Gn nostr. Started nostr:nprofile1qqsx45yrjtgm4glklaafgz0z4309gs6cwfja3d99s8rqvlvgagcptpqpzdmhxue69uhhwmm59e6hg7r09ehkuef0njld4g's book last night. I think I'm almost to the part where he starts writing.


I'll resemble that remark. It's a solid visual anyway. 8-track cranking radar love.


Yeah. I try not to worry about the source of criticism. At the end of the day, it is me. Sort of a radical responsibility thing.

But I get what you mean. This is why I'm happy to no longer be active on other social platforms, and happierfor it.


Yes. As I just phrased it, relentlessly optimistic. Moreso than ever. Maybe in a Voltaire sense. Not sure about dreams, but they haven't been nightmares.


BECAUSE SOMETIMES THEY HAVE A REASONABLE POINT.

IT IS NOT UNREASONABLE TO QUESTION THE EFFICACY OF ONE'S OWN PRACTICES.

ONCE QUESTIONED, THE OUTCOME MAY STILL BE GFY.


Gn nostr. I feel like there is much I could say, but wisdom would dictate I STFU. I believe I need to read Svetski's new book. I am also pursuing a belief in relentless optimism, while simultaneously believing everything is fucked. As it should be, if things are to improve.


26. And that felt about right at the time, and still feels pretty optimal.


Gn nostr.

I hold a larger strategic reserve than Microstrategy. Tou can take that to the bank! (But why would you?)


And if you are in a part of the world that uses the metric system, zap 10 sats per cm and watch hilarity ensue!


Gn nostr.

- My 21 sats is apparently still worth 2c. The rest is a rounding error!

- Bitcoin will always be worth 58k, no matter how much the US govt tries to inflate their way to new ATHs.


House internet is down for cable maintenance/upgrade. Watching Run Ronnie Run on DVD. This has aged prettty well, if you haven't watched it, I would recommend it.


Thx for posting this. Been a big fan of this writer for quite some time, although I admit to skipping most of the vax content he publishes. I've kept some DMSO in the medicine cabinet for most of my life, as my parents knew some of its uses and kept it in theirs.

I've also been sharing this content with select friends that could immediately benefit.


GM Moscow.

Planning to buy the top with my bonus check on Thursday. Fri seems like a good day for the 58k gang.


Gm nostr. None of what I have planned for today involves or depends on the exchange rate of my strategic reserve.


Why more useful than rubber duck? Inherent in my ideas are often questions that an AI might help answer. Another aspect is memory; I would expect my AI to be able to recall that crazy idea I was grinding on last month, especially if I'm now thinking of something related to it.

Brave does show sources ;) as does Duck Duck Go. And sometimes those sources include Wikipedia. DDG's browser product is trash, though, I just use their search at times.


Gn boho 🌜


Ge nostr. Finally got Facebook to schedule my account for deletion. There may be an orphaned Instagram account that I never used hanging around out there, doubt I'll ever be able to access it. I created (and just deleted) a Whatsapp account as part of trying to access the IG account. Fuck it. On a sadder note, also deleted my dead cat's FB account (they wouldn't ever allow me to memorialize it anyway.) That should have me entirely out of Meta except for that orphaned IG account that I will probably fuck with again in the future, trying to delete it.

I think that leaves LinkedIn as my only corporate social left.

Also, in separate news, wife is pissed (both in the American sense, still; I did try to apologize for missing her texts yd, but it apparently didn't land - and in the British sense, already several tall boys in.)

Should be a great night!

If I don't survive, count yourselves richer by the size of my stack. I doubt it will be retreived.


Agree. I've heard several left-leaning folks here elegantly state their views on various podcasts. I may disagree, but that doesn't mean either of us is right or wrong.

Then there are those that just appear delusional.


I see I jumped there, from computer screen to television. I would offer that our familiarity with televisions in their general form factor heavily influenced the development of computer screens, although the technologies did not fully merge until CRTs were replaced with digital displays.


Yes, I know if you wanted an AI answer, you would have just asked an AI. That said, I was also curious, and my fastest easiest way to scratch that itch was an AI answer. It seemed complete enough I decided to share the result.

I think it is interesting that apparently our eyes are accustomed to seeing rectangles. Moreso that rectangles are rare in nature. That must be recent. Maybe it is that we associate modernity as being in opposition to nature, so unnatural shapes such as rectangles fit with our conception of modernity, which we have been trained to value as good. Obviously there is a lot there. And now I'm considering tall vs. wide rectangles.

Imagine that the television could be seen as a window into someone else's life. Windows are rectangles, in most construction. Also imagine the television as a visual adaptation of a stage, which is framed as a rectangle by floor and curtains. I would add these concepts for consideration.


Brave's AI response:

Based on the provided search results, here are the key reasons why televisions are typically rectangular:

1. **Economics and manufacturing**: Rectangular screens are cheaper and easier to mass-produce than round ones. This is because the manufacturing process involves cutting and shaping glass or plastic to fit a rectangular frame, which is simpler and more cost-effective than creating a curved or round shape.
2. **Aspect ratio and content**: Most TV content, including movies and TV shows, is shot and edited with a rectangular aspect ratio in mind. This means that the majority of programming is designed to fill a rectangular screen, making a round screen unnecessary.
3. **Geometry and viewing**: Rectangular screens are more efficient for displaying rectangular shapes, such as text and graphics, which are common in TV programming. Additionally, the human eye is more accustomed to viewing rectangular shapes, making them a more pleasing and intuitive format for TV viewing.
4. **Historical development**: Early CRT (Cathode Ray Tube) TVs were initially round due to manufacturing limitations, but as technology improved, designers shifted to rectangular shapes to maximize screen area and reduce waste.
5. **Practicality and design**: Rectangular screens provide a more stable and durable design, with fewer corners and edges to compromise the display's structural integrity. This is particularly important for large screens and heavy CRT TVs.

While there have been experiments with round and curved screens, such as the Sony Trinitron WEGA KV-32FS12 (2002) and the Samsung "The Frame" (2017), these designs have not gained widespread adoption due to the factors mentioned above.

In summary, the combination of economic, practical, and design considerations has led to the widespread adoption of rectangular TV screens, making them the standard for the industry.


So much for not wanting a technical solution.

- Changed the notification for texts to something else so I would hear them different from emails (which I tend to ignore on my phone, since I see them on my computer)

- Figured out a text forwarder that takes my wife's texts and emails them to me. Again, I see emails far more often than I look at my phone during the day.

Fucking engineer mind telling me everything is ok now.


Ge nostr.

Not feeling like I'm doing that well (although certainly everything is fine). Some of this may be seasonal, interestingly enough. I think I'm normally pretty good at getting things done. And it feels like that is slipping, like I 'm doing the bare minimum, if even that.

At times I can tell myself I deserve a break or it's nice to relax a bit, but it stiil just feels lazy, and not good enough. Is everything handled? Sure, I suppose. But I know I could do more.

This is a bad illustration of that. I told my wife at the end last month that I quit Facebook, deleted the app off my phone. That is mostly true, the account is still there because of a long story that pisses me off, but Meta won't let me delete it. I told her to text me instead of using Messenger (her go-to for all communication). She was annoyed, but went along.

Today I didn't look at my cell phone between maybe right when I got up (6 am) and when I quit working (after 5pm). She had texted twice (two different topics, several texts throughout the day). I didn't see them until after I had welcomed her home from work (I work from home, she gets home around 4pm). The first topic, she had eventually resolved herself. The second, she is also taking care of.

Now I'm pretty sure she's pissed at me. And I get that. This morning I got up at 6a, set up some stuff for work that ran all day, and started gaming (Ark). I did see her before she left for work and wished her a good day (which happens maybe 10% of days). Then I gamed and worked (mostly gamed, checked work emails and messages a few times) all day. Checked on what had been running all day at the end of the day, it wasn't done, so set it to run all night. Yes, a really easy day at work.

I don't like cell phones. Don't like that I am instantly interruptible. But I have to balance that against my wife's "needs", and one of those is the need to feel heard and supported. I didn't make her feel that way today.

With FB Messenger, I had a desktop client that would alert me on the computer when she messaged. Not so much with texts. So I'm sure she is blaming my leaving Facebook, and equating it with leaving her. I can see that.

And I don't think that this needs a technical solution. I think it needs a mindset solution, or a good talk-through with her, probably both.

But back to the original concept. I feel like I'm not doing enough, even here. Maybe I should be checking my phone more. Maybe I shouldn't be so distracted by gaming. Maybe I should have done more around the house today. Maybe I should have done something nice for my wife.

There's plenty of emotions here. Guilt is one of them, actually more than one of them, as there are multiple guilt elements. One you didn't think about - I can feel guilty I have an easy day of work. Hard to even call it work.

No immediate good resolutions here. This isn't something that is easy to fix. There may be simple solutions, but they aren't easy.

And this is why I nostr. So I can write all this out, which forces me to explore it, accept it, manifest it all in a way. If you've gotten this far or even if you skipped to the end, I appreciate you. This helps.


Acceptance is important. Also giving yourself permission to change.


This is a really fair point. I like the idea of having an AI to be a sounding board, just to bounce random ideas off of. But that AI would have to be private. Also I don't want to spend a lot of time learning how to communicate with it.

What has been helpful is Brave browser's AI search result. I can't comment on other browsers/search engines.

It feels like everything else that a computer *could* automate, I've got it handled. I don't want/need help writing things. I enjoy shopping, when I do choose to buy products and services. There just isn't that much else there for me right now, except for that personal private sounding board.

I think AI will best be used by companies to provide cheaper products/services to me that I already use, or just obfuscate entire methods of action, like email did to snail mail (and couriers, copiers, lots of things.)


Ge nostr. I'm struggling to envision how I will begin using AI in my daily life. I'm sure I'll get there, but have no idea where "there" is.


I couldn't say what twitter has become,aa I haven't been there in a long while, but Elon's JRE interview was pretty uninteresting. Seemed like a lot of Elon agreeing with Rogan, and not really saying anything new. I kept waiting for him to lay out some reasoning for voting for Trump, and I never heard it, just more of what everyone has already been saying, nothing new to add. Elon just seemed like an awkward kid trying to fit in with a popular kid, and that is never a good look.


Ge nostr. Still remaining blissfully disconnected.

Whatever you're on about, it either doesn't affect my reality (although it may someday), or isn't something I can meaningfully act on.

Hodl applies to more than just money.


GE nostr. The US presidential election is not going to make anyone's world a better place, except maybe Ross. Over it.

Today I am ill. Hopefully tomorrow I will feel better, and do better. Being a sugar addict sucks, for many reasons. My day illustrates some of those. I have some hope for tomorrow, though. 29 days left in no sugar november, I hope I don't fail them all.


