be?

I think this deserves some looking into. Also, I have lab results back, and will share.


Plants.
Consentual sex between adults.
Personal safety gear and PPE.


Satellite. No list support.

I would consider going back to Amethyst, but not until I don't need to give it my nsec.


Gn #$nostr.

Daily incremental improvement.

Sometimes those improvements are hard to see when your world is burning down around you. Doesn't mean they aren't there.

The world has been burning down around me for 37 years. No reason for it to matter more today or tomorrow than yesterday. Better to find and focus on the improvements.

My dad died 37 years ago (not exactly). That is when I learned the meaning of finite.


I use this to sharpen paper, especially heavy stock. Sharp paper makes the best paper cuts. If sharp enough, and the right weight, I can even fold sharpened paper into ninja throwing stars that will easily put an eye out, just like yo mama warned you about.

Paper sharpeners of this robust vintage are a real treasure.


These are the best tools. Some of my favorite tools are ones I've edited heavily or built to fit a specific need.

Belt tensioners are no fun, but the right tool (often not the proprietary tool) will make life much easier.


I'm an extremist because I don't necessarily believe killing (whether you call it murder or not) is wrong.


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Gn #nostr.

(This might be a long one)

tldr: communism ruins everything.

I've been seriously considering making a huge career change, where I would probably end up as some kind of psychologist, assisting patients with hallucinogenic therapy. It is something I admit to being drawn toward, but completely outside of my experience and education. It would probably mean a decade of education and training.

But I've mostly decided against it, because while I would love to help people in this way, I have such strongly held negative opinions toward the existing institutions of academia, science, and medicine that I would be essentially putting myself in a place of dissonance. I think there must be some other way I can find to support and/or assist in this effort.

In explaining this to someone else, I started making the example of:

Say I was a communist, and believed strongly in communism and state control as the best way of living. Now, put me in a place where that would be challenged, frustrated, almost impossible to live in. My first thought was somewhere overwhelmingly capitalist - but I couldn't actually think of any places like that.

Then I lit upon this idea - put me (as a communist) in a remote homestead, where there is very minimal state influence.  This was the best example I could think of as an uncomfortable place for a communist.

But then I had the thought - well, what are communes? Kind of similar to that remote homestead. But did any succeed? Arguably only the ones that were essentially dictatorships (cults) and only for brief period of time.

Then thought of the opposite - where would a communist feel most comfortable. My first thought - New York City. Seems very centrally planned.

The more I thought of it, the more it seemed that a communist could go anywhere and ruin it, while trying to make it more in line with their ideals. We're seeing this play out globally at this point.

Sorry for the wander. Just a note to remind myself of lots of different thoughts I had earlier.


I think I've always hippie tripped, but the last time was a decade ago, maybe more. What's going on in Oregon (near enough to me to make availability easier) and some of the recent research has reignited some interest, though.

Microdosing as a concept is at least worth considering. I'm no longer a recreational substance user (except caffeine). I don't want to intentionally lie to myself, but that wasn't really my experience on hallucinogenics. It is interesting to see something very differently from what we know it to be. It isn't invalidating the way you've always seen it, but instead adding perspective, or dimension, like adding color to sound.

I'm still unsure of what purpose it would serve for me. I want to approach it with intent, and until I determine that intent, I will probably leave it to others.

But if I do show up here one day rolling, I'll be sure to let you all know ;)


I have a question. These are all "National..."  This nation is Australia? Or something else?  How does this nation's days compare with the special days of other nations who have published similar celebrations? Shit, that's too many questions. I may have some corned beef hash tomorrow (27th), but likely not, because I will probably eat ribeye instead.


not everyone has a mute button. and if you're across multiple clients, mute isn't implemented consistently anyway. I've found life (on nostr) more interesting without any mute whatsoever.


Now, I'm wondering how nostr while microdosing psylocibin would be. or maybe even mdma. This really is a beautiful place already. that may be a beauty and meaning overload.


@boho I have a dr appt tomorrow. that means bloodworks coming soon. ~6 mos results of carnivore. much interesting.


tampon


right?

but the responses are so cryptic that they could be random, but are they? and if not, then how to decipher them? and not just text, but the images, with another layer of response. 42?


Me, enjoying the simple nature of Satellite.earth.

