Reptilians. As in David Icke. Sorry, I just don't believe this one.


Plants are medicine.


Fun facts - last week, went to the highest steel bridge in WA. You can walk or drive across it, did both. There's lots of graffiti, chalk drawings, etc, all over the road surface as well as the sides. Sure enough, out there in the middle of it, right in the middle of the road surface - a penis. Probably 8-10 feet long. A couple friends posed with it for pictures.

Clearly Ben beat us there.


Why would you talk about money? Feelings are much more important (and interesting). And everybody has some!


Maybe sooner, if you're around where I think you are, you're catching the opener now, and the main storm is 30-45 minutes behind it.


Agree, unusually cool and wet. Plenty of warm dry days though, just more cool days and wet-ish days, and less super-hot days.

The t-storm coming up from the south was nice today, stayed warm for it, made for a nice day of riding before coming home to watch the show. Should be headed your way in a few hours, if it stays northerly.


I get that. I also tend to frame things out as fully considered ideas, which may appear closed. The truth is I'm willing to reconsider anything, should new information or thought or emotion be brought to light.

The hardest things to reconsider are not the things we embrace, but the things we have already dismissed. For example, I have completely dismissed revealed religion. It would extremely hard for me to reconsider and be open to Jesus as my true Savior and the only way to Heaven. There is so many different things in that last sentence that I have dismissed as not just false, but ridiculous and impossible.

However, even these things that we dismiss are still possible. The earth could somehow be flat. Reptile aliens could be in control of our world governments.

If you get rid of all your beliefs, you are still left with your emotion - how you feel about everything, regardless of what you think. Experiencing the emotion is more important and significant anyway.


That's just it. I don't know what it is, I just have this gut feeling that how we regard time is not at all accurate.

There's time as measured by the rotation of the earth, and its orbit around the sun.

But that wasn't good enough, so there's some fancy science definitions that concern measurements of light wavelengths or something (learned it about 35 years ago.)

I don't think either of these concepts really gets at how time works.

Consider in 3-D space, where objects have width, height, and depth, a distance between two locations is said to be based on the time it takes to travel from one point to the other. Distance = Rate x Time.

But rate (speed) is expressed as distance / time, so the time cancels out, leave distance  = distance, so kind of silly.

But if matter and 3D isn't actually reality, and reality is wave/energy/field based, are there definitive locations with distance between them? Does this even still make sense?

Does time work sequentially, where a cause always precedes an effect, or could they happen all at once, or possibly reversed?

I'm currently trying to learn about the Hindu / Vedic concepts of time, because my early understanding was that they are pretty different.

I can talk for hours about time theories and such, but again, I don't know how valid most of them are.

I think this much is true - whatever I am doing in this moment is the most important thing to me that I could be doing, and I would rather be doing it than any other option I might have.

And right now, I am replying to you.


As I understand it (and was using it), a materialist believes reality is based in matter. This is the general approach of the hard sciences, physics, math, etc. Even a lot of philosophy is based in materialism - see Descartes, for example, although philosophers tend to struggle with existence beyond matter. Even religions tell their creation myths in terms of matter and objects.


Wb. Gn boho. 🌛🫂


And when you've chosen poorly, what you have is what you have, so...


Dos pounderoonies? That is much nom. I had less pounderoonies, was gud. #measureyourmeatintakeinstone


Please keep questioning all the beliefs!

If you believe something strongly, with conviction, be prepared to question it harder! Reject it, and then try to arrive at it again in some other way. I've rejected reality many times. I reject plenty of science, especially materialist science, as just not the full story. Right now I'm trying to reject our concept of time, as I'm pretty sure it is wrong, or at least incomplete.

You can say whatever you wish, and I also reject right and wrong. Yes, I reject morality.

If beliefs take us to a known place, can disbelief take us to an unknown place? I try to embrace the unknown. What I lack in creativity I make up in curiosity.


It is possible - and again, maybe more similar to what I have thought of as field energy. Kind of like magnetic fields or light diffusion, but I feel there there are many field energies that we experience. And the energies work with each other, so a disruption or change in one field energy can have an effect on another field energy.

Would you consider yourself a materialist? Based on your concept of frequency, I could assume not, but bettsr to just ask.

I generally think of matter as stored information, so it completely makes sense to me that transfer and creation of information through actions, thoughts, and feelings would be frequency as you say, and our senses would be sensing frequency (your model) or field energies (my model).


I understand well. My mh counselor found me overly intellectual - definitely wrapped up in layers of analysis and logic. I only felt breakthroughs when I began to embrace emotion (pun intended), although I had some earlier success with self esteem. I've written about a lot of it here along the way.

I'm happy for you as well, and it is great to meet another of the folks I would happily stand beside, peering out into the abyss. If I cannot feel your emotion, I can still support your journey.


I can appreciate all of this, and like everything, it may just come down to semantics. I do not see a contradiction, as experiencing emotion does not require belief, but belief (in my opinion) requires an emotional component).

Intuition is an emotionally charged experience. Our soul is emotion, and emotion is the differentiator between one soul and another. Whether all souls are part of one soul (or merely facets or expressions of one soul) or not isn't much of a question, because at least in this plane of existence, they are differentiated (separated) by emotion.

I cannot feel what anyone else is feeling. My feelings may be similar, but cannot be identical.

From that simple differentiation, everything else becomes differentiated. I do not see exactly what anyone else sees; I do not believe what everyone else believes... because sensory input, beliefs, all of it has an emotional component.

Understanding this has allowed me to love harder than ever before, because I am loving the other for their otherness, rather than for similarities or congruities.

Fear is an emotional response to the unknown. As I believe all emotions are true and valid, I would say that fear is true and valid. How we come to use that emotion may often be irrational though.

I embrace the Vedic construct of all matter being one, and formed as expressions of our souls.

I think we have arrived at very similar places in view. Good to find someone that at least works to understand themselves.


Imagine for a minute if beliefs, consciousness, possibly even reality were downstream from emotion.