GE nostr. When I scroll my feed and realize I don't have context to understand most of what everyone's on about, I feel somethng I'll call JOMO. This joy means I must be doing some things right.


Ga nostr.
Opt out.
Trying to leave Meta, but it's fighting me.


Ga nostr. I now own a diesel 1-ton pickup truck. It is almost 20 years old, so well broken in. This has been a goal of mine for almost a decade. The utility gained is tremendous.


I would say both, partially because this has become my window to things in general.


Gn nostr. Feeling increasingy disconnected from things. And I don't really think that's a bad thing.


Why do you think this? I can think of some ways around this, but not actually this.


As a disagreeable person, I support this, although I do disagree, having been judged.


GM nostr.

Moving between different accounting models. I had been very focused on visualizing everything through the fiat paradigm of assets, liabilities, and cash flow. I did budgeting, again in the standard fiat sense, taking my monthly fiat mine income, deducting my monthly expenses from it, and based decisions on whatever was left over each month.

Now I'm rethinking this. I'm looking at total net worth, total savings, ratio of savings to net worth, total expendable, total monthly liability, and months of runway, all in bitcoin terms. As long as I have x months of runway (let's say 6) as expendable wealth, I can save everything else. I'm able to extend that runway as well as savings through additional debt. You might notice that monthly income isn't represented. This is because it isn't assumed until realized. I could probably factor it in to my runway estimates as a forecast if I wanted to.

This approach is based off lots of ideas I've taken from Mark Moss, Michael Saylor, and others. I am completely divorcing myself from living paycheck to paycheck, and ramping up to take full advantage of this fiat debasement cycle.


Gn nostr. Exiting fiat.


Careful, I am not meaning to validate or invalidate any existential belief, only the power structures built around that belief. ;)

You initially presented this as changing what is taught.  There is another argument that belief itself cannot be taught or learned.

All of this only opens up with an appreciation of philosophy, rather than religion.

But I know I take an extreme anti-religion stance. That stance is based on my beliefs, most of which are supported by my philosophy.


Would this be the difference betwen being taught to think for one's self (verify) vs being taught to believe those in power (trust)?

Well, as they say, don't trust, verify!


Good evening nostr.

🤡🌎Voting🌎🤡 ❗🟰 🤡🌎Politics🌎🤡


Good evening, nostr.

When I hear someone say something that I disagree with, I can move on without any outrage. That person's take is just information to me, not a personal attack. Even when they may intend it to be a personal attack, it is still information, and only serves to inform me of their position.

No need for outrage; let's save that for abuses of power by the state and its agents.


Gm nostr. It's a weekend. Best be enjoying it, I suppose.


Gm nostr.


gn nostr. Might be truck shopping tomorrow. maybe get something from this century.


I appreciate your sentiments and explanation. I've come to many of the same conclusions over the past few years, although I have found that by not ingesting sugar and staying as low-carb as possible, I don't have the need to ingest a filler such as fiber, and the satiety I get from meat is enough to get me through to the next meal, which is often the next day.

You seem quick to ridicule carnivore diets, while apparently agreeing with much of the reasoning behind them. I'm not sure where that is coming from, possibly the cultism of its adherents?

I've already lost about half of the weight I was needing to lose to acheive a BMI of 26, where I believe I will start to see the changes I am looking for. I doubt I would see those changes at a higher BMI. My current BMI is 37. My end goal is actually 24.

I would challenge that sugar addiction is the primary cause of premature death and misery in our later years. This includes complications of obesity, as well as heart disease, cancer, and dementia.

Having put my nicotine addiction to rest for now, and hopefully for good, I am now focused on my sugar addiction. Thank you for further validating my conviction.


Ok, I think this captures enough of what you've commented. Must be a touchy subject for you. I never said nourish. I also didn't say anything about eating more or less.

I am morbidly obese. It is one of several goals to correct this, but secondary to other health factors. Adding fiber to my diet, or whey protein, do not seem to me to be a way of safely doing so. I also don't think eating "more" is a great idea.

So, as I asked politely, how do adding fiber and whey protein fuel and replenish your body while allowing for safe weight loss?


This doesn't make sense to me - it seems you are basically eating something with close to zero nutritional benefit, just (I assume) to feel full and trick your body into starving itself to lose weight? If losing weight is your goal, fine - but how does this plan properly fuel and replenish the body, and how does it improve upon eating ruminant animal meat?


Gm nostr. Gettin it.


That would be odd if the heroines were not women. Perhaps Shakespearrean.


GE nostr. Velocity. I think that is how I would describe life right now. Not necessarily fast or slow, just everything seems to have a sense of velocity.


Television started this normalization of disrespect, but social media took it to a personal level, where one could put into practice what they had learned from television.


Gn nostr.
I had a notion last night (sort of a dream, I guess) about starting a courier service. I worked as a courier when I was younger. I don't even know if courier services still exist!  Anyway, I doubt it will happen, but just in case it does, I mentioned it here - just me timestamping my ideas.


Gm nostr. Last day away from the fiat mine.


Gn nostr.
I have a feeling (maybe an intuition) that my life will greatly accelerate over the next few months. I'm not entirely sure I am as prepared for this as I would like, but I'm also not worried, more excited for what my path will reveal. Yes, these are interesting times.


Gm nostr. Back to the grind today.


GA nostr. Made it home safely a bit ago. The final tally was 3947 miles ridden in 8 days, covering 10 states, and about 14,000 ft of elevation change. No rain or mechanical issues, but the motorcycle is definitely due for some service.
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Gm nostr. Riding north to visit my friend and his young son, who has been in the hospital for over a month now with intestinal issues. This promises to be an emotional homecoming day.


Golf also has enumerated woods, if memory serves.


Gn nostr. As of today I have been in all 11 western contiguous US states this year. Only a few hundred miles from home after a 735 mile day. Resting easy in Oregon tonight, after a brief ride through the People's Republic.
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My enumerated wood species should be just fine then!


Gm nostr. Desert solitude.
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Species 1. Species 2. Species 3. There, I named them. If you don't like my names, gfy. Serialization is good enough for now.


Gn nostr. Had a great afternoon in Vegas catching up with a childhood friend, and got to visit the resting place of another of our friends that is unfortunately on the other side of the lawn.
12030?


Gm nostr. Vegas, baby!


Gn nostr, from Flagstaff, AZ. 657 miles ridden today, the last half of it chasing rainclouds but not getting wet, only a few droplets.
12029


In Taos, NM. I dig the vibe here. Too bad I'm just moving through.


Gm. Onwards! New Mexico or bust!
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On the topic of doing hard scary shit.

I thought uphill switchbacks at relatively low speed wouldn't be that hard.

Until I took the first 10mph buttonhook turn steep uphill on the inside radius. Fuck me! I made it, barely. Gravity, road at a slant, trying to turn a motorcycle and balance while forward momentum is being sucked away by steepness... scary shit.

It was hard. I kept going. It isn't getting less scary or hard if I give up. Some turns I almost lost it. A couple I had to go into the oncoming lane at the end, luckily with no downhill traffic at the wrong moment.

I'm no pro at this shit.

I made it to the top. Now I have to go back down the same turns.

This felt scarier. I took my time at the top. Told myself I would pull off at the pullouts to cool things down (brake, clutch, etc). I was worried, for sure. This was going to be hard.

And shit you not, it wasn't. So much easier. Having momentum and gravity working together on your side is so much nicer. Sure, I took things slow, pulled off a couple times to let cars pass, no big deal. I got to the bottom, no problem.

All this shows sometimes what we expect to be no big deal ends up hard and scary, and vice versa. Either way, DO IT ANYWAY, because not doing it won't get you anywhere.

Doing hard scary shit will change your life, and rarely for the worse. Fear is fine, as long as you don't allow it to paralyze you.


Pike's Peak pow
https://image.nostr.build/481ce7283b301576611c40d41c92798ac22b2fbd8dcb7ca9b4f76ae150561464.jpg


Gn nostr.

Today's travels led me to Cripple Creek, where I found a rad museum dedicated to mining and the Victorian era in the west.

Then on to Pike's Peak, elevation over 14,000 feet. How many people have ridden a motorcycle to the top? Some, to be sure - there are motorcycle parking spots. But not many. And I am one.

Tomorrow, New Mexico. Looks like Taos and Gallup, not sure how much further I'll get.


Gm nostr. Mountain climbing.
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Guilty of also being PNW based for a lot of years, but my understanding has always been that hemp's utility as an easily (and quickly) renewable industrial good would far outweigh its medicinal uses. Both hemp fibers and seed oils have been used for a very long time, snd hemp plsnts hrow to harvest much quicker thsn trees. I remember seeing something on hemp-based building materials (like lumber) being a real thing.

I don't know much about sustainable growing practices, though - I might assume thst monocropping hemp would result in similar deficiencies in the soil as what we observe with soy, corn, or wheat. Maybe our Canadian friends could weigh in here, as I believe Canada has industrial hemp production, at least in some provinces.


Gm. Made it to a (for me) random nostr/lightning meetup in Colorado Springs. This should be interesting. Sitting out front, enjoying the day. #coffeechain https://image.nostr.build/d15813c56cabd273d024bc04b42cd787ae0bc7eec72e77746d170753aa5ff286.jpg


Gm nostr. Much to see and do.


Gn nostr. Made it all the way to Pueblo, CO today. 810 miles. 12 miles shy of 1500 miles in two days. Great weather, just a little windy through Wyoming. And of all the states so far, Colorado has the worst roads, in terms of smoothness/repair. But they may have the best drivers.

Staying relatively local for the next couple days, before travelling through the southwest.
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Gm. Today's goals - minimum goal: Salt Lake City. Easy goal: Laramie, Wy. Stretch goal: Ft. Collins, CO. Bonus - anything south of Ft. Collins. Yesterday I ended up about 30 miles past Twin Falls, which was my stretch goal - so nicely into bonus miles. It makes today a lot less stressful. Pueblo on Sunday is only 770 miles away, I could make that today if I wanted to. The meetup tomorrow in Springs is looking good.


GE nostr. 678 miles ridden today.
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Gm nostr
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Gn nostr. If all goes well, by this time tomorrow I will be 600 miles away in Twin Falls, ID. 🏍


Gm nostr. I feel busy, like Rabbit, but appear calm, like Pooh. And in my mind? Tigger.


Electrical isn't the half of it. Energies concentrated within fields of energies. I like your illustration on this note. The reality is much more turbulent, ripples everywhere, like a confused ocean, but in multiple dimensions.