The feed: new feature this, developers that, next big thing, relays, follows, zaps, blah.

Me. I kind of miss my lists. Eh.


I don't understand mainvolume. Yet.


It becomes a little easier once you accept this state, and stop putting a lot of energy into trying to change them. Really hard to change a sheep into a dolphin. Why not let them be sheep?

Accepting the inherent futility in trying to actively change others allows us to channel our efforts into other areas, which may be more effective in passively changing others.  The smarter of the stupid will at least realize that you may know something of value to them, and ask about it.

I try not to put any energy into contempt, because it doesn't move anything forward.  Sometimes I fail, granted. I can definitely be disagreeable and dismissive. Mostly I just try to pick my battles, check my reactions, accept my own weaknesses, and work to improve on them. I try to look at people and situations as opportunities to learn from. I know I can learn a lot from you.  I can learn from sheep and snails as well, but the lessons learned may not be as obvious.


Mr. Stella better look out - he may lose his pants momentarily.


There is a hair in this nut milk, friend.


This is actually a place where i think Whitney Webb (although I'm not really a fan) has done the research, and I think has come to the conclusion that major child sexual abuse is common to most upper echelons of establishments with high concentrations of centralized power.

At least I recall something like that, coming from someone else who wasn't me.


That's the narrative anyway...


As is anything that enables us to lie to ourselves.


I could easily replace "Catholic church" with "religious", but that would just piss off way more people.


This may be something lost in translation. I would PREFER to attack a person in very specific circumstances. Fairness isn't an issue here, just preference.  It is unfair that I am leaping to an assumption of translation issues. But I did it anyway, hope you don't feel too attacked.


Gn #nostr.

I find I am disgusted by many things. Some very general categorizations:

- culture taken out of context

- Imposing beliefs on others

- Disregard for consequences

Just these 3 categories make television almost entirely unwatchable. I'm curious how much they impede my meager efforts to connect socially.


Gn #nostr.

I miss you.


Gn roya 🌛


Channelling their spirit grouse!


Or Devil Driver - Sail


OK, here's a cover request. OTEP - Royals


Finally live on zap.stream!
Gonna do some fun Metal covers of songs!

https://zap.stream/naddr1qq9rzd3ex56rxd33x5msygrjl9642q0p53ry7unhmpsjpan70alv82zw76qne3mqd067ppc07vpsgqqqwens9e492r


Glad I caught your stream.  Gotta run!


BTW, I'm listening to TheSameCat's stream, probably shutting this back down.


Thx!


Hey Cat, I'm going to put my stream up for a few minutes in case you want to see my layout.


I have Spotify, but try to avoid it.


I played the shit out of Halestorm when I was pushing videos a couple weeks ago.


I never found a good solution for pulling track info from Tidal. I found one that was OK, but wouldn't work with videos.


Sound's fine. video probably looks better than I had mine.


Sound


Agree.  Had to limit a few specific ones because they would lag the stream (using a cheap $200 laptop probably didn't help) but aside from that, they look killer.


I used them for my stream as well!  Looks good!


Graphics by Plane9?


Sup!


Gn #nostr.

Interesting times indeed.


Gn Sally 🌙


Gn Malos 🌛


Gn #nostr.

A little early for me, but that's ok. Then I won't feel the need to check in later.

As a person that tends toward routine, I need to be able to forgive myself if I don't indulge in social media every day.

Got some things to sort out. I think the next few months are going to be interesting times.


Gn #nostr.

Today was one of those days where it felt like the fiat mine was trying to fight me. If there are more ways to make my job more annoying and inefficient, I'm really not interested in finding all of them.


Gn #nostr 💤🛌

Situation normal.


Today's total was definitely over 400. I just happened to do 310 without stopping.
My longest is still 16 hours straight through to Wyoming, followed by a 3-hour nap, then 9 hours to Vegas. That was rough, but I could (and would) do it again if I needed to. I've driven for a living (as a courier) before too, but that was a long time ago.


Gn #nostr.

Home safely after a 6 hour drive. Visited 2 Harley stores on opposite sides of the state on the same day.

How many have driven through a full tank of gas, no stops? Did this for 310 miles today.


Gn ck 🌛


Gn #nostr.

Won't see my daughter for a couple months. Did a lot of shopping today (something we have always enjoyed doing together), so happy we could leave it like that.