Taking that approach changes a lot, when you learn to trust and use your emotion, rather than just trying to control it with consciousness and belief.

I personally trust my emotions far more than my beliefs or consciousness, or reality itself, at least as I understand or experience it.


Another 4 weeks of raw natural dog food made. His skin issues have almost completely healed.

GN.


Shit I rarely remember to tag GN on my gn notes. Maybe I need another npub that just posts GN. Bot makers probably have done this already.

GN (although this doesn't get the same reach as a reply note)


Still sorting out how I want to engage in social media (meaning nostr, I am not active anywhere else).

I now have 3 npubs for different engagement:

this one, that is essentially a nym, although a somewhat leaky one. My opsec around this nym is far from perfect. I still feel pretty safe posting whatever I want here, without any expectation of meatspace reprisals.

Another one, that has really been more for viewing specific content around a personal interest. I've posted from it a few times, but I have no intention of sharing anything remotely personal with it.

And a new one, that will be as real and public as a Facebook profile. My real name. I'll probably be paying the most attention to this npub, using it to see how comfortable I am with respect to posting. For example, I don't expect I will even acknowledge bitcoin.   Because I don't need anyone (online) knowing whether or not I might have some, or have had some. No need to invite that wrench attack. No zaps. No nodes. Just a normie npub, spouting normie shit about normie interests, mostly. Nothing that would trigger any kind of second glance, even if all past notes are searched and indexed (which I assume they are or will be).

Boring, you say? Try it. It isn't easy, trying to establish a social graph of sorts while not disclosing a whole lot.

Is is "being myself"? Of course it is, but only when you consider the composite of these npubs (and any others I might have, or end up creating later on).


I'm south. Heading up to Shelton tomorrow on  a ride. I want to do the full Olympic peninsula circuit before the weather turns this fall, but have some other rides planned. Haven't been up to Whidbey for a while, probably 15-20 years.


Struggling to define policies most in line with my goals. GN.


I don't know what I'm doing, but I won't let that stop me.


No, I think you did well at flowing it in with the rest of your topics. I think your website creation frame lent itself well as a vehicle to bring together seemingly disparate concepts.
Definitely up to meeting for a steak whenever you're back in WA.


Watched, enjoyed. Good work sir.


Why's everyone wanting to talk about their savings accounts? Couldn't think of a more boring topic.

But go on. Get rowdy. I saved some money today. Yay.


Compared to Twitter seems pretty centrist from my perspective, but we are so polarized these days everything looks extreme depending where you stand I suppose


Satellite. Desktop and Mobile PWA.


Step 1: I suck.
Step 2: Everyone else sucks worse. I'm the best.
Step 3: ???
Step 4: Success.


Price is not a factor of when I "buy". It can be a factor of when I sell. #paidinbitcoin


See, that was my old thinking, that withdrawals were something that happened when I was trying to quit. They would happen when I didn't have a plan for that next smoke.

What I realized was that withdrawal was practically continuous while I was a smoker. 10-15 minutes after a cigarette, the addiction is already wanting to be fed. We just tolerate (as addicts) the symptoms for the next hour or two, because we have a plan for the next dose of nicotine.

So now, withdrawals are something that happened as a smoker. After a few days quit, the withdrawals are gone. What isn't gone are the same social cues that made me start to begin with, and the power of advertising and brainwashing (over my lifetime) that make smoking seem like an attractive option in certain situations. The lies we tell ourselves, like smoking relieves boredom, or stress, or anxiety. None of those are true, just like "breakfast cereal" isn't part of a "healthy breakfast".


I see this more with television watchers, especially those that watch news, reality shows, and also use/follow news and reality "stars" on social media. Their entire model of human interaction is easily mapped to what they observe on the telly.

My wife unfortunately is one of those people. She brings a lot of additional drama into what should be a very stable relationship because that's what she's watched on TV her whole life. I've had to remind her a few times that we are not a TV couple.

Children are not immune, had to have a serious talk with my 9-year old daughter after she treated me very poorly/disrespectfully in front of her friends at her birthday party. I saw it was the same way kids on Nickelodeon and Disney channels treated their parents, for the laughs! I reminded my daughter there is no audience or laugh track, and our feelings are real and mine were hurt. It was effective, and she became a great teenager that gave me no disrespect through her teens.


I've had lap surgeries, and the gas aching your shoulders is a really weird feeling. I had just had my gall bladder removed, and had a ticket to the second Hobbit movie, opening night, in fancy-vision, whatever the hot cinema tech was at the time. Sat through that bitch, not a short movie, in pain, mostly from the gas. Harshest movie experience to date for me, and I've been to a lot in the theater.

Of course, also hard to keep the farts in; poor bastards around me may have suffered a bit too. Packed theater, keeping it quiet - who's to know?

Get better soon - and stay out of theaters for a few days ;)

Also the best are giant morning farts! Or so my wife claims, I don't really have much to offer after going carnivore.


Zinc oxide or Carmex? Lol.


Far Side had some greats. My favorite was Red Meat, though, by Max Cannon.
https://www.redmeat.com


As we should. Rode by some beautiful lakes yesterday. I haven't kayaked in years, but who knows what the future may hold... I do need to get the boat back out on the river though... hard to have my frequent boating accidents otherwise. Hope you enjoyed your sun!


Ideas for a sunscreen concept that applies well to the tip of my nose? #asknostr

Seriously, I can be out riding all day, and my arms are reddened, but not on fire. My cheeks rosy, not burnt. The tip of my nose? Hamburger. Blistered. Not all that painful, but I know this can't be good for it.

I've really stopped wearing sunscreen (and as a fair-complexioned red head with freckles that prefers "bluey" to "ginger", this is really something). The only real sore spot I've had was right there on my nose. Besides, everything else, generally easy enough to cover up if it gets a little hot.

And I don't want to just give in and start using commercial coppertone, unless it really is the best play here.

Does carmex work on your nose? I use it for chapped lips while riding. Or is that just weird?


Thanks for this, I read it.

I like Edam and Gouda, but it seems at least in America, these tend to be sold with lots of additives, especially Gouda.