Florisboard


I am in this space where my thoughts are not coalescing. I'll have some thought on a topic, but it won't fully form into anything I could write. I'm not confident I am properly experiencing the emotions needed to complete the thoughts. The inside of my head is just like your ceazy uncle rambling on about something that doesn't make any sense, until he forgets where he's at, but goes on anyway.

Runaway thoight train.

People use substances to experience this, I think.


Gn nostr. One bitcoin equals one bitcoin.


Gm nostr. Preparations.


I really like my HD Road King. The only thing I've seen that I might trade it for would be a Street Glide. I also have a soft spot for Fat Boys and Cholos, but for my main uses, big baggers / touring cruisers are where I'm at.


Gn nostr. Today was a rough one at the fiat mine. I was told that all the leadership stuff I've been doing for the past couple years is no longer what the company wants me to do, and instead they want me to go learn a couple other people's jobs. I'm really glad I'm gping on vacation at the end of the week, because I almost quit. I even told my manager I quit - quit doing all the leadership stuff, effective immediately.

If anyone is looking for a solutions architect with an engineering background and a serious interest in leadership, hit me up.


GM NOSTR. 58K ANYONE? TICK TOCK.


GN NOSTR. IN WITH THE NEW, MORE OF THE SAME.


GM NOSTR. VOTE HARDER.


GN NOSTR. SOMETHING UNEXPECTED HAPPENED TODAY. POSSIBLY THE FIRST TIME ON NOSTR THAT I HAVE BEEN ATTACKED OVER A NOTE THAT QUESTIONED SOMEONE'S BELIEFS. I'M OK WITH THAT, BUT STILL DIDN'T EXPECT IT. (I THINK THE CAPSLOCK HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH IT.)


HAH! TRIGGERED!


TODAY'S MEAT BUYS:
ALMOST $200 FOR 36 LBS OF BEEF. MAINLY CHUCK AND LONDON BROIL, BUT THERE WAS ALSO A WALMART TOMAHAWK IN THERE. ACTUAL AVERAGE PRICE PER POUND: $5.35.

MY FREEZER THANKS ME, AS DOES MY FUTURE SELF. 🥩🥩🥩


STAY HUMBLE VOTE HARDER.


WHY DO YOU ASSUME THERE NEEDS TO BE RESPONSES OR NOTIFICATIONS? NOT ALL CLIENT USE CASES ARE CHAT OR EVEN COMMUNICATION. MAYBE I JUST WANT TO STASH SOME OTHER STUFF ON RELAYS. SEEMS YOU ARE ASSUMING SOME EXTRA FEATURES AND USE CASES.


GM. FLORISBOARD CAPSLOCK IS EXCELLENT, DOESN'T UNLOCK BETWEEN APPS, OVER TIME, ETC. TURNED ON CAPSLOCK LAST NIGHT FOR A CASE SENSITIVE USERNAME IN A BROWSER, AND HERE WE ARE. WHY CHANGE NOW? EVER? GOING TO BE A BANGER DAY, I'M SURE. IS CAPSLOCK ENERGY LIKE BDE? I THINK IT MIGHT BE!


WELCOME FROM ANOTHER GUY ON 2'S.


Showed up at the soccer field for today's game. Bright sunny day. All these parents covered up, sunglasses, hats, sunshades, umbrellas. I  put my folding chair down, take off my hat and sunglasses, strip down to a sleevleless shirt. Time for some late-year rays! Get it while I can. And I'm as ginger as they come, bitches. Feels fucking awesome, no concern about burning or cancer. No sunblock. Just a #properhumandiet.


Gm. Planning to spend most of the day with my son. Life is good


Gn nostr. Been a long one. Viva la weekend!


Excellent choice.


Sometimes it's worth modifying the jig.


Gm. After running the numbers, I've realized I am about 8% budget negative at the moment. This means I expect to spend slightly more bitcoin each month to cover my expenses (largest of which is debt payments) than I will gain through fiat mining income.

Not ideal, but since the expenses are denominated in fiat, as long as bitcoin continues to ngu in relation to fiat, it will work out just fine. It just means I  currently as irresponsibly long bitcoin as I want to get, for now, and levered a little bit. My assets still outweight my debt exposure, though.

I'm far from done - there are always more ways to move these numbers. Increasing income and shifting cash flows are my primary tools at the moment.


If it don't go, heat it and beat it. It'll go. I have many tools that mainly identify as "convincers" for stubborn situations.


I used to be able to manage lists on Highlighter, I think - and they had public and private entries, etc. Tried to find that functionality on Highlighter just now (probably over a year later), and no idea where to find it.  Checked out Listr, it just gives me a 504 error if I select a list.  All I want to do is add/remove a few npubs from a list I made a long time ago, now that I use a client that supports lists again. #asknostr


What? I guess today I worked for less sats than yesterday. Bummer, man! When will this deflation end?


Gn nostr. I find myself at the end of a financial year at the fiat mine. I've worked pretty damn hard over the last two years, and really don't have much to show for it, above what I would have if I worked much less. I'm thinking my goal for the next FY will be try and work a lot less. Not sure how much I even care if they fire me; they definitely haven't done much to encourage me to stay. The only reason I'm still here is because they sign the paychecks twice a month, and that keeps my stack from shrinking.

Might just be time for a new approach.


Gm. Another stacking goal accomplished. Now time to go work my ass off so I can hodl.


GN. Made 12 lbs of beef mix dog food this evening, so goal accomplished for the day.


One time I took my son to Applebees and forgot my wallet. My phone at the time didn't support NFC, I think, so no GooglePay. Now it is GrapheneOS, so also no GooglePay. But I was able to buy an Applebees gift card with bitcoin, and pay for our meal. Wasn't easy at the time, amd took some creativity, but still felt a little like a superpower that I could show off in front of my kid.


Gm. Lately I've been able to feel myself awakening from my dreams, in a gradual way, kind of like surfacing from a dive. I usually feel a little disappointed during this time, as I know the dream and sleep time are over, and I won't be able to go back to sleep and rejoin the dream anytime soon, even if I lay there and try to doze off a little more. I no longer use an alarm, and my circadian signals are working just fine.

Busy day ahead, already well underway. Hopefully I can make some beef mix dog food today.


Gn nostr. Accomplished less today, but gained more. I'll take that.


If you are not putting in work toward your dream, it is not your dream. I don't care how much you say it is your dream, it isn't. Not now. Maybe never. Stop lying to yourself and get to work on your actual dreams.


Good Morning. Few things are running smoothly or according to plan, but that is what makes each day interesting. Just my daily adventure in these interesting times.


Gn nostr. Tick tock.


Gm. Another week like any other, nothing but time to pass by.


Gn. Punk af.


23 portions of chicken mix done today. Couldn't do the beef mix, because it wasn't defrosted enough. Hopefully tomorrow night.


Can confirm.


Today's dog food mixes:

Chicken mix:
20 lbs chicken legs ($17.50)
1.5 lbs chicken livers ($2.50)
1.5 lbs chicken gizzards/hearts ($2.00)
1 lb beef tripe ($1)

All that gets gets ground up and mixed, portioned out into trays at a little over a lb each, and frozen. Overall cost on this is about $1/lb. The dog (pitbull) gets one tray a day, served over two meals, along with a chicken drumstick, chopped into 2-3 pieces. Drumsticks also run under $1/lb, so the dog eats for less than $2/day, most days.

I'm also making him a beef blend:
5 lbs ground beef
5 lbs stew meat
2 lbs beef liver
1 lb beef kidney

It is more expensive, but hard to price, as this all came from the 1/2 beef I bought, and it wouldn't be fair to just use the average price/lb. At grocer's prices, I could get this under $5/lb, maybe closer to $4/lb.

Same process: grind, mix, portion, freeze. The idea is every 3rd or 4th day, the dog gets the beef mix instead of the chicken. I usually add some beef broth to the mix when I feed it to him, as it ends up a bit drier. No bones ground in, I may eventually add in some bone meal. He still gets his drumstick hunks with this mix though.

Feeding the dog this plan has resolved a bad skin condition that resembled psoriasis, that had completely covered his groin area, was speading up to his chest, and had affected his butthole area as well. I definitely blamed this on a food sensitivity (his prior diet was dry kibble), and was quickly proven right. My wife tries to tell me he just has allergies, and had been getting him allergy shots - which he no longer needs. His energy is great and he loves his new food.

We still allow him to have store-bought treats (crap like Old Roy bacon and pepperoni sticks, and whatever shit Canine Carry-out molds their treats into), but hopefully a lot less of that.

Funniest thing, if it is close to meal time, he will take his treat, drop it on the floor, and leave it there until after he has had his meal, then go eat his treat as some kind of dessert!

He won't eat his meals alone, and will wait for someone to come sit with him while he eats - although he might snack on a drumstick chunck while I'm running back and forth between rooms to come sit with him.

Long note to say - for not much more (and if you are buying premium dog food, probably far less), you can be feeding your dog healthy food on a proper canine diet (they are carnivores, and while they can tolerate some plants, do not require any, similar to us). They need more calcium than we do, this is why feeding them ground bones or bone meal is important).

It also means their shit will generally harden and turn white when it dries. Dogs eating kibble tend to have yellow shit, which smells worse, and dries to brown after a while. Just like us, dogs will shit less (in volume, not in frequency like us). Our dog pisses more, likely because of the obvious additional water content in real food, as opposed to kibble.

If you want more information on feeding your dog (or cat) a real species-appropriate food diet, there is some information online, but just like the human diet, it may be a little clouded by companies with profit motives. Read it carefully, with this in mind.

What I'm feeding my dog right now will likely change a bit over time, based on what I find, or what I have on hand. I've mixed in (or added) sardines. Sometimes I add a raw egg. Sometimes he gets steak bites. Don't be too afraid to try something new, but check it out online first - I wouldn't advise any plants, or shellfish. Also, no cooked bones.


Today's meat shopping - a little over 6 lbs of beef, petite sirloin and a t-bone. Avg price $5.76.

Buying less because I just stocked the freezer with 1/2 a cow. Also able to be a little pickier with what I buy.

Today's main shopping was to buy meat for dog food, that will be in a separate note.


You're more ready for this than most, after hearing from people for years how bad dietary fat is, or how much dietary fiber we need. Superfoods? Smh.


Gm. My stepson turns 18 today. Poor kid.


Gn nostr. One step at a time, moving in rhythym  with life.


Gm. Let's do this.


Really close to pulling the plug on facebook. I've only been using Messengerfor the last couple years,and occasiknally Marketplace.

The hard things to give up are these:

-communication with my my wife. Her primary communication medium (even voice calls) is Facebook. But I will do it anyway. Her brother did, and that turned out ok, and they talk daily.