Tomorrow is the 6 hour drive home. I may be stopping by a couple HD dealerships.


Better than I expected. But she hasn't ever given me a reason to doubt her, so I'm sure she'll be fine.


Gn #nostr.

6 hour drive today, then tomorrow I move my daughter into her dorm, and set her free into the next chapter of her life.

Big things ahead, for sure.


Or buy less a few months later for 100k. Plenty of pretty smart people thought that had a very good chance of happening.  Nobody knows what a future exchange rate is going to be.  This is wholly dependent on what your own reserve asset is, and how volatile you expect its future exchange rate to be.


What if I told you...

EVERY transaction you make is a trade against your bitcoin stack, if you are thinking in a Bitcoin standard.  Every bill you pay, every coffee you buy. All of it.

That is the way opportunity cost works. Opportunity cost is almost an afterthought in the Keynesian model, but it was briefly covered in my Econ 101 class a lot of years ago.  In Austrian economics, it is much more front and center.

If you make a transaction where you got a product or service, and you gave someone some paper bank notes - well, those paper bank notes could have also bought sats at TODAY's exchange rate.  Instead, you will pay a different exchange rate (could be lower or higher) the next time you buy sats.  You may get more sats or less sats for the same amount of paper bank notes than you would have gotten today.

If you make a transaction where you promise to pay later (likely with interest) for a product or service (or house) - same exact thing.  You could have promised to pay later for sats, and gotten sats at today's exchange rate.  You could have traded sats (at today's exchange rate) for the product or service - but instead, you took a gamble on what that exchange rate would be in the future.

We do this all the time, in every transaction.  We are gambling on what the exchange rate of our reserve currency will be in the future, and trying to make the best decisions to maintain or increase our reserves while also satisfying our needs. My reserve currency is Bitcoin.  How that gamble plays out? Only the future will tell, but being aware of the risks, bets, gambles, and leveraged situations I am putting myself in definitely helps me make better informed decisions in every transaction.  Like why I bought a motorcycle, in November (fall, here), on credit.  A lot of future predictions and bets and gambles were in play here. I could have not bought it at all.  I could have bought it with bitcoin, and never paid any interest.  I might have been able to buy it with paper bank notes (and probably had to sell bitcoin, because I don't keep that many paper bank notes around).  But all that gets simplified with opportunity cost.  I bought a motorcycle, which means I wanted a motorcycle more than I wanted bitcoin. This is true.  The way I bought it was, in my estimation at that time, the way I could get the motorcycle while also ending up with the most bitcoin in my reserve.  That hasn't fully played out yet, but I'm not regretful of the transaction, and I still have plenty of bitcoin in my reserve.

EVERY transaction is a trade against your bitcoin stack, if your reserve is in bitcoin.

I don't make a lot of bitcoin posts here, but wanted to share this note, because it is a very important thing for people to wrap their minds around when considering changing reserve currencies.


What they could have done isn't at issue. Trying to shame past actions isn't helpful either. It is what you do today, with your next transaction.  Is that transaction going to be borrowing against your house? Is it going to be handing someone else slips of paper? Is it going to be "charrrrge iiiitttt" on your little plastic thingy? Or are you selling your reserve bitcoin?  I actually have another opinion on this, but putting it its own post.


Umm, doing fine?  If they had/have a consistent cash flow that enables them to make a fixed home mortgage payment (sorry for those who don't have fixed payments), then all that makes sense and isn't super risky.  I absolutely took advantage of a lower interest rate and a much increased home valuation to handle a few things: dropping PMI, and then leveraging up to 80% of my home value with a reasonable monthly payment to get dollars out.  Those dollars partly went to some home improvements (new roof, new heat pumps), paid off some higher interest rate debt, and absolutely bought some bitcoin.  I don't regret any of that, even though I think when I was doing those buys, bitcoin was around $48k USD.  And I haven't had to sell any of it.

Now, doing the same thing right now, at double the interest rate, almost double the house payment? Not the same scenario.  Going past 80% of home value, where you are paying PMI? not something I would want to do. Taking on a mortgage tied to rising interest rates, or with a monthly amount that would already be uncomfortable to satisfy based on your income cash flow? Nope.  Not discounting your income a bit based on the screwy job market, where you are potentially more likely to be laid off from a tenured position, or are trying to ladder up from position to position between various small companies?  Bad idea, your incoming cash flow may be interrupted for months at a time.