Also of note, the study notes the relative absorption of K2 vs K1 (from plants, but only 5% to 10% absorption.) This is a common theme, plants have vitamins, but they are often not bioavailable through human digestion. I prefer to let my herbivores digest them for me, and then gain their benefit in the meat of the herbivore.

Finally, this was a sloppy study. Bought and paid for by the Dutch Dairy folks. For this reason, I take its cheese findings to be questionable, and actually find its other research notes more interesting and compelling.

I still don't think getting cheese on my burger (generally "American" cheese, which is full of shite)  to be a good choice, but may be more likely to buy the occasional wedge of Gouda.


I don't know if I will ever feel like it wouldn't be easy to go back. I've quit for years at a time before. This new mindset of seeing the continuous pattern of withdrawal is the closest I think I've ever been to having a strong enough reason to stay quit.

"For my health" wasn't good enough. "For my family", "because my daughter told me she wanted me to be around longer", because I want to be the best example to my kids, because I want to live longer, because I don't want to live through lung sicknesses, or other illnesses - none of these reasonings have been strong enough.

For some reason, because I don't want to live in a perpetual state of withdrawal - that has had power. Maybe it is the novelty of it. Maybe it is the present-ness. Maybe the absolute certainty of immediate pain/damage, rather than just future possibilities.


I wouldn't rule it out. But I also don't hold my backstory as unique, except in its entirety.

But why would you ask? What I know about my father makes general sense without assuming autism. I think the same could be said for me.

Try this on. As emotional trauma during the exact period of maturation where individuation and identity are being explored and formed caused a protective suppression of my emotional development, allowing my intellectual development to proceed unchecked. I become extremely analytical, but have a lot of issues comprehending emotion and expressing how I feel. I can easily tell you how I should feel, but struggle to really experience the feeling.

For a while, I thought this could be a form of sociopathy or some disaffective disorder. I've come to accept it doesn't need a diagnosis, just ways to work with it to continue to achieve my goals, and use it to my advantage when I can. Same would be said if it was determined to be autism.

Have you dug as hard at trying to figure yourself out? It is very rewarding at times, frustrating at others. I wish you success on your journey!


That's an interesting observation. On one hand, a hypothetical unknown penalty of uncertain magnitude because information that may or may not have been deleted falls into the hands of an alphabet agency (or just Alphabet) and is then discovered to be used against me.

On the other hand, my wife figures out enough about nostr to view my npub note history, or convinces me to show her. She is an insecure person, prone to jealousy and often feels slighted over the most innocent of interactions.

Do you see why one seems to be a lot more realistic and likely? It is almost like - there might be pain vs there will be blood.

I exist in a world that bleeds, but I try to keep it to a minimum, mostly.

But no, I don't doubt that anything I post anywhere is being catalogued by those I have not given permission to do so, beyond the simple act of committing it to digital memory at some point. Deletion of digital information only serves to obfuscate it from those not trying hard (or smart) enough to find it.


Must admit, I'm really liking seeing vegan used as a slur, without any regard to its actual etymology. Same goes for other examples of botany and flora. Not the first time in recent memory I've seen it, either. But I also admit I'm a vegan artichoke.


I appreciate you, Marie. 🫂


Oh, I have been nailing sun exposure. I definitely eat liver and eggs too!

Thanks for the input! Do orange cheddars work as well as muenster?


I've really been doing this friending thing wrong. Probably my whole life.  This is gonna be a long one, so strap in.

First, to baseline - the first 8 years of my life was spent in a very remote part of western Canada, out in the islands. Not near people. No schools. No friends, really.

Then, 8 years in, I was moved to Las Vegas (THAT Las Vegas) to live with my grandmother, directly after my dad died. I had no idea how to be social. None. It was a mess. I was a mess. No other way to describe it.

So to that point, everything I knew about friending came from books; mostly Hardy Boys mysteries, maybe some Choose Your Own Adventure. A few Nancy Drews. There was no television in my former life.  My parents weren't much help, as they didn't live in the middle of nowhere because they were at all social, so not like I had much there to model after.

I guess I learned most social lessons 1) late. 2) the hard way. Bullied? yes. Jumped? several times. There is a whole other topic that merges in here about how religion influenced this, but I'll just say that in general, Christianity was offered to me as a social milieu. This has its benefits and issues.  But that's not what I want to discuss right now.

What I learned.
1) I liked other kids. I wanted to be like other kids.
2) I did not have any idea how to be like other kids.
3) Telling other kids about my past did not really help. They didn't care, and would be more likely to make fun of me.
4) I didn't like being made fun of. I liked even less getting my ass kicked.
5) Lying about my past, or not talking about it, was a better way to move forward.
6) Lying was generally more likely to get me "friends" than being honest.
7) To get "friends", I needed to somehow impress them, or do something for them, or possibly be something for them.
8) I didn't do well at getting friends, or keeping friends. I figured I was pretty broken overall.

This was not a great childhood. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I was pretty motivated to move on. I hated school, myself, and pretty much everything about my life. I was always trying to find a better way, figuring if I could just be like other people, I would be in a better place.

This mindset (perceived low self esteem, in spite of actually pulling off a lot of really cool shit along the way, because I was my own harshest critic and had no idea how to actually stand on my own) really went up to a few years ago (let's say early 40s.)

The whole time, I didn't know how to friend. I tried. I wanted friends. I would get frustrated with myself that I wasn't putting in the effort to keep friends around. I had no problem being in a crowd, or finding people to talk to, or talking to people. I can go in public and start a conversation with just about anyone. I can get invited to the after party.  I've been the one throwing the after party.  But the next day, these people didn't give two shits about me, didn't invite me to the next party, wouldn't check on how I was doing, and I thought it was because I was just not putting in the effort in some way.

I went to fucking counseling, finally. This got me sorted on the self esteem thing. It got me reading a lot of good stuff. Even my counselor never figured out why my friending was broken.  We eventually parted ways, because I wasn't depressed, anxious, or anything he could help with. I was way too introspective and intellectual for him, and he thought it was getting in the way of my ability to feel emotion.  I did too, for a while - but I feel emotion just fine.  I don't always channel it out into expression very well, but it's not because I don't feel it.