-motorcycle riding group. They use a FB chat to coordinate pretty much everything. Which is a horrible practice, but maybe me not being on FB will get them to find other solutions. Simplex? Signal? They are not technical at all, for the most part. Not sure they would even install another app. I don't want to install another app either.

- Marketplace. Where I am, there is a lot that happens here. I'm looking for a truck. Even the 1/2 beef I just bought was mostly my wife, communicating over FB. I chose a rancher that wasn't really using marketplace, but still is handling all his orders over a facebook page. I'll probably just delegate all marketplace activity to my wife.

So how this is looking, I'm probably not getting a truck until mid to late October. I figure I need Marketplace to at least view recommendations my wife finds (she insists on being the finder of all cars, although I'd rather she stay out of it). FB might come in handy during my motorcycle trip in early/mid October. This also gives me a chance to warn my MC guys that I'm going dark. Looks like I may be out of Meta (never really had an insta or threads or anything, although who knows how much of my profile is shared to those) by the end of October.

That will leave me with nostr, and a fairly inactive presence on LinkedIn, which is still needed I think. I may be switching fiat mines in the next months, years, whatever, and that has been my best resource to find a new fiat mine.

Cheers fuckers - like me or not, I'm fucking here, even if I'm nit, until I'm gone!


Going irresponsibly long bitcoin, as if I wasn't already there. Halfway closer to a stacking goal than I was yesterday. I'm not even close to done, either.


Ok, here's what is going on. I mentioned a bit last evening, and over the last few days. I'm working under the assumption that communication has a cost, and engaging in social media is actually somewhat expensive. Also that emotional communication outweighs verbal communication, where possible.

This is a long one, feel free to skip it. GN in advance.

So I've designed a couple experiments, just to see how they go. First, I was thinking I would try to NOT talk to my wife when we're in the same room (like relaxing in the den, or even in the kitchen or bedroom). Any talking necessary for coordination of tasks, etc, can happen when we're outside or elsewhere. When we are together inside, I sgould be trying to communicate non-verbally with her. This means listening non-verbally as well.

I don't think she would understand this at all, so not telling her about it. But it means I have to reply if spoken to, and can do some small talk or verbal reactions to show engagement - but my focus has to be on experiencing her emotionally, and allowing her space to do the same.

Now in order to do this, there are some logistics involved. Our routines are such that we don't eat or cook together. I finish work (in my home office) a little after 5p. She is usually home from work around 4ish. She usually has her dinner before I'm downstairs from work, or around that time. My first chore after work is to feed the dog. He eats with us the den, and then needs to go outside after his meal to shit. If it is nice out, we let him hang out outside a bit. Then we come inside and all sit in the den watching TV. My wife usually ends up layoling the couch and giving me her feet to rub, and the dog jumps up and cuddles with her.  This is all happening roughly between 6p and 9p. 9p is bedtime. We let the dog outside for a quick pee, then he is back inside for the night. Wife and I go up to bed. I've managed to convince her to not have the TV on in the bedroom while getting ready for bed, unless we're using it breifly as a light source, as the overhead light is really bright. I've also tried to stop using my phone in the bedroom at all. I've stopped even charging it in the bedroom and having it next to my bed. I don't need the alarm, and anything else can fucking wait. So I've just started leaving it in the office (again, my wife might object to this if she noticed, as she doesn't understand not wanting to be immediately available around the clock).

In the morning, she gets up early (4a-5a) to get ready for work. I usually wake up between 6:30 and 7, sometimes a little earlier. I don't need to start work until 8 or 9, but normally get an earlier start. She leaves for work around 7a, and I do make an effort to see her before she leaves in the morning, although she is getting ready downstairs, and I can literally wake up, piss, throw on clothes, make the bed, and walk across the hall to my office without seeing her at all. Sometimes it happens that way, but I really do try to see her in the morning.

She takes the dog out for a pee when she gets up and goes downstairs. I get underway with work, then sometike between 8:30 and 9:30, I go downstairs and feed the dog. I have to sit with him whike he eats (or he won't), then I take him outside for a shit, and if the weather isn't absolute shit, put him out in the outdoor kennel for the day. Wife comes home from lunch around 11:30, which is generally just her sitting out on the porch and smoking cigarettes. I try to make it downstairs to say hi, if I hear her come home. Then I try to take the dog out (of the kennel, or inside) for a piss in the early afternoon. He won't piss or shit in the kennel.

That's the weekday routine. There's some exceptions, like when I go to pick up my son for dinner from his mom's, every couple weeks, but it doesn't change much.

So working from that, I've been trying to at least check nostr when I'm feeding the dog in the morning, but that isn't long enough to scroll much. I think my other opportunity might be while I've got him outside after his dinner, or maybe while he's eating his dinner, if my wife isn't around yet. Once we're inside in the evening, I don't want to be on my phone while I'm sitting with my wife watching tv. This is when I had previously been on nostr the most.

A note about the evenings. I don't really watch TV. I haven't in years. I cut cable and went streaming about the time Netflix went from mailed DVDs to streaming, and Hulu popped up on the scene. But my wife (only been together for the last decade) is solidly in the cable tv camp, so it came back. I swear she would have every TV in the house (den and bedrooms) on all the time, if I didn't shut them off once in a while, and insist no TV in the bedroom while we're trying to be sleeping. I fucking hate commercials, and they've only gotten worse. I hate most TV programming as well, as I don't care to be programmed. So normally I have been distracting myself on my phone (nostr or simple solitaire games) and giving foot rubs, ignoring what is on TV.

Last night was the first night I really tried this no-talking experiment. It went OK. I wasn't on my phone. I was just sitting there, rubbing feet, and trying to do a mix of meditation, self reflection, and feeling my wife's emotional state, whike ignoring the TV (and the dog jumping on and off of us). It wasn't perfect, but it was a start. I think I will improve at this with time.

So why am I on nostr tonight? Well, normally on Friday night, my wife comes home from work and gets drunk. I'm left to babysit the shitshow as much as I can, and just be thankful that it is happening Friday night, and not Thursday and Saturday, or Wednesday, Friday, and Sunday. It has, at times, been any of the above. I don't drink, and even if I wanted to, it woukd make matters worse. I've tried it. Nope, not helpful.

So I usually have some time to myself Friday nights, when I chill out with the dog. I can't be too much to myself (tried taking off for motorcycle rides, or even going up to the office for computer gaming time, neither really work out that well.) She gets pissed off when I'm not available to her at some points during her drunkenness, and those points are somewhat undefined. She usually doesn't call it a night until 11:30p or later, sometimes 1 or 2 AM. I still usually try to go bed around 10p, because I see the value in actually maintaining a sleep schedule, and your body doesn't differentiate between weekday evenings and weekends. I just get told (with lots of scorn, even sober)  "well, it's a weekend night I don't have to worj tomorrow, I'm not going to bed yet". Piss off. Sucks because it is hard to get to sleep when you know you're going to get woken up by your partner in a couple hours.

So I'll be able to nostr on drunken evenings (me sober, her fucked off). But that may be my main opportunity for now. Saturday mornings are often spent in the den, on the sofa, her hungover, watching tv. I try to find other shit to do. Sundays are a bit fluid, but I usually go shopping in the morning, often make some eggs for breakfast, again, anything to get off the couch. This weekend I'll be making dog food, and it is my stepson's 18th birthday on Sunday, so who knows how it will go. Tomorrow is a hot rod swap meet, and my son's soccer game.

So GN nostr, see you here and there, but know I am in a good place, trying for some personal growth in a very interesting climate. I am living in interesting times, for sure.


Gm. Happy Friday.


Picked up my 1/2 beef today. Tomorrow we feast!


Gn? Nostr. Early for me, but trying some things, that involve not being on my phone (or the internet) in the evening. Since I'm already not on it before bed, this means my gn posts might be really early while I try this out.

Might explain more later. But I might not be on as much period.


Gm. Exploring the costs of communication. Also looking at how much communication can be moved to non-verbal. Considering the concepts that all these ppl I communicate with over the internet could easily be imaginary (created by me) or nefarious (created by someone else for another purpose not necessarily aligned with my own.) Good thing I'm not a paranoid schizophrenic, because these concepts would probably be overwhelming.


Of course. More likely lunar position. I believe my emotions cycle throughout the lunar month, and may well cycle on other longer schedules as well. I am not immune to emotional cycling because of gender.


Stay strong. Physical pain often has a physical cause, but can still be rooted in emotion.


I'm posting this as a slightly different reaction. My default reaction is to push back. This is part of the disagreeable nature. I've been testier today, maybe even for a few days. Just generally going harder at things that I would normally ignore, brush off, glide on by. -chillstr!

That's ok. I can accept these actions as my own, but there is a rawness to them that may indicate some form of psychological or spiritual pain.

I'll dig into this a little more - there is opportunity here, to channel these reactions into something positive.


Let's see - notes attributed to npubs that seem plagiarized. Events that are being dicussed and engaged by personas that would normally ignore or deride them. A feeling that sequences of events are somehow out of sequence. Similar to deja vu, but also skipping forward. Something much worse than ReplyGuy spam, where every npub has multiple spam copies that post what for now is clearly spam, but could easily be tuned to post deep fakes.

How easy is it to replicate an npub, and have an LLM trained on relay content be able to post notes in the "voice" of that npub? This is what WoT may be designed to counter, but I think it will also be countered.


Of course, if pain is the response to one's sensitivities.


Gn nostr. Today was significant. For me, personally, and likely, in time, for my family. But they will never know this day was different than any other, and for myself, many days have significance, and who is to say this day is more significant than the next, or the last?

There is no past. Only my remembered experiences.
There is no future. Only my imagination of what  may came.
There is no now. Observing is already remembering.

We experience. We imagine. We observe.

We feel.

What next?


Sensing some glitches in the matrix over the last few days - or at least thin spots in the veneer of reality. Not sure what this leads to.


Finished reading Rothbard's Anatomy of the State last night. One of the better things I've read recetly.


Disagree. If you pray to a given god, you are denying part of your sovereignty. There are those of us who are sovereign in body, mind, and spirit, and those of us who are slaves.

I will not fault the slaves for being who they are, but I will not excuse them because of their slavery.

This is not saying that one cannot believe in some higher power. Belief does not imply subservience.


Frustration always implies an imagined future state that has not been realized.


Disagree. In my opinion, giving to others is always selfish, as is any rational action, and any action's rationale from the point of view of the actor. We can try and tell ourselves we are acting selflessly, but this is self-deception.

Instead of denying it, embrace it! We (in general, as a species) have learned that through cooperation (which implies giving), we all benefit.