So then, for some, it may have been the right idea.  I don't mind taking on some low-interest debt, or maintaining low interest debt, to buy bitcoin.  That is all MS is really saying and doing.  Overall, you are trying to accumulate more bitcoin today, and pay for it by maintaining debt over time. I do this in the smallest of ways anytime I put something on a credit card instead of paying for it with cash, because I already know any extra cash I have sitting around is going to buy bitcoin, not pay down credit cards.  That means I need to be comfortable with my monthly credit card payments - and by comfortable, that means I need to be able to make them even if I'm a little short on income for a few months, or if they go up by 25%, even 50%. Or both. I need a plan for that.  The last option in that plan might be selling bitcoin, but there should be many options in front of that.

I have not yet had to sell bitcoin to cover debt.  I did sell a little bit when I tried to get paid 100% in bitcoin, because I still had to have US dollars to pay bills.  I've been tempted to sell some at other times, but converted debt to different forms (like personal loans, for example) or shifted things around so I wouldn't need to.  I'm not going to say never sell, but there are other options that may be out there.  One of those options may be your house, and changing how that is being paid for.  Every situation is different, with different options available.

And I don't know how I will react when bitcoin spikes the next time. Or the time after that.  I may sell some, and shift around some debt before buying back the bitcoin.  Depends what is going on with my cash flows at that time, I guess.  I'm thinking about leaving my current career, even - where I am at with that might make a big difference in what decisions I make.  Maybe I use some bitcoin to finance my career change. Maybe I won't have to.

Dismissing (or shaming) an idea that would be risky for one set of circumstances, or even many sets of circumstances, is not leaving yourself open to possibilities that may make sense and be much less risky for another set of circumstances.  You are definitely not in Michael Saylor's shoes, and don't have the same opportunities at your disposal - but you can definitely be as open-minded and strategic in the ways you stack.


Gn #nostr.

Getting busy living.


It's been 15 minutes. I imagine you are bleeding out of your eyes now. Stick with it!


Everything is definitely not ok.

However, you yourself are okay, and you are going to be okay. 🫂


Gm uncle 🌞


Gm boho ☀


I agree. It is different when eating no veggies or other fillers. Still, I would be fine with 12oz most of the time I am eating 16oz.


Usually one meat at a time. 1 lb of meat is plenty. Or 5 eggs.  If I only eat one meat, or just eggs, like on weekends, then all at once.


It depends on what you are consuming as calories.

During the week, I tend to eat 1-2 lbs of meat a day. I also eat several pats (maybe a half-stick) of butter. And some milk, but not much.  Today I had about 1 lb of sausage, a little less than 1 lb of steak, and 6 oz of of pepperoni.  Probably a little heavier day, but Mondays often are, because I eat a lot less most weekends.  This weekend, I think I had about 5 eggs and one big piece of salmon, maybe a lb, probably less. That's over 2 days. I also drink a lot of coffee and water. Tomorrow I plan to have about 1 lb of steak, and 12 oz of shrimp.

I don't know how many calories that is. I don't necessarily try to eat one meal a day, but often do on the weekends, or sometimes even skip a day.  I do try to eat between 10a and 4p, but sometimes have a snack before bed.

This is plenty to keep me feeling satiated. It is still probably far less than most diets, but I don't have sugar cravings and energy drops every couple hours to worry about and feed, and I'm not stuffing myself with filler foods (starches, pasta, rice) to be "full".

And I have more energy than ever, even throughout the day. Again, thanks to not depending on sugars/carbs for energy.

This isn't a perfect diet, but where I'm at right now. Ideally I would eat less sausage and cured meats.  Often curing means dextrose, and possibly corn syrup and/or sugar in sausage. Got to be really careful.


Is it truly wasted if it all served to bring you to the point you are at right this moment?  This point of understanding, potential, and acceptance?

I don't believe so. My acceptance of reality and time doesn't even work that way. All which may have come before is only as significant as its part in bringing me to this present, from which I make choices that will determine how I experience a future.


The thing I remember most from sep 11? The media reporting a few hours later that a Quran was found in the trunk of a car at the airport, which was clear as day the symbolic evidence needed to blame brown people.