Well, I'll skip to the end. Literally yesterday, I think. I was watching a video podcast (Diary of a CEO) that I watch occasionally. He was interviewing the CIA guy, seen him a couple times before on that podcast, and I think on Impact Theory. I actually don't like him much, don't really agree with him and his takes, but I decided I would listen in anyway because I do like hearing a different point of view.

And he was talking about persuasion and influence, and how to build relationships with people in order to persuade them or have influence over them, for example, to land a job through the interview process.

But what he said just fucking clicked. Hard.

People want to feel invested in. People like people that they perceive to be like them, taking an interest in them and sharing similar views.  The best way to win an interview (or a sale) is to learn as much as possible about the interviewer and ask them questions directly about what they like, how they think, etc. Open-ended questions, that show your interest in them.  Pepper that with plenty of observations that show how you are just like them, or think the same way they do.

The whole last most of the years of my life, I had been speaking to people trying to tell them about myself. Trying to interject into conversation things I think they would find interesting. I was telling, not selling. At the end of it, people would still say I was not very open, or hard to get to know. This was really frustrating, because I could literally tell them my fucking life story, and they would still give that feedback. It hasn't been because I didn't make the effort. It isn't because I was closed off, aloof, emotionally unavailable. It was because I was friending like the books I started reading. Narration, character one talks, character 2 replies, etc.

Books do NOT show speech patterns the way it really works. I read a ton of books. Always have. Lots of fiction. Lots of non-fiction, later in life. This fails to show how to talk to people.

I think the real key is to ask more questions. Learn as much about the people you want to friend as you can, and never stop asking them questions. Your past isn't the issue. Your likes, dislikes, opinions, all of that doesn't matter to them. All they care about and all they will remember is how much you appeared to care about them, how much you seemed willing to invest in them, how much you seemed like them, and more importantly how much you seemed to like them.  People like to be liked.  This all seems so fucking obvious, probably why my counselor completely missed it.

It doesn't have to be patronizing. Just ask people how they are doing. Ask about their kids, their pets, their projects. Ask questions, lots of them.  Don't feel you have to tell anyone anything unless you want to, just keep asking. Eventually they will ask back. Be honest, because there's no danger in it - but keep asking questions back.

This is why I have failed at social media. I have failed at nostr as well. I have tons of notes, like this one, that is telling you all about me, my thoughts, my life.

BUT YOU DON'T FUCKING CARE.

and why should you? Have I shown I cared about you? A like, a zap, that shit doesn't do it. Asking questions is the only way. And I don't even think my client of choice does a great job of conversations.  I may change it.

But I am close to done with posting these notes that tell everything and ask nothing.  I promise to change. I must change.  Fuck, I've been such a goddamned idiot for so long. This is not going to be an easy change, but I have to figure it the fuck out.

Good night, Nostr. Tomorrow I will ask the questions.


Doesn't look like I'm running out the door just yet.


https://image.nostr.build/29b50efc6c7d4a723c98eb92e05834cda34ac6ded9f1dda7b3f6d768a91eeffc.jpg

https://image.nostr.build/346e6e6595d778f49b064fca5b58067cd963d0bc553fe82b47ed7ff20b2fb2b5.jpg

A couple other bike pics.  This is actually my old Labor Day camping spot from over a decade ago.


https://image.nostr.build/b1c4db3960bd2777b1330f91e7c48f8c75b26bdbf5ecca82ba4b6d177dababcd.jpg

A nice shot of the back side of Mt. St Helens from last week's ride.


Another 200 miles behind me today! Can't stop won't stop!


CAC score done. No surprise, there is damage done. 37 years in the USA, eating standard USA foods, is enough to gum up the system a bit.

Coronary Artery Calcium Scoring
Left Main 0
Left Anterior Descending 44.4
Circumflex 62.4
Right coronary 188.5
Total Ca++ score: 295.3

Again, totally not surprised.  This is after being #carnivore (but not always super strict about it) for over a year.  I plan to retest in another year, and confirm that these numbers are either the same or improving (which isn't supposed to happen, but carnivory is known to break some of these rules)


See, if I were doing business over Nostr, then I would easily cede this point. I'm not. I work a fairly comfortable fiat job that does not rely at all on my social skills outside of the company and its customers, who are unlikely to be on nostr in any professional capacity.

I find it increasingly easy to build relationships and trust, sufficient to do business, in very short periods of time. I could probably write a lot more on that...


See, you say it all lives on forever - but I don't know that to be true. Not going anywhere just yet, though.


I agree it is a feature. And my mind is not made up either.

It's not what might be imperfections, insanity, or criminal today, but what may become those things in the future that concerns me.

Also the notion of whether or not social media in general, and nostr specifically, is serving me.


Well, after 17 days, I think... it seems like I've kicked it. As noted, not wanting to go back to living in a withdrawal state has been the mental key to dealing with any craving.


2018 Road King


Dammit little bit of a breakthough.

People don't want you to be more open with them about yourself - they mostly just want you to ask more questions about them and be more interested in them.


What if I walked away from this npub and just started a new one? I could probably figure out how to clone all the important stuff over.

I doubt my followers (both of you) would mind that much, and I'm no infloonzer, so my clone would likely just be me.

One feature of nostr that has bugged me for a while is the inability to delete notes. I'm used to deleting most of my history on other platforms, quite intentionally. Sure, a relay might eventually remove your note, but another may not - so you have no way to know if your history is out there still, or no.

I value being able to forget. Being able to re-create. I've had to be way more careful to stay mostly anon here than on normie social media. It feels limiting, rather than freeing.

I may be free of being cancelled or shadow banned, but I am very much not free of the real world consequences of anything I say, at any point in the future, whenever my past may be examined against criteria I wouldn't be able to even imagine in the present.