Selfishly giving to others allows us to properly economize our time. This is a good thing. We will actually be helping in the ways we can best contribute, rather than sacrificing for non-optimal results.

That internal praise? Also a good thing. This is what boosts your self-esteem, makes you sovereign, instead of a slave to an unknown master.


In amethyst, blocking wss:/ is working for me, (usuing two forward slashes instead of one, but didn't want to block my own note)


Always has been.


Gm. Got an early start today (not by time, actually woke up about 30 minutes later than normal, but instead by productivity). I need this, last couple days have been pretty low-output.


Gn nostr. Switched password managers today. And blocked Reply Guy.


She rubs the seed oil on her skin.


Gm nostr. Wen 58k?


Gn nostr. No day is fully as I expect it, and I take that as a sign I am living, feeling, and experiencing fully. Embrace the vision, and plans will evolve with ease..


Actually I think it may have been yesterday when I was wondering how bad those withdrawals actually were...

I doubt I'll ever be over it. I've quit before, once for 4 years, I think.

I didn't gain much weight, maybe a few pounds - but I am mostly carnivore. I did give myself permission to be a little more sloppy with diet choices, not care about intermittent fasting, caffeine, dairy (definitely had more cheese than usual).

You can fix the weight later. Give yourself another couple weeks to get as over the nicotine as you can, then start on other healthy habits. Like cut out food from boxes, or seed oils, whatever you want to start with.

The goal isn't weight loss, it is always better enjoyment of life - that starts with feeling better. Withdrawal is the opposite of that.


Ok nostr linux folks, I left linux desktops and laptops about 17 years ago, when I went to a macbook pro and FreeBSD servers (mostly for work, not by choice) then had to go mostly Microsoft-based for work (different job, but it was definitely worth it.

When I left off, I think I was running Debian builds with a Fluxbox window manager (never really liked Gnome or KDE, but would pick KDE when I needed to). I've ran Slackware and Gentoo as well, but Debian was a little easier to get up and running and still be relatively bloat-free. I've ran Enlightenment, but while pretty, never actually worked all that well for me.

Obviously, time has passed. What should I be looking at now for a distro? Window Manager? Should I just try to start back up with Debian and Fluxbox, or is there good reason to try something new?

#asknostr


Not any better or worse than the many other non-sweetened, flavored bubble water on the market. I usually have some of one or another of the brands around.


2 months (yesterday) for me. Last nicotine was on July 15. You got this, just remember you don't want to love your life in near-constant withdrawal.


try mixing american and provolone - much nicer gooey melts.

I assume american contains seed oils, for some reason, so have mostly eliminated it. But I admit I don't know this to be a fact.


Holy shit! This!!!

I've struggled to put into words why I end up on the adventures in my life, and it is exactly this - I have the vision, just a few general concepts about the future, really - and a provisional plan of how to get there (sometimes very detailed, actually - but always flexible and subject to change), but I often change the plan along the way, or something else happens, and adventure ensues.

I also struggle to follow anyone who doesn't share their vision with me, and have blamed it on their failure to plan - but really it is their failure to communicate the vision, I think.  I bet I'm just as guilty of keeping my visions to myself and frustrating others that would otherwise follow.

Thanks boho - this made my day! 🫂


Spending this noon hour sitting in the grass of a portland empty lot. Waiting for a family member's dr appt to be over. No hat. No sunglasses. Blue skies. There is a handicap bus across the street, parked on the grass,with a guy playing electric guitar badly,and a lady in a motorized wheelchair (young and relatively fit, from what I can tell, but I'm not that close, probably parapalegic), kind of driving it around lethargically in circles.

Just people enjoying this hour of their lives.


Anything that Coinbase is doing for you with respect to Bitcoin is done better elsewhere, by companies not profitting off of a crypto casino model. Coinbase incentivizes you to play silly games, and we all know what that will win you.


Gm nostr. Committed to slacking off today, wherever possible.


Gn nostr. Still making incremental progress in my return to linux. Small steps. It's been a long time.


I may actually be there, over 1300 miles from home, on that day. How wild! Will be on my way to Pueblo, and wasn't planning to be riding through the Springs until a few hours later in the day, but it is possible...


Yay. It is something you might do in carpentry, ensuring proper fitment or alignment.


Have had fireweed honwy, can recommend.


I might be up for that. Been a long time since I've bought artisan ceramics. Will give me something to think about anyway!


A little silly incremental improvement - for the last year and a half, my primary eating plate (probably 90% of my food intake) has been a sea to summit plastic plate/bowl. I've had it for maybe a decade, but the bottom warped up a little bit, probably in the microwave, a long time ago, so it wasn't used much until I started just cooking my own steaks all the time and wanting all the drippings.

But I'm trying to move away from plastics in at least some ways, and I know the bottom of that plate has seen better days after heavy use with a steak knife. So, picked up a ceramic plate and bowl at Walmart. Curious to see how I like using a serrated steak knife on ceramic.  This was a flat glaze, but I don't doubt it is coated with some bullshit - still, hopefully a step up from plastic.  I may also try a glossier glaze.  I might try a wood option, but I'm concerned about what my knife would do to it over time.  The idea of just a cutting board doesn't appeal to me, because I do often have several ounces of fats/juices that I want to enjoy with my steak.

Any thoughts as to the best all around eating vessel for enjoying my daily steaks? #asknostr


Today's meat - 3 chuck roasts and a london broil for ~ $78, a little less than 14 lbs of beef. actual average price per pound, $5.69.  This is roughly a week's worth of meat, now all sliced up into steaks and mostly in my freezer.  How many of you are eating on $80/wk?

Also bought 4 lbs of bacon ends & pieces for $10, but those are mostly for my wife.

I've been eating a lot of butter lately. I snack on it, just little slivers - cut a pat off, then cut it into 4-5 pieces.  But I've been eating 1-2 4oz blocks per day.  That's probably too much.

The binge didn't quite end with shopping - got a couple donuts and a 40oz bottle of cold brew coffee (unsweetened) to finish it off.

The psychology swimming around my head today, though! Went dark a couple times. This addiction shit sucks.  Managed to work my way out of it, literally - lots of little household/mechanical chores and fixes (mostly work out in the garage).  That's always been my go-to - start tinkering around with tools on projects, mainly for other people's benefit, and let the thoughts run themselves through.  Not ignoring them, accepting them, and giving myself a way to move on.


Well, today hasn't started so great. I'm not one of those carnivore zealots that will tell you they've been carnivore for 821 days and never cheated once. Nope. I've cheated plenty, and I lost count of days very early on. Let's say I've been trying to eat a meat-based diet for almost a year and a half. And I've done fairly well at trying. I don't plan cheat days, although I used to allow a weekly donut or two on my shopping day.

Today, I went to the kitchen to make a power bowl (my recipe at the bottom of this), and someone had left a box of donuts in the dining room. I live in a house of 8 - extended family, multi-generational. I'm the only one even close to carnivore. Well, that it like leaving a plate of coke out... I'm now 4 donuts in, some peanut butter, pancake syrup, honey... two cups of coffee... basically a full-on binge of all the shit I've struggled with giving up. Do I feel good? No, but not horrible either. Did I make and eat my power bowl? Fuck yes.

So this is my accountability. Clearly that shit is way off the path for me. It probably won't kill me, but it won't keep me alive either. I didn't go smoke a cigarette, because I still don't want to live in withdrawal every day, but the fact is, I still do - just from sugar instead of nicotine. Yes, every damn day. Tell me again what is the worse addiction, nicotine or sugar? Think real fucking hard. I know my answer.

Power bowl: my standard is 1/2 lb of 80/20 ground beef, 5 eggs, salt, shredded cheese. Butter. Start by browning the ground beef with a hunk of butter in a frying pan. Do not drain. Add some salt. Cover. Once the beef is browned and chunked up into bits, (it can still be a little pink on the insides, if you like), crack 5 eggs over the beef. Break the yokes. Stir it up a few times with a spatula to get even distribution. Keep covered in between stirrings. When eggs are almost fully set, turn off heat, add some cheese (and maybe another hunk if butter) to the top, and cover. Once cheese is melted, spatula out into a big bowl and eat. Add more salt if you want.

The eggs should suck up most of the grease. If they don't, maybe my dog gets a greasy bowl to clean out when I am done.

I don't always add cheese, just if it is around. My guts are a little sensitive to it, but usually I will pay that price. I do often add other meats - sausage, liver, bacon, ham, spam, whatever is around. Today I added some bacon ends. I vary the egg count sometimes, but usually average 5 eggs. That fits nice in the pan, bowl, and stomach. And I try to wait until 10am to make them, but don't always succeed. I've made them in the afternoons and evenings as well, although I usually try not to eat after 4pm.

Power bowls are one thing I make that I can feed to most of my household, regardless of whatever food habits they might have. No vegetarians here at this time, thank goodness. I won't trick them with adding organ meats, but I will change it up occassionally - made my son a bowl with hot dogs instead of ground beef a few weeks back, as that is what I had defrosted and ready to go.

I usually only eat them on the weekends, and haven't had them as much as eggs have been expensive and I haven't felt like bugging my neighbor for fresh eggs. But there was a sale this week, so power bowls were back on the menu.

Cheers!


Gm. Probably a lazy Sunday, but not too lazy...


Gn. I admit I am envious of my dog's sleep abilities.


Went to Olive Garden to celebrate my son's team win (12-4) on the soccer field. No Olive Gardens near us, so since we were near one for the game, took the opportunity. My wife is a spaghetti fiend, so a nice gesture all around.

Our waiter was spectacular. A great experience. However, that menu must be the least carnivore/low-carb friendly I've seen. Two choices, a six-ounce steak, or fish. I took the steak.

I assume it was cooked in soybean oil, as their dietary/allergy disclaimer (I read it) stated that they don't consider soybean oil an allergen, beacause the guvmint doesn't, and so their allergen checklist doesn't include it. However just abot everything (including the meat sauce) show that they contain soy.

Oh well. I'll get over it - but won't be returning to an Olive Garden anytime soon, unless dragged there by the wife.


Fixed. Compared to Oatmeal, SPAM is a health food. https://m.primal.net/Kpqa.png


Bonus hole?


Gm. Back to being a soccer dad today.


Gn. Today has been a solid mix of everything. I'm okay with that. Putting my life on shuffle is better than putting it on repeat, I think.


Gn. Planning on taking some time to evaluate moving back to linux as a primary desktop OS. Also looking closely at all my digital use cases. Very close to pissing off some family by exiting certain platforms.


One question that I don't think was answered - how are tx fees handled when sent between email addresses onchain?


the truth. Done. Next?