Looked like a plant then, still does. This just illustrated the power of the media to channel and focus public opinion on the narrative.

I encourage you to all find your bogeyman and give him a hug.


Agree. We over-consume salt in so many ways. I've switched to unsalted butter for myself, and still buy salted butter for my family. When I get a taste of theirs now, it is salty enough to almost be off-putting.

I don't really eat breads or carbs or vegetables or anything else that might need extra salt for flavor.

On the flip side, my sweat isn't salty, so I am not sweating out toxins (excessive salt), and not retaining excessive water.

I suppose this is just my version of a heart-healthy, low sodium diet!


Everyones stressed out, needs money, & never satisfied. People are like glass so fragile one thing they shatter. In life people come & go thats why while they are here we must be hesitant in our choice of words.

People are so focused on telling the truth because their stressed & don't give a damn that they forgot people are like glass. We use to live in a time where everyone was told sticks & stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me. Look at the times now you don't believe me watch this ya snowflake.

See? Yes finding a friend is not easy but your lucky if you manage to find 1 friend.


Gn Will 🌛


Gn #nostr

Last night I said things were satisfactory. I may have spoken too soon. Now I just think its all complicated  but it will work its way out.

I know, vague observations of an unknown situation. It involves group dynamics, friendships that go back a ways (a decade or more), marital issues (mine and others) alcoholism, disrespect, memories, sticking up for others, and lots of unknowns that I have no control over.

Why does it have to be so hard to just find a friend? ffs!


Not for my own benefit, or on my own time. I have, when I was much younger, and was interested with fitting in with certain groups to attract their women. I'm sure I let my daughter paint them a couple times for her entertainment.  I'm a habitual nail biter, and I tried to break that habit at one time by being extra attentive to my fingernails, painting, trimming, filing - but it didn't take. I've become resigned to accepting nail biting as one of my vices.

Skirts? They aren't practical for me. And I don't need to draw that kind of attention to myself.

Manscaping? Tried it. Not a fan, wastes lots of time and money I could spend on other things. I'm more of a fan of natural hair growth, on both men and women. That's just the kind of savage I am.


Absolutely. That was in 2003, I think.

My furniture store I managed in 2005-6 jad one under the counter as a backup for when the computers went down. That would have been the last time I used one from the merchant side.


Last time I used one was at a gas station, where I was filling up the boat (80 gallon gas tank). They wanted extra precautions for me pre-paying $250 (us dollars) on my credit card. Had to get phone approval from the card company and they ran a card imprint as well. Total headache. Sold that boat, now I have a smaller boat with a 25 gallon tank (comparable to an SUV). This while thing was about 5 years ago, maybe a couple more.


Something I actually carried with me when I did door to door sales.


Many of those independent thinkers still haven't freed themselves from wanting to believe in a savior (whether it is religious, political, or economic), or from the slave mentality instilled in them by a slave society, always deferring to authority, leadership, or the cult (again, religious, political, or economic). Many have not accepted their own death.


Gn #nostr.

Successful day in many ways.


I call it bitcoin, and I think it is scaling as much as it needs to through L2s. I think lightning and liquid will both go through some evolution before they actually see widespread use, but that evolution shouldn't require changes to the L1. I don't see any issue with bitcoin's present fungibility. Last I checked, my bitcoin was still free of banks.

I think our only point of contention is whether or not it is reasonable to make changes to an L1 based on proposed needs for an L2. I say it is not.


Gn #nostr. 🌝

There are thoughts that get noted here that I find I no longer have any desire to engage to refute. Well, maybe a little desire, but I open the editor to post a reply, think about the energy it will take to type a reply, anf for what? Best case, we end up in some discussion (read - more energy expended by me), and at the end of it, we just agree to let it go, nobody's view has changed. Maybe it's a seed of knowledge, or one slice in a death of 1000 cuts, but so what? So I close the editor and move on.

Two subjects in the last hour that triggered this response - "crypto" and "climate". Other things, "vaccine", and "carbon" will likely be in the same response pattern.

Is this judging, and perhaps egotistic? Yes, but having some filters helps.


Gm 🌞


Gm ☀


This guy.

I had one of these games, probably on a 2600, that I never figured out the accelerator. Or maybe I had a sketchy paddle. Fucking hated that game, because my car would just sit there idling. I could get it to slowly roll forward across the line. That was all. It damaged me.