What if, in 5 years, my wife learns how to use nostr and looks back at this npub's history and decides it was somehow disrespectful to her?

What if it wasn't my wife, but my government? Or the government of the nation I am trying to enter? Or a police or legal action?

Winding myself up a bit. Not sure how this plays out. I'll put it like this - If this npub stops posting, it likely won't be because I am gone. I'll still be around, just respawned under a new clean npub.

My social graph doesn't feel that built up anyway. Does it serve me? Or do I serve it?


Scan done. Awaiting results.


I'm not convinced ANY of the layer-2s are really the best solution, or will still be around in 10 years, except maybe as a very specialized solution to a niche use case. I mean, someone is still using Liquid, right?

So I'll use lightning for now, but I'm not putting any further investment into it. Anything I am currently using lightning for, I expect to use something else for in the future.


People seem like they're a special kind of high right now. Like just disassociative, in some way.

So here's this, if the universe is actually multiple overlays of energy that make up a composite reality, is this how it would appear when an energy overlay is slightly out of phase?

GN.

(not really, but like this as a gn note better then the other note I'm about to send)


Similar, except mine was hot, cooked from raw with bacon in bacon fat and butter. It may have been more like 2 lbs, just something in the freezer I wanted to use up.


Sweet. Enjoy your time away. This will all be right here when its time to return. 🫂


Tomorrow morning I get my CT scan for my CAC score. I expect a non-zero result. I still feel like this is going to be the most significant medical test I have taken in quite some time.

Probably even more important will be retaking this test next year.


Absolutely not. Absolute silence kicks in my anxiety, as it activates my instinctual danger response. If you've ever heard nature go quiet, it isn't generally good news. I don't generally have anxiety issues, but absolute silence will put me on edge instantly, the opposite of chilling the fuck out.


Some of this is true for me, other parts are not. I've smoked on and off since the summer of 1993. Mostly on, though. I quit a couple times for a few-year stretch, I think the longest I went as a non-smoker was maybe 6 years. Last year (2023) I quit for 7+ months. So I have plenty of experience at falling! I know it is okay, and I just have to pick myself up one more time than all the times I fall down.

The past and the future are not my problems; the only thing I ever need to concern myself with is the present, and my next action/response. Knowing that withdrawal is one certain outcome of a particular action makes it that much easier to take some other action.

I'm grateful for every decision I've made, and every action I've taken, even the most wrongheaded hurtful ones, because they all add up to a life lived, and it is a life I am proud of; wishing anything different would just be denying my own self-gratitude while not improving anything for me or anyone else.


2 weeks, no nicotine. It's happening. Much easier once I discovered (had never been told it like this before) that life as a smoker means living daily in a state of withdrawal.  Even one cigarette means that I will instantly put myself into nicotine withdrawal for at least the next 3 days. Even one hit off a vape - anything that puts any nicotine back into my system, because as soon as it is there, the mind becomes aware about 10-15 minutes later that it is not there anymore, and the psychosis of withdrawal begins again.  It is the very same psychosis of withdrawal that convinces us to have the first cigarette in the morning, and the next one after that, and will kick in minutes after finishing a cigarette or any other nicotine going in your body, every time.  There isn't some critical mass of nicotine, or number of cigarettes that will be OK.

So now, NOT having another cigarette means NOT having to be in withdrawal. That's it. Living life in withdrawal sucks, no matter how great the nicotine itself may feel.  Recognizing this has made a huge difference in managing cravings, being in situations where I would be triggered, etc.  I've already stopped using bupropion; its job is done.  That was really the only thing that I used as a crutch. No tapering down, just quit. had a relapse 25 hours in, went through about 1 1/2 packs, finished the pack I bought, quit again, haven't had any nicotine since 23:30 on July 15.


At the bar? Soda water/lime. Why? it signals to the bartender that you are likely a sober driver, and more likely a "graduate" of a 12-step program.  They will almost always give these for free, especially if you tip for the first one, regardless of whether or not they offer it for free.  There's definitely more psychology going on with this as well - but it all works in your favor, and makes you an instant ally of the bar staff, and can even allow them to be more liberal with your friends' drinks...


I've started showing up to gatherings with unflavored Topo Chico, or occasionally the lime/mint flavored one.  It at least presents the possibility that I am joining in the "fun", although I stopped drinking alcohol some time ago, as well as anything with sugars, real or fake. I can forgive a tiny bit of lime juice, though.


Can confirm, have found in the wild. Rather fun stuff, actually, and not too hard to deal with.


Another 250+ miles on the motorcycle today. Another closed road that was passable, and a closed road that was not passable. May do a shorter ride tomorrow; if so I will be over the 1000 km  mark for the weekend.


yeah, like a scramble.  Some call it a power bowl, or dirty eggs. I don't really do pictures on here, sorry. Not well supported by my main client, so its a lot of bother to use a different client to post them.


Possibly, but people value rice, flour, and sugar as well. Unlike prison, your trading partners may have basic cooking tools. Of course, you could use your rations of flour and sugar to bake goods for trade as well - something else that can't happen in a prison, where cigs are possibly the best commodity.


Coffee is already happening. that was just what comes next... :)


Lots of stuff there to trade for meat. like everything except for the butter and soaps.


Ground beef, eggs, beef liver, cooked in butter, salted, maybe some cheese.


GM.
While simps are simping the simpshow in simptown, I'm going to put some more miles on the motorcycle. Headed to Tillamook (like the cheese) in a bit. Might touch the ocean.


Rode around Mt. St. Helens today. Literally, one big loop, with a detour up to the remaining observatory.


Been essentially deist for a long time for this reason. Most of it is ridiculous if taken at all literally, and is just an apparatus to enslave and coerce.

That said, for a very different view on physics and cosmology, the Vedic traditions have been very interesting. That is not to say I would adopt Hinduism in its current form, but the intelligence coming out of the Indus Valley was well ahead of its time, possibly more scientifically advanced than our current materialist view of spacetime and particle physics.


Just CTM at just about everything in my feed.

Conferences? Nope, not interested. Honeypots and distractions. Waste of coin.