Waiting. Or maybe Run Ronnie Run. Life of Brian and History of the World pt 1 also come to mind.


Gm. Today is pretty wide open to be awesome!


Gn. Got to spend some time with my (almost 20 yr old) daughter today. Some other important stuff happened too. Been a good one.


Gm nostr. Busy day ahead.


Gn. Happy to put another day behind me. Bring on the next one!


Thx, queued up on the kindle. Wanted to read some Rothbard, hadn't sorted out where to begin.


Do you know why video was repeatedly going to white screen, especially near the end (Youtube on Brave)?


Watched. Can recommend.


Gn nostr. Really tired, for no discernable reason.


Your destiny.


"Chill Zone".


Gm. All is well.


Gn nostr. Gn.


Today at Safeway (local supermarket), bought about 25 pounds of beef, spent about $120.  By that rounding, $4.80/lb. Actual average/lb, $4.65.

That is more than I should eat in a week, probably by half (I estimate closer to 2 lb/day), but at that price, it was worth filling the freezer a little more. That was entirely london broil and chuck roast, which is now all sliced up into roughly 1" steaks.

Not my favorite cuts, but will get me through to my half-cow that should be here in a few weeks. Second freezer is being delivered tomorrow.  Half-cow was purchased for $5.50/lb hanging weight, with processing and kill fee included. I paid just under $2,000 for about 350 lbs.

I estimate I will actually get about 230 lbs of processed meat out of that, so will have paid an average of $8.50/lb, although I am asking for all the organ meats, fat trimmings, soup bones, tripe, etc. that the processor can throw in - and this beef should be far superior to what I am getting at the supermarket for cheap.

#carnivore


Agreed. After poisoning myself for over 40 years, my physical strength is one thing I have deprioritized while healing other aspects of my overall physique. But I have not given up, and am  already beginning down a path that given time, will result in this weakness being remedied as well. That is my time preference. Today I may just lift heavy objects. Who knows what I may try tomorrow?


GA. Back from a weekend ride/camping trip that took me to Port Angeles (northwestern tip of continental USA) and across the Tacoma Narrows bridge, among other places. All good weather. Did it while fasting, nothing but water since Friday afternoon (broke it a little while ago, so 42 hours). Good energy, lots of touching grass and being out in the (somewhat hazy because of wildfire smoke) sun.


Most people seem butthurt, so let's start there.


Gm Reply Guy. Busy day ahead, probably thr same for you, fren.


Gn nostr. My mind is far busier than it needs to be. 💤🛌


fafo.


Gm. Today we prepare. Tomorrow we ride.


Gn.

Today I used my last coffee pod. I'm not saying I will never have caffeine again, but I do intend on taking a break for a while, and only having it occasionally instead of daily.


As someone who grew up in an area with flash floods that claimed lives every year, not to mention plenty of cars, I agree. Don't drive in floodwater if you can avoid it. Doesn't matter if you mud bog on the weekends. When you can't avoid it, I'd still prefer to be in something with lots of clearance and minimal electrical requirements. And if it stalls, the starter is at the bottom of the motor, and is electric. So don't stall.


And your next plan is to buy an electric vehicle with low ground clearance? Interesting choice. May I humbly suggest an even mildly lifted pickup or large SUV that is over 25 years old, maybe 35 years old? It would solve most of this evening's issues, when used strategically. Mine is a '93 Suburban. Also an '87 GMC pickup. Either would likely be swept away by floodwaters before flooding out their motors.


I see your problem. They were kind enough to circle it for you. (j/k)


This is aggressively shopping the weekly ads, digital deals, member deals, and "manager special" or other discount bins of Kroger and Safeway (actually bought by Kroger, but still operating separately here for now). When I do find something, I buy as much as they have on the shelf, or according to their deal limit, and put it in the freezer. I routinely buy roasts and cut them into steak myself. I don't buy thin-cut.

This approach doesn't work at most discount grocers (WinCo, Grocery Outlet, etc) because they just don't offer the big sale discounts on top of what they think of as already discounted. It doesn't work at Costco either, as they don't have to market sales aggressively. Their volume allows them to set a fair price, but a higher price than I want to pay.

I'm planning to start buying from a local rancher as well, and will pay more for it. This will make me even more picky about what I choose to pick up at the supermarket. Lately it has been chuck roast, london broil, and petite sirloin. None of that is super great, but it gets me through the week, and is better, in my opinion, than mince.


My supermarket price limit on beef if $7/lb. If it is under $7, I buy. Over $7? Better be something I really want for some reason. This met my price, simple enough.

Sure, it is bone in, but I do the same for bone-in ribeyes, so there is precedent. Not cheap, but not over my limit. #carnivore doesn't have to be expensive, even with some nicer variety of cuts/meats thrown in.


Gn.
I ate a fucking tomahawk ribeye for dinner. First time I've cooked meat on a barbecue grill in quite some time. Worked great, seared, then indirect heat for a while to finish it.

Got it for cheep at walmart. Steal of the weekend!
https://image.nostr.build/2a9a650cc76c25e7f43d341b2e3c3f5914f7091c5b9473d23679a8edee70337e.jpg


The people closest to me.


Fair. Canadians.


Quit hating on Canada.


Today's breakfast bowl same as yesterday (eggs, bacon, cheese), but added some beef liver. Good stuff!


1. Recognize and detect manipulation and coercion.
2. Become ungovernable.


Gm nostr. Trying to remain optimistic, but today might be a rough one. I'll go with this - I will be able to get through whatever this day brings.


Gn. Had a good day today. It's late. I should sleep. 🛌💤


Planning out a western states motorcycle tour for early October. Starting in Washington, will go through Oregon, Idaho, Utah, and Wyoming on the way to Pueblo Colorado to see my sister. From there, looking at making my way back through New Mexico and Arizona to stop by a friend's house outside Las Vegas Nevada, then come back through Oregon to Washington.  I don't think I hit Montana or California on this route, but I've already been to Montana this summer, and I can do without setting foot (or tires) in the People's Republic.

The trip will take 9 days, with two full days in Pueblo. Roughly 500 miles per day of riding, maybe a little less some days, but with lots of opportunities to push further if I want to, or take an easy day. I have at least an extra day as contingency in case something goes sideways, and can easily abort the Vegas way back and just go back the way I came to Pueblo, saving a full day at least. I've done 750+ miles in a day, but probably won't on this trip.

There's still plenty of time for making changes. I'll stay in motels, but I'm not making any reservations, just in case things change. If there is truly no vacancy somewhere, I'll just ride on until I find it. I'm taking a laptop because I need to at least check in with work and handle some quoting that I can't ignore for a week, and I'll be checking in here.


https://video.nostr.build/682d796e8552e3e582f4169635c2c6c8ac022185be7960a2a21af0782b914f86.mp4

Today's achievement - conversion from throttle body injected to carbureted, new cam, headers, complete rewire, etc. Fought a bad coil and a fuel switching unit or it would have been running weeks ago. Today, it runs. This is from cam break-in.


Shit that is scary - is it fast enough to handle streaming media? I've always had huge latency issues with Tor. I have it installed, and use it occasionally, but not always on.


A little early breakfast. Bacon and egg bowl.
#carnivorr #coffeechain
https://image.nostr.build/1db740f13948f09cdebd2ccfe6a3d30f95f27b7a8b2d1c558bcd6c8cf63844a6.jpg


Gm.
Switched to always-on VPN on my mobile device, in solidarity with Brazil. Or really, just to see what it would break. Going surprisingly well so far.


Gn nostr.
About time for a new pfp, ffs.


Time to try out some new Android clients and PWAs that will run in Kiwi with nos2x, use Amber, or nsecbunker. Bonus if it can easily support more than one npub.


All income from my fiat job goes to Strike, who converts it to sats on receipt. From there, I quickly send it via lightning to hot storage.  I do not keep a balance of sats on Strike.  Can't be too careful. Also I don't need Strike to have a record of how old sats are or where they came from.

As I need to pay fiat expenses throughout the month, I send sats to Strike from hot storage through lightning, then immediately sell them for USD and have the USD sent to my fiat bank. Again, no balance held on Strike, and they have no knowledge of how old those sats are,  what USD price I may have paid for them, or how they should be valued.

I keep a small hot balance in my fiat bank in a linked saving account, in case I can't get dollars out of Strike fast enough. I keep a contingency margin in my checking accounts for similar reasons, or if I absolutely need paper money for something. Everything else is paid for on credit cards with decent rewards programs that are either cash back (applied to CC balance) or Amazon/Costco credits-back, since I buy enough from there to make it worthwhile.

I would welcome a Strike card to try out, but it hasn't happened for me yet, probably because of how bullish my bitcoin adoption has been and its effect on fiat balances.

Any fiat income outside of my fiat job is just cycled into the fiat banking system, and I'll occasionally cycle it back to Strike for an additional buy of a dip.  The hot balances in the fiat bank also give me some ability to buy a dip, but it has to be REALLY attractive to do that.  There's enough flux in the Strike outflows to essentially DCA the bitcoin sales around dips, and enough contingency everywhere to absorb dramatic price actions.

It took several years to get to this point, several failed attempts at doing it before, and it still isn't perfect - but it is working. My margins are tight by design, but they work as long as I am focused on accumulation and not gratification.

This is entirely a hot system, and does not impact my cold storage at all - never touches it, does not involve it, nor should it.  If I want to decrease a hot contingency account into my cold storage, I can - but that is not what this system is about.  This is all about accumulating slowly while living day to day, and forcing me to choose every time I want to spend a sat whether or not it is truly worth it to me to do so, since everything in my system starts in Bitcoin.

Today's nod to Jack was related to a customer service matter that I felt was handled tremendously well by the Strike team.  I can't say I've had the same treatment elsewhere, and wanted to thank him for the company ethos that he has built.  I will not get into details of what the matter was here, but it was felt, and that is what matters.


Thanks, nostr:npub1cn4t4cd78nm900qc2hhqte5aa8c9njm6qkfzw95tszufwcwtcnsq7g3vle

Today is the reason I'm so bullish on Strike. You are making it easy for people such as myself to truly live on a Bitcoin standard.


The Case Against Reality - Hoffman.
#bookstr


GN nostr.

Got my wife to sign off on my 1400 mile ride to Pueblo CO to see my sister in October. 8 days: 3 to get there, 2 to spend there, 3 to get back. I'll have two extra days available to me if I need them.

This is why learned to #motorcycle.

(everything else went ok today. Not great, but ok.)


Yes, otter dog!


Fuck yeah!  Had mine without ground meat this morning, just 1/2 dozen eggs and some cheese. was odd not having the meat there. Having a steak now, though!