It's not any fun if you're not part of it...


Satellite.earth does this by design, and that is exactly why it has become my favorite.


Bitcoin is not broken. It works fundamentally as designed. It does what it was designed to do, which it what I need it to do.


The obvious companies that profit from selling drugs to manage (not cure) the symptoms of depression and ptsd.


After scanning all of this, I don't see how it improves my experience of storing value (bitcoin, on chain, with my keys) or transferring value to someone else (bitcoin or lightning or strike or venmo).

I'm sure it is good for something, but I don't know that it is good for me.


Gn Sally 🌛


ok, bury the gn over here. fine then, gn estelle. 🌜🤪


Game's not over yet. never is. gotta keep at it. wholecoiner one day. One. Day. Not today, Satoshi, not today.


Can we fix it? Yes we can!
I'd do a dub stream on zap.stream, but I'm mostly done for today.


Yes, you're my favorite bot in my DMs. Nope, not chasing bots to chatty rooms, sry


And just like that, #zapathon is over. #pepethon always.


no cap. #zapathon

https://void.cat/d/JRwYeh2ftq6kbGWW1ek8BK.webp


Grrl Metal & Rock for #Zapathon - a little beauty in your day!

GET LOUD!

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network issues, we'll see how it goes


tyty!


Broadcasting a couple hours of metal videos as a lead-up to #zapathon.  Also doing crosswords, because fiat mining is boring today. Maytag repairman over here. May need to reach out to roya for job, to get my fix.

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Back for a couple hours before #zapathon


I doubt I piss many people off, I just just generally spout a lot of shit and then tell them to piss off. Not the same, I think. Fuck all. almost time to waste some more sats broadcasting loud memories.


Gn #nostr. 💤🛌

Debuted my streaming music video channel for #zapathon (and #pepethon) today. No zaps. Not surprising really.

But that gave me the opportunity to have a conversation with someone, and that conversation hopefully gave each of us more than any zaps could measure. We each probably needed it more than a zap as well. I know how I feel. :)


GN


last one...


Shutting down soon, should be back for #zapathon tomorrow!


Anytime.  Well, not really, I only put the feed up occasionally. but you know how to find me on nostr.


All true.  I grew up on Art Bell radio shows and conspiracy theory, so this is as expected for me


We have so many different aspects to ourselves - just because one aspect appears to be lacking, others may not me. Also, what you see as a shortcoming may be a welcome benefit to the right person.


I try not to be on YouTube. used to, because I prefer video to audio broadcasts. But nope. fuck censors. and spies


You're welcome.


I get that. I am also an introvert, but a social one.  I've not been social in some time though, in deference to my wife.


I used Twitch and OBS then.  Switching OBS over to zap.stream was super easy.


I have an understanding that fun comes through engagement. As long as I am engaged in something, I am likely having fun on some level. I got a little engaged in streaming, made some nifty layout stuff, spent some time tuning up a playlist or two... and here we are!


I listen to music while I work, why not share with others?


but I've been playing with it on and off. I'm not profitable at it or anything, just fun.


I'm new to streaming, first thing I ever streamed was a july 4 fireworks show in my front yard.


I'm no expert.


wow. um. where to start?


HEYA!!!


New Eardrums


gn ser. 🌜


#pepethon always,


OK, stream is now optimized for #pepethon

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Then there will be booty everywhere?


let it rock and roll for a while...


Resetting.... Back soon. Say goodnight to the ladies.


Going to leave the stream up for a couple hours probably.  maybe I'm just in the mood to watch women rocking out.

#zapathon #fuckyeahIdigchix

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Happy #Zapathon


For #zapathon - a video soundtrack. Testing.

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100%.
And I'm definitely guilty of new convert passion at times.  My current buzz is actually around engagement.  Like engagement solves everything, meaning of life, how to have fun, depression, anxiety, you name it.  But I know that it is new convert passion, and has blinders on, and will only be like that until my next big idea comes around.  The last big idea was probably self esteem.  But not too far before that, it was bitcoin.