Podcasts? Oh well. There's plenty of lesser-known voices out there that would live to have your ear. Or maybe listen to something completely different. Broaden your horizons instead of sitting in the echo chamber.

Exchanges? Maybe a necessary evil, but use what works while it is available. These things don't last forever.

Politicians? Really? You guys still think they matter, like, at all? Ok, you do you. Sats aren't the only thing I stack, because at some point, there will be change, and it will be time to act.

Until then, enjoy your diversions, friends!


Kill all your heroes. Take your coin off all exchanges. Stay humble, stack sats.

Be ready to change anything you thought you knew at a moment's notice, because that is all the notice you will ever get.

GN, until next GN.


Day 7 nicotine free. 2 more weeks before I'l really feel in the clear. Already functioning better without continuous withdrawal, but my diet has suffered. That's ok, much easier to fix that in a couple weeks.

GN.


Oh, they can eat it raw. Dogs didn't have the luxury of fire, and haven't evolved enough to require it since we came along.

Look up B.A.R.F. diet.

Of course, you do you - if you want to heat it up or cook it, they will eat that too.


My grinder came today.

Tonight's mission - grind up about 25 lbs of dog food. All meat, no bullshit. 20 lbs of chicken leg quarters are ready to go, along with organ meats.

#butchersdog #carnivore


El Camero?


My stated purpose has been, for some time, to serve as a positive example to my children. This is my prime directive.  Sure, there are other things I value, but above all else, this.

I don't know how this would change if my children no longer existed. That is something I don't care to think about. I suppose I would either find a new purpose, or things would go really poorly for me.

I needed to affirm this, because as this is my stated purpose, addiction cannot square with this purpose. That goes for any addiction - nicotine, sugars, caffeine, etc.  Any amount of pretending it could be OK is complete bullshit cope.

GN nostr, it may be tomorrow before I send another note.


Much appreciated - this was super helpful.  Not so much the method or the book, but just taking the time to watch some yootoobs.  I'd forgotten how helpful immersing myself in yootoobs was in quitting sugars.

Even just documenting my experience here is helpful, because it exposes the bullshit.  And nicotine addiction brings with it a ton of bullshit.


Ok, working on day 5 of no nicotine, and realizing my why this time around isn't all that strong. I think I'm mainly in it to see if it helps my blood pressure numbers.

I'm just not all that scared of the cancers, now that I don't fuel them with sugar. My social circle doesn't frown on nicotine, almost the opposite.

Right now I could easily see quitting for a year or two, not seeing a ton of improvement in bp, and starting up again.


69 hours. GN.


EMOTION IS OUR GREATEST ADVANTAGE.
FEEL AND THEN ACT.
OUR FUTURE DEPENDS ON IT.


64 hrs. home stretch.


Actually 46 hrs. My bad. Sleep time.


45 hours. GN.


44 hours. Feel shitty, but it will get better soon enough. Well past halfway through the worst stretch.


Amount of butter to add.


36 hours. still have the anxiety knot in my stomach. still feeding it with bullshit, but not nicotine.


31 hours. better than my last push.  Maybe this is the one that gets it done.


21 hours. Holding strong. GN if I don't make it back here.


18.5 hours. 3-ish hours until sleeping time. No further responsibilities for today. This may be the most challenging part.


16.5 hours. now comes the tough part. wife home from work, she smokes so ciggies are easy to get from her.  Just got to make it through the next 5-7 hours and I will be asleep and ok for some hours. But I need to make it through the next hour first, and the next minute before that.

So, I don't normally have anxiety, but nicotine withdrawal gives me this feeling in the pit of my stomach (actually, maybe more just a tightness or emptiness in my chest in general) that I can compare to similar physical anxiety symptoms. It feels similar to hunger, so I want to feed it - but it isn't really hunger, so it never really gets fed.

I'm sure my normal satiety sense is weakened by all this. I know I'm eating more than usual, but I made that deal with myself already - I'm going to be OK with eating things I normally wouldn't, like granola bars, or almonds, even peanut butter and hot fudge, if they are helping get me through the next 72 hours, and really the next 3 weeks.  I'm not going to eat donuts, and I don't see most vegetables or fruits helping much.  The truth is, I'm not physically or emotionally addicted to that shit. If I fuck up my ketosis or whatever for a few weeks, big fucking deal, at least I might kick the nicotine that I am actually addicted to.  After I get past that, it should be no big deal to not eat all the other shit I haven't been eating anyway.

Will any of it really help? Probably not. but maybe it will distract me just enough if I pretend.

I was just thinking - should I go down to the fast food place and get a big nasty bacon cheeseburger? and I know I could. But I think even if I did, I would still ask for it with no sauce or veggies, toss the bun in the trash, and end up eating meat and maybe a slice or two of bullshit fake cheese.

I really liked pizza even, and I would rip the meat and cheese off the top of a couple slices if I wanted some nostalgia. I even ordered a thin crust with lots of meat toppings pizza for Bitcoin Pizza day and slammed that whole thing in my piehole - but that kind of did it for me.

I can't un-know what I know now.  Even if I "cheat" or whatever, I know it isn't food, just nostalgia or emotion.  I don't see even going back to pretending that I am being healthy eating plants, or balanced anything. I like balancing a pat of butter on my steak while its melting. That's my fucking balanced diet.

I'm not sorry for using certain words. fuck that. I also don't care much about grammar or capitalization right now. and if you're reading this, you already know this is the rambling of a poisoned mind.


Just doing the math to figure out it was 15 hours was a strain. my mind is ridiculously scattered. If I do find a moment of focus, I do so at the cost of completely forgetting about everything outside of that focus, which is very odd for me; I'm used to juggling multiple tasks and priorities.

My mind is attacking itself, of course. I know that, and I know it will pass.

I did two sets of 10 squats (just body weight) last week during the 25 hour stretch. Not really to push through a craving - my cravings themselves are more like fits of frenetic reasoning. Anyway, didn't have any problem doing the 20 squats. The rest of the day, my legs were toast. Like I wasn't at all confident going down (or up) stairs without using a handrail. Just jelly. Next day, definitely painful. Day after, painful. day 3 - mostly better, just a little pain on standing up.