Here's something triggering. Sold a couple million sats earlier, once we were back above 60k. Might sell some more later. This is cover fiat bills, since I am paid in Bitcoin and live on a bitcoin standard, selling sats only to pay my fiat expenses. I try to dca out a bit, although I have semi-monthly "pay dates" that I try to meet. Didn't have to sell any below 60k this dip.

#theothersideofdca #paidinbitcoin #bitcoinstandard


Today has been great. Woke up at 1:30 am. Slept on and off until 5ish, started
sneezing. Wife insists on running a fan on low constantly, was convinced this was making it far worse. Finally gave up on trying to sleep at 5:45 (normally get up between 6 and 7, so not too bad, just not the best way to get there).

Took an antihistamine that would turn my now clogged nose to runny, and hopefully stop the sneezing. It worked. Now I'm draining out of my nose holes. Good thing I've got a rag.  I can see evidence of rashiness that also indicates a general histamine reaction of some kind, but no idea where it came from. Well, fuck it. Drinking coffee, already downed most of a stick of butter, waiting for some steaks to thaw. May have some eggs while I wait. Had some hot dogs, because I was fucking hungry. Feeding the dog now, gonna put him outside in a moment and get some sun rays on my head. Vitamin D. Fuck yeah. Shit, red light therapy from a local weight loss clinic as a commercial during network news morning show. I fucking hate network news, was ignoring. Interesting that red light is going mainstream.

Yes, I use nostr to stream diary/thought streams. Gfy if this bothers you.

GM.
#diarystr


Fuvkit!


Gn nostr.

Caffeine saga check-in. Had a pod at about 10:15a, but mostly because I knew I wanted to use them up. Took a couple hours to drink it. Decided to fuck off both my 1 pod/day, and no pods after noon rules, and brewed off another after 1p. Same deal, no real desire to drink it. I just want to use them up. I think there are 15 left. Tomorrow might be the same plan, but may start earlier. Up at 6, waiting 4 hours to start is a little silly. Maybe 8:30ish. FFS.


Yep, twice!


I'm gonna get nuthin twice!


Fuck yeah!


I disagree with pretty much all of this, but still find it fucking hilarious.

No-one should do anything for me out of obligation. I cook for myself, to my own liking.

I should not take a de-escalation attempt as an affront, even if it might have been hurtful to me in the moment, and then lash out from that hurt in harsh criticism of my wife's efforts to provide me with sustenance.

This is my wrong, not hers. If she still thinks industrial lubricants and plant poisons are to be eaten, then obviously I have failed in her instruction as well, but this outburst was no way to teach.


Pissed off my wife after I tried to tell her I preferred un-marinaded meat, she told me to get over it (or something like that), and I told her eating marinaded meat was like eating meat dipped in motor oil and crack cocaine.

Oh well. I'm an insensitive ass. There's a bunch of carne asada in the fridge. I'm not touching it.

#hownottocarnivore


GN nostr.

I didn't have any caffeine today. No coffee, no tea. It wasn't planned, I was just going ti have my one coffee later, between 10a and noon. 12:30 rolled around, hadn't had it, decided not to.

Same plan for tomorrow and rest of this week. 2-hour coffee window, if I miss it, oh well. I should just quit, but I've got a little over a dozen pods left. Never been good at tossing things out like that.

Still need to get better control of dairy.


Cedar plank grill salmon, don't flip.


Buenas noches, notramigos!

Figuring it out. Later coffee today was okay, but as much later as I wanted to.

Tried to eat less steaks, but ended up eating cream cheese instead.


Just remember all the animals that go homeless and are depopulated (killed) to make room for land to grow crops.

No more humane way to live than to eat ruminant pasture-raised meat.


Worcestershire.
Just use brown sauce instead. Then you can just say brown sauce. Easy, innit?


Was expecting the "Also world tyranny in blue" pie chart.


Wunderbar!


Done, sir. May the shitposting resume!


Got you beat, last load is in the dryer. Home stretch ... until the folding begins...


Good night, Nostr.

I'll.be.back.to play.again tmrw, promise! Kk,bye.


Today's adventure took me to Coldwater Lake. Mount St. Helens.

https://m.primal.net/KNEx.jpg

Ride around and find out.


It was the best of times. It was the worst of times...
...
Then bitcoin found me.


Hope you enjoy it. I've now gone into the deep end of Vedic wisdom in an attempt to reframe my own reality.


The Case Against Reality - Donald Hoffman


As.a.shitty.typist.i.often.tap.the.period.instead.of.the.space.key...I.may.just.not.bother.fixing.these.issues.anymore.


This.

The present is also problematic, as by the time it can be observed, it is already past, and our tools to observe are woefully imperfect. What we actually exist in is a field of observation and potentiality, continuously making decisions, even when those decisions are to simply observe further.


That's interesting. I wasn't confining this to water, as I see cryo-chambers as the same thing in modern times. Are you sure about that, though? It wouldn't be frostbite, but I would think hypothermia or exhaustion would ultimately claim more lives, if we are including prolonged cold water deaths.

Here's a personal experience. As a boy, maybe 6 yrs old, I was running on the docks, tripped and fell in the water. I was in a life jacket - we always had to wear them outside of the house, for reasons exactly like this. There was some skim ice on the water, so it was plenty cold.

My parents were up at the house, but luckily heard my shouts or something and were able to find me and pull me out. Some hot cocoa and all was well, but I'm sure I gave them a horrible scare. I've actually experienced this in nightmares with my own children drowning and me not able to save them.

I live near rivers that people die in every year, because they think they can swim across them, but the spring snow melt runoff in the rivers is so cold that it exhausts them before they make it across.

As a survival skill, I'm not convinced cold plunging would be high on the list, compared to avoiding situations where an accidental exposure would happen, or being prepared with flotation or other safeguards.


There we go - this is what I am looking for! Is it just done for infants, and to what purpose?


I'm not missing that point at all. I started by stating it, amd referenced Inuit earlier.

Did native americans bathe year round as a form of hygiene? I don't know if this is true or not. I'm not willing to assume it. That is still different from experiencing less than 57 degree water for wellness or mental clarity. Exposure to cold temps for fishing or other food gathering also isn't the same as doing it optionally for wellness.

Exposure to heat through sweat lodges and various ceremonies was done for wellness. That is clear. Not all cultures, perhaps, but enough. Not seeing evidence of cold ceremonies.


Made it through my weekly store run without poisoning myself. Leaving the first store, where I am more likely to buy a sweet treat, I felt my stomach knot up, so clearly the mental withdrawal was initiating a physio reaction. Still, putting a lot of my focus and publicised effort into not poisoning myself definitely feels like it is helping.

This isn't about publicising a goal. This is just flat out accountability and focus.

I also bought 15.5 lbs of meat (all roasts) for an average price of $5.29/lb. It is now all cut into steaks. Those may or may not all get eaten this week. I expect not, as I think I've been eating a little too much lately.

I'm playing around a little bit with the caffeine as well. I waited until a couple hours after I woke up to have my one coffee. I've just been sipping at it occasionally. I drink it room temp anyway, so it not being hot is no issue. 2 hours after making it, I just finished it while making this note.

There's probably something to breaking the habit of having it first thing after waking up. I think that will make it much easier to fully give up. I'll be trying that this week, if I don't just stop it altogether.

#carnivore #coffeechain #diarystr


Gn nostr

Only one pod of coffee this morning. No poison today.

Tomorrow (Sundays) is usually my hard day, because I go to the store. We'll see how it goes, but I'm bringing new levels of awareness and accountability to this struggle, so I have hope.


Why does iodized salt have dextrose in it? #asknostr


Met with the rancher, shook his hand. Should have fresh beef in my freezer in 3-4 weeks. Thanked him for improving the soil by raising cattle instead of destroying it with crops.


Planning to go shake a rancher's hand, in an hour or so.


I'm not disputing that people lived in cold climates. That is simply not the same as jumping in an icy pool by choice, with the expectation of some health benefit.

Last I checked, cold wasn't for pain management, often the cold exposure hurts worse! If anything, it is to stop swelling - but swelling is a sign of the body immobilizing the area in an effort to protect it during healing, while it is bringing all of its other healing mechanisms to bear on the area. Applying cold would slow that while process down, actually retarding your own body's healing efforts.

You mention bathing - how much bathing was actually happening in cold waters? Hot baths in sweat lodges were more common around here (pacific northwest). Not sure how much bathing in water the Inuit do, probably not a lot. But this is where I am making guesses, and don't know the answers. For all I know the Inuit yelled "cannonball" and did polar bear challenge plunges all the time!

Roman baths were also heated, as I understand it. Very different climate there.

Everything I have come to understand about survival would point to avoiding 1) cold and 2) being in water whenever possible, just from a general sense of risk/reward.

I still don't hear any evidence of ancestral humans or any animal species practicing cold plunges for physio- or psycho- wellness.


If they are truly rights and not entitlements, then they can neither control or be controlled. You may choose to assert them or deny them, and others may attempt to influence you, but this is control of a right, just control of yourself asserting that right.


I've been questioning cold exposure on the basis of ancestral wisdom. Is there any evidence that ancient peoples had any kind of ceremony or practice where they would expose themselves to intense cold?

I think there is plenty of basis for heat - saunas, sweat lodges, etc. But cold would just be unnecessary risk of death or frostbite, right?

My general argument is that our physiology evolved to increase our chances of survival. Our ancestors were much more in tune with survival than we are today, and likely found the best practices to thrive in nature. In turn, our physiology also evolved to suit those practices. I don't restrict this to only humans either, where our general biology is largely shared with plenty of the animal kingdom. Not sure where cold exposure fits into this model. Even applying ice to pain should be questioned. When is the last time someone living outside of an icy biome applied cold to a muscle injury? Ever see an animal trying to cool off a sprained limb?

This is just part of my question everything mindset, especially anything that has changed over the last few hundred years. No particular attachment to this rabbit hole, just one I stick my nose in from time to time.


Interesting, as I see our current state at probably 7+ of the above, with movement toward all in some ways. And very few politicians taking meaningful stances against any of this.


Other failure mentioned was screens in the bedroom (kindle paperwhite doesn't count). Trying to avoid this, especially during sleeping hours. Was on nostr to send a gn message, spent 20 minutes scrolling. Fuck that. Maybe I take nostr off my phone, only have it on the desktop in the office. That would solve the problem. But then, what to do whilst shitting? No more shit posts.


GN.

Didn't poison, blahblahblah. Failing another metric rn, gotta go.