I actually appreciate nostr for this. Notes and other stuff.  Well, I like being able to shout about whatever fucking crazy-headed notion I'm on about until I've worn it out, beat the death out of the dead horse, and can move on. It's catharsis.  I'll probably piss a few people off, but I don't track followers here or anywhere, don't care.  If you're on the bandwagon, feel free to hop the fuck off when we're going over some bumpy road, and hop back on later when we've refilled the party punch.

But it does get tiresome. I'm not the biggest fan of zaps; for the most part, I see it as a fap party circle jerk, and the only ones making anything at it are the same ones that are fucking obsessively ramming it down everyone's throats.  I don't really zap people anymore because I'm using a client that doesn't have great support for it. I don't see if I've been zapped unless I check my wallet, and notifications are turned off. Because I don't care. I don't know who zapped me, for what, unless they make a big deal out of it.  I am absolutely fine with a like, a reaction, a reply.

You can trim out the noisy bitcoiners a bit by being careful with your follows.  Even better, use lists if your client supports it. My primary doesn't, for now.  If you stick around, tell me to piss up a rope when I get annoying; I promise I don't mind.

Fun story, my wife was on the phone last night with another mom. She was making candles, having a chat and a bottle of whiskey. I was headed to bed. She was saying something to me as I left, I told her to fuck off. I may have even dropped the cunt word in there somewhere, not necessarily aimed at her, but in conversation.  Pretty sure my wife returned the notion my direction, and told me to fuck right back off as well. I heard the other mom asking if she was OK as I went upstairs, and ended up turning around, coming back down, and reassuring the mom that all was well and I wasn't upset, angry, violent, or whatever the fuck - nobody was getting butthurt here.  Fucking oversensitive people that can't read into vocal inflections and see everything as a potential attack, jeez.  Hard to do over nostr, of course - but really, if you can't tell those you love to fuck off at times, who can you tell?


Not tonight. Don't think that would help me see the fucking difference between a reply and a new post. I'll be sure to let you know if that changes though, as it looks like you'd be into it.

This is part of the elegance of expressing frustration by writing about it. It allows you to experience and acknowledge (and accept) the frustration, without doing much self-harm, in most cases.


Was considering this earlier. I don't LOVE bitcoin. I prefer it to other options as a way to store value. I think it demonstrates an elegant solution to several problems, both in computing and in human interaction. I think it has a great chance to be around for a while.

But none of that means I love it. I actually prefer NOT to even think about it most of the time. Having some affords me the luxury of not needing to think about it. Doing my own research gives me a level of confidence that it will be there if I need it, so until then there isn't much to think about.

Really I only want to think about it when I am receiving fiat money. I have a choice of how to store that value, and if I am storing it for longer than a month or two, I will probably convert it to Bitcoin.

That's it. I don't love it, don't think about it much, could care less if you have any. But I may be in the minority here.

Read what I post. Most of my notes are about anthropology, psychology, nutrition, human action, lots of things - but rarely bitcoin.


Piss off. I am chill. If I were actually angry, I'd be really quiet. And someone else would likely begin to have a bad day.


Is it though? Should I post my gn note at 9pm US-Eastern time, so as to be early enough for all but the earliest to bed of the north americans to see it?

I am usually just signing off from work and getting dinner sorted at that time, and will probably be up for another 5-6 hours.

Nope, I'm fine posting a gn note whenever I get around to it (normally around midnight to 1a US-Eastern time.), but do not intend it to mean I am going to sleep and will no longer be reading or posting notes. I just mean to communicate to the wider nostr community, many of whom may be waking up in Europe or getting on with their day in Australia, that I am beginning to wind down my day and may or may not respond to communication for some hours. I say this respectfully and lovingly. I also try to leave my #nostr family with some thoughts or updates to take with them until I return.

Cheers, fam!


Absolute fucking shit. I am the cunt that just can't fucking nostr right. Once again, a note reply posted as a new note. My dumb ass is like why is everyone telling me gn. I didn't even start this with "gn #nostr" like I do on pretty much every other fucking gn note. So fucking glad these aren't called tweets, fuck that shit.

So this fucking shit for brains douchebag just fucking accidentally fucked the whole fucking gn system. Reality is fucking over. Gn.

Censor this, fuckers. Also, this is the reality of the words running through my head when I do some stupid shit. Luckily I have mostly learned to self-censor, because saying this out loud would be appropriate practically nowhere. The mind is a terrible thing to taste.