It's been a long time since such a simple "workout" hit that hard. most people are probably like "leg day, bro", but I used to do some pretty serious leg days.  I would do squats all the time, just for fun, or even to break up segments of walking/jogging/running.

I stopped because of some physical ailments, and some other priorities. I probably haven't done a real leg day in 5 years, despite being pretty active when I could be.  I had some knee problems that really made me shy away from squats over the last couple years. At the same time, I went meat based, lost a bunch of weight, etc.  I have the energy now, I've got the knee healthy enough to do body-weight resistance exercise, and my legs have shrunk down to the thinnest (leanest) I have ever seen them. I've been putting off building them back up until I hit a future weight loss goal, but fuck that. I don't like how weak my quads look, so it's time to push them a little bit.

Apparently 20 squats is more than a little bit. Fuck. I'll do it again with 10 squats.

Just shit I wanted to share. Cheers fam.


15 hours.


12 hours.


LARPs. that shit will sort itself out, move along.


As noted, moving our dog to a real food diet. going pretty well, but moving pretty quickly towards homemade fresh foods. Still keeping up appearances with the wife by feeding him some FreshPet garbage when she's around, but completely off the dry kibble since last week.

Noticed urine production is way up; not surprising, because obviously higher water content in real food. He apparently had a couple accidents last night, though - wife is not happy. Any suggestions to help?


Giving it another serious go. A little over 8 hours in.  And that's the furthest I've gotten since the 25 hour stretch. the signaling happening in my mind is insane. I wish I was busier at work.


This was a bad idea. Way too much time  and space. Lost the battle, but the war is still underway.

I made it 25 hours though, and I will do it again, however many time it takes.


As a 3 legged dog owner, can confirm. All will be well.


14 hours. trying to get anything I can done for work so I don't have to concentrate on it anymore.

Wife thought it would be a good idea (for her) to set up a camping trip this weekend. headed out in 5-6 hours, back sometime Sunday. Not sure if this is a good idea or a bad idea, but doing it anyway. Might be miserable. might have been miserable anyway, just in a more familiar place.

these are the times I just need to ride the energy fields for a bit and not worry about anything.


12 hours. this is where it starts to get really rough. really hard to concentrate/focus now.


I'm not bougie enough to own a KitchenAid stand mixer. so, not an option. Also planning on running 15-25 lbs per batch.


We switched from chicken flavored kibble to beef flavored kibble (same brand). dog always had "allergies", but since around the time of that food change, he started having a lot worse skin issues on his belly and groin; some of it almost looks like psoriasis. I'm pretty sure it is the food, something in beef formulation that isn't in the chicken. Since we're changing food anyway, I'm figuring it's a good time to try to convince the wife (who babys him, but takes no responsibility for his actual day-to-day well being) to let me take him raw carnivore. (although I'm not going to sell it as that, exactly).

I'm pretty sure I will resolve most if not all of his "allergies." via eliminating processed crap. And if he does better with beef than chicken, I'll deal with that, but it will be very easy to tell.


10 hrs.


Time resets now. :(


Almost 3 hrs. GN


*food


Looking into buying a grinder and feeding my dog home-prepared foot. Any good resources out there?


Clock starts now.


There should come a time in each person's life when there is a shift of focus from making your parent(s) proud to making your children proud.

You may never feel like you've met their expectations, but you have, just as they have met yours.

You might think the shift would come when you have children; for some this is so, for others it may happen later, or not at all.

But it can always come today, if you wish it to do so.

GN.


Math works as long as you assume the numbers are just conceptual. Once numbers are mapped onto physical things, a lot of math just fails to model perceived reality. You can't actually have negative something. Most things can't be divided, and even if they can, don't divide evenly. Multiplication applies to fungible objects and little else. Imaginary numbers are, well, imaginary.

This isn't to say that complex math models are useless, just that the models may not work as expected when applied to the stuff that matters.


Donuts are gone.


I may try this with squats - been thinking about building my legs back up, as they seem a lot smaller after losing the first 70 lbs.


Tomorrow is going to be a very special day.

My son turns 15. Also, I will be quitting cigarettes and donuts.

I've been on bupropion since July 1. That should be long enough for it to give me as much help as it can. I've used it before to help, so I *know* it can.

Today I went and bought a couple bags of pork rinds (I actually don't eat these very often, probably been months since my last, but I want something around in case a craving comes along that they can get me past.)

I also bought a dozen donuts. Not just any donuts, but the chocolatey-est filled-est ones I could get. No, they aren't good for me. I'm basically poisoning myself, gorging on chemical trash. But after tomorrow, no more donuts. Not even once in a while. Done.  Those were the last thing that would really cause me to break my ketogenic routine - and while I wouldn't have them all the time, maybe once every week or two, that is still more poison than I wish to allow.

I have one more pack of smokes left. Should finish that sometime tomorrow. 4 donuts left, not sure if those will make it to tomorrow.

After all that poison is gone, I will start counting hours. I will count hours until I can count days. I will count days until I can count weeks.  If my past is any indication, I don't expect this to all work the first time. I may need to reset my counting a few times to get it right, but I know I can lose a few battles and still win the war.

So here, now. My why. So I can look back at this when I need to. I do not want to have high blood pressure. I do not want to have pattern B cholesterol. This is what I believe I need to do to fix these problems. Doing this will get me through the weight loss (another 60 lbs) that I need to feel I even have a shot at reversing these two issues. I will not be taking blood pressure or cholesterol medication. I can do this by modifying my lifestyle.

That is my positive affirmation of the conviction I have in my ability to change. Stay with me friends, and I will continue to be right here with all of you.

#carnivore


Every truth has boundaries. For example, some truths are only true in a vacuum. Others are only true within 3-dimensional space. Still others depend on time, or on the assumption that stimulus precedes action.