See, that's where this gets a little aggravating for me. Every time I try and poke the bear of virology (or immunology, for that matter), someone goes full retard on coronavirus. I'd rather just ignore that, and really look at the state of virology research/knowledge up to Ebola or SARS. I'd want to focus on influenza, perhaps. Or some other illness that has been (mis)characterized as a virus, but has been around for at least several decades. Maybe chicken pox. Which was then also shingles, and now monkey pox. But again, focus on it as chicken pox, and tell me what caused symptoms to seemingly pass from one child to the next.

I could be going at this too hard, but are there even any truly communicable diseases, aside from brain rot and stupidity?


I'm trying to wrap my head around the anti-virology argument. What I'm not getting is if there are not organisms that can infect a host and reproduce to create other organisms that can be passed from one host to another, in such a way that an organism, once passed in a way that permits it, can infect another host - then how do we explain a pattern of symptoms that appear to temporally coincide among individuals in close proximity? Maybe individual reactions to environmental stimuli - like we all smelled the same fart, just some smelled it later than others?


GN nostr.

This is probably repetitive, but I didn't poison myself with sugars today. I did finish the last of the cold brew. I did stick to no more than two k-pods of coffee.

The goal right now is to just have one pod of coffee in the AM, no more caffeine throughout the day, except for maybe iced tea (unsweetened of course) if I'm dining out, or a gas station coffee occasionally.

I had gotten to this level of caffeine avoidance before I quit smoking. It's been over a month, time to get back there again. To tell you where I was at before, easily 8+ kpods (in 12 oz pours) throughout the day, plus whatever other caffeine I could find.

Yes, I could still sleep at night, but no way was that good for me. I think I'd like to no longer have a daily caffeine event, but still would like to enjoy an espresso occasionally.

Not sure if that is reality, though. It definitely isn't with nicotine. Probably not with heroin either.

So, we'll see. Right now it is more important for me to focus on keeping the sugar poisoning to an absolute minimum while staying off nicotine. And that is happening. One damn day at a time.


Also, we have the two-burner model, and use it for pressure canning, although not as much anymore, since the wife got an electric canner. I still prefer the old-style pressure canner though. Small kitchen, electric range, easier to spread out and do the canning outside over a gas burner.


Crab. We've always called these crab cookers, because they are useful for bringing huge pots of water to boil if you want to cook all your freshly caught crabs at once.


Thanks for this. I was missing the part about it taking up 0.5 degrees. I had already estimated 15 degrees per hour.

Not sure I ever realized how fast it moves. Moving its complete area every 2 minutes? That is pretty close to observable motion, definitely faster than grass growing  or paint drying!


ok #asknostr - how long does it take for the moon to be fully above the horizon? moonrise is when it first appears on the horizon, as I understand it, but I want to know how long after moonrise the entire moon (whatever portion of it may be visible or not) is above the horizon. #grownostr


Simple is rarely easy, right? Neither is important stuff. Give me the hard stuff, makes for interesting times. Certainly these are interesting times.


Grocery stores can be easy (except for the day-old pastry rack) because I can just nerd out on meat prices, trying to buy all my beef under $7/lb. But I understand. Like the day I found corn syrup in my ground pork, I think it was.

Also I no longer really buy grocery store pork products because I don't want to be taking "vaccines" that were dosed into the pigs, apparently there is no need to label whether or not "mRNA therapy" was administered to the hogs.


GN.

I didn't poison myself with sugar today. I drank more cold brew coffee than I should, and ate more cheese than I should.

I bought some iodized sea salt from WalMart. I looked at the label more closely today, one if its ingredients is dextrose. What the actual fuck? Why are they adding sugar to salt? Fuck this world, seriously. Outraged. I should just rage quit everything NOW!

Into the bin with that nonsense. But also, why does my mother-in-law (who lives under my roof) just leave most of a crumb cake with some magic cookies in the space where there wasn't crumb cake sitting out in the kitchen where I have to see it and walk by it every time I want to get a drink? Maybe I'll go buy some meth and just cut out a nice line and put it on the bathroom counter, in case anyone wants to dig up histories of poisoning one's self. For fuck's sake.

I threw that crumb cake in the bin too, after the rest of the people in this house had eaten everything in the middle of the pan except for the crumbs and the edges. They got their poison for the day. I can't stop 'em, and I won't join 'em.

Shit is still rough, maybe less rough than yesterday, maybe the same and I'm one more day used to it.

Apparently the wisdom of the day is patience, so I will let it blow by. Whatever happens probably would happen anyway.

I might get a peek at a big harvest moon shortly; not entirely sure if was full tonight or last night, but either way, should be pretty big if the clouds cooperate.

Cheers nostr. 🌕🎉


I'd love to do this more, but it seems people always want me to do stuff. And also, I also want to get stuff done (so I can practice stillness afterward).

I still have my moments, though. I do tend to be a frustratingly patient person (frustrating to others who wonder why I'm not doing stuff for them, or on their perceived timeline.)


Sorry, I don't keep a million sats in my zapper.  Cheers!


Agree. I will even try to search a hashtag, then go through profiles posting with that hashtag and check feeds for reposts and memes.  I'm OK with memes, if they are done with some other content or are just really funny.  If they are just reposts of the usual stuff, no need.

Another part of fine-tuning my algo has been to stop following most of the big 3L173 accounts. No need when enough of my follows will just repost or reply to anything significant being said anyway.

#noalgo (I like this one!)


I post about feelings. And meat. And my addictions. Rarely about bitcoin, almost never about nostr.

GM.

My dog is tired this morning, and not very hungry. Oh well, he's well fed, now that I feed him raw meat and eggs instead of ultra-processed garbage.


The only way I am getting through my sugar addiction is to continuously remind myself not to poison myself.

It's fucking harder because I don't have a bunch of immediate shitty effects when I eat something sweet. No hives, no debilitating brain fog or mental lethargy, no physical effects at all that are immediately observable.

Nicotine addiction was way easier, because it was physically and mentally obvious when I was in withdrawal from nicotine, regardless of how much I may have denied it.

I expect caffeine to be even harder to completely kick in some ways, although I have brought my overall consumption way down without much struggle - because I really don't experience any effects, other than desiring it at times, and possibly (unconfirmed) having some issues getting to sleep and/or staying asleep, but these are very unconfirmed, and caffeine is only one of many factors that *could* be in play. What can I say, life is complex!

But I haven't poisoned myself (with sugar) yet today.

So far I've only permitted myself hot coffee, cold brew coffee, and butter. Steak will be happening soon.

#sugaraddict #carnivore


You can learn a lot about yourself in how you choose to react to someone else's pain or frustration, even their shame.

While I primarily share my shames and feelings on nostr to disarm them through writing them out, using the magic of words to bind them - I also appreciate that this practice may help others. I think they may have helped you in some small way.

As always, I remain willing to stand beside anyone, looking out over the void. While I cannot feel what you feel, or see what you see, I can support and affirm your feeling and sense. 🫂


There are two very different things going on here, both of which I did allude to, because I was trying to honestly capture my emotion in words at the time I was feeling it.

One is self-judging through an imaginary external perspective. This is one of the worst things we do to ourselves. And you're right, we learn it from birth onwards, especially in religious homes that believe in some form of original sin (or sin at all). The imaginary external perspective is God, but because the parents believe and accept this judgement, they in turn model it for and onto their children.

Intellectually, I reject this kind of judging (from any imaginary external source, whether it is God, a parent, someone I respect, really anyone that I believe could have an opinion about my actions that has not directly shared that opinion with me).

That doesn't mean that I am immune to feeling that judgement emotionally. Again, this is learned - over years, decades, and reinforced in society. Yesterday I was definitely feeling it, and I can accept that, while rejecting it from a philosophical stance.

The other thing happening was a feeling that I was failing by my own standards. I couldn't even pinpoint where that was happening, which means it may have been more of the externally judged feeling overflowing its banks, and making me want to assume that I should also feel some sense of personal shame.

Where it may have come from is my personal prime directive - to serve as an example to my children. It is hard to feel confident in that while also feeling some broad sense of external shame.

A couple tricks to get through these times - 1. Work. Physical or even mental labor. 2. Do something that helps someone else.

And most importantly (and often forgotten) 3. Accept the feeling. Whatever you or I am feeling is valid, even when comes from invalid assumptions. By accepting the feeling, you can then address how you came to feel that way. If you reject the feeling, you don't give yourself that opportunity, and will just continue to feel that way whenever faced with similar circumstances.

Accepting feelings are learning moments. It is part of accepting responsibility for ourselves.


I appreciate the sentiment! Definitely worth a chuckle. Radical responsibility, something I don't always practice, but tend to aspire towards, tells me that this was my day, and I am directly responsible for it. I can accept that.


Yeah, that didn't really sound like a change of tune. Just the bare minimum to try and stop the bleeding. Denials, centralizing operations (where the issue was already with centralized operations), more denials. Exactly what one would expect of a company led by someone who believes strongly in DEI and woke policy.

The hard part is, it is very hard to deny DEI and wokism once you've embraced it. It's going to take a major leadership change for the brand to really recover. Possibly a corporate takeover from a competitor or a rescuer. AMF did it in the late 60's and 70s, took over a decade before HD could restore its roots.

As a Harley product owner, I'm not selling my superior product, but I'm not buying anything new or visiting dealerships until major change happens. There's plenty of used, aftermarket, and outside vendors to supply parts, services, and complete bikes.


Today was one of those days where it felt like I was kicking ass on just about everything, but somehow it still wasn't good enough.

It would be nice to say that every expectation I failed to meet was someone else's, but pretty sure some of them were also my own.

I suppose tomorrow will be a new day, but days like today make it hard to believe a new day will go any better.

I wish I had a better plan than just keep on kicking ass. But that's it for now.

GN.
#ffs


I have discovered that at any given moment, the phrase going through my head is likely... "for fuck's sake..."
#ffs


Some debris on the ground tells me it is time to clean out a roof gutter and drain. Preferably before the next downpour.


Most people in our lives give zero fucks about our happiness and wellness.

It is up to us to do the things that bring us happiness and wellness, as nobody else is going to do it for us.

And this will piss some of these people off. Some will be jealous that you are happy and well.

This becomes a great litmus test for who you want to have in your life and invest in with your energy. It isn't worth your remaining fucks to invest in people who won't give fucks in return.


I made it through my Sunday shopping without poisoning myself.

Surprisingly, this has been hard to do for quite a while now. I could blame it on being nicotine free for a month, but that is probably a bullshit excuse.

The truth is, I am an addict. My substances of choice have been, in order of magnitude:
1. Sugar
2. Nicotine
3. Caffeine

I haven't been successful yet at getting free of all three at the same time. I've been able to manage 2/3, in all possible combinations.

Still a work in progress.


Yes, but the Anunaki are legit.


BDE.


Einstein was wrong.