This is not to say they are not true, only that they are true given certain conditions. It then becomes a question of how applicable they are, i.e. whether the conditions they depend on exist in their application.

For instance, I may be able to say that 2+2=5, but I wouldn't want build a skyscraper or even a shed based on that math. The boundaries of math exist just fine in what we observe as the material world, and apply well to operating in that world.

But that isn't the same as saying 2+2=5 couldn't also work, given that the definitions and boundaries of that truth also exist in and apply well to the material world.

In any quest for universal or specific truth, it is imperative to determine the boundaries (or limits) of that truth, regardless of how "implied" one assumes them to be.

Gn again!

#knowledge #knowstr #philosophy


Terrence Howard can probably only be understood if one does NOT believe that reality is how science describes it, and is instead based entirely on energy, waves, and fields. Then it makes a ton of sense.

The outrage and debunking reaction videos out there (that I have seen) all come from people solidly in the fiat science camp. It is well past time to move beyond that and find new ways to test new hypotheses that at first may sound completely wrong. That is science freed from fiat.


I'm thinking (do not believe this with any real conviction yet) that our brains do not contain our emotion or our knowledge. Instead they operate as an interface with knowledge and emotion, among other things. This explains why brains "light up" when triggered in certain ways, and I am not saying that we can "live" without them.

The knowledge and emotion they connect with are not definitively ours, but they are "personalized" for us, so we may consider them our own, even if we do not possess them.

This abstraction doesn't actually change much. Just a diversion, I suppose.

GN, maybe.


Started to unfollow devs and bitcoin ppl. Curating my feed a bit, and nostr works for me, so does bitcoin. Nothing personal, and I figure anything really significant they have to say will still show up in my feed because one of the lesser non-elites will reply or repost anyway, and that is how my client builds my feed. Kind of like using a social graph as an effective filter, and curating based on the choices of others rather than by personality or influence. That said, I also avoid following compulsive re-posters, and have done so for a while.

I don't believe for a second that any of the big accounts give two fucks what I am thinking or spewing on here anyway, as it almost never involves them. And if they do, they are free to follow me. I don't block or report people, as far as I recall. I don't know if my client even has the ability to block, and also don't care.


Paint 'em black (if they're white), put a sheet of reflective metal behind 'em. Should work fine. I wouldn't use it for drinking water though.


What I have eaten? -0-, and could easily eat all but a couple of them again if I wanted to.  What I will not eat again unless in some emergent state of starvation? 44. Those just aren't what I consider food anymore, although they may contain calories.


Thoughts stemming from earlier idea that matter is information persisting in energy...

Also read an article in Vox about panpsychism.

I think these work well together, but let's not worry about whether or not electrons have consciousness.

My concept could consider consciousness as an expression of energy, similar to how I might consider light or magnetism. I think my concept of energy may be more similar to earlier concepts of ether, and much broader than current sciences based on materialism would allow for.

I'm really seeing "energy" as the primary construct of "reality", rather than matter. Matter is an expression of energy, as would be light, consciousness, emotion, and anything else observable by humans. Energy can be expressed as waves, or more completely, a field of waves, permeating the observable universe. Objects (like planets, or  a chair) are still just information stored, but still can have all other expressions of energy present as they are a part of it, rather than separate from it or acted on by it.

GN.


Follow if you wish.


Newest crazy-as-shit idea... (sort of previewed this earlier, but I like it more and more all the time)

Matter is information encoded to persist in an energy field.

And yes, every noun and adjective in that sentence probably need to be (re)defined, because of how incomplete our current understanding is.


The more I listen to Terrence Howard, the more I want to agree with him, based on all I have come to understand about the nature of "reality" and the most ancient cosmology I could find (Vedic).

It is interesting (in his conversation with Eric Weinstein) that some things Terrence is saying have only recently been accepted by "science", and while many other things Terrence claims may yet become accepted, but are considered patently false today.

I've become pretty convinced that we have currently got it all wrong. Space, matter, energy, forces, dimensions, really all of it. I'm not claiming to have all the answers, but I will likely spend the rest of my life searching for them.  I'm not saying Terrence is right or wrong, but he's probably further down the path to understanding than I am.


I admit to being a sheet nerd, multi-platform, and I currently use Zoho and Excel daily. With slicers, pivots, PowerQuery, interpreted csv data, and PowerBI reporting. I don't do VB though.

But you do you.


A little scary, but trying to move back to being paid in bitcoin.

It's going to take a little work, but I have the budget flexibility to do it right now, and I don't want to miss out on the volatility over the next couple years.  This could also be the only way I get to my next stacking goal anytime soon.

#BitcoinStandard


I would assume nostr:npub1xkere5pd94672h8w8r77uf4ustcazhfujkqgqzcykrdzakm4zl4qeud0en  has to play by the same rules.

nostr:npub1cn4t4cd78nm900qc2hhqte5aa8c9njm6qkfzw95tszufwcwtcnsq7g3vle

#asknostr
nostr:nevent1qqs2reamyncrxwcrdlfkgv4u56l70m9fpkfpk65pey4fwk704g7j7ggzyptvch90rhwnzgv9jy8fhsrnrd992xty2w6rl7j329xu82lltvlvzqcyqqqqqqgedhz8v


What is Strike currently required to report on to the gov cabal? Obviously, they report all buy/sell transactions of Bitcoin.

What I am interested in are reports of transfers (on-chain, lightning, and $USD), and the current thresholds for reporting a transaction of each.

There's been plenty of legislation mentioned over the past several years, and I want to know the current rules of the game.


So I have this helium miner (basically a RockPi with a LoRa antenna, I think) and even when I bought it, I figured I would eventually repurpose it into a Bitcoin node or something.

Anyone have any creative ideas for repurposing it? I don't even know what to do with a LoRa antenna. I can get more details on exactly what antennas are connected, I think one is WiFi, one in LoRa.


When I bought 25 lbs of roasts, I had no intention of keeping it as roasts. Instead, sharpened up my butcher knife, and sectioned and butterflied them into steak-sized portions. Then repackaged, and into the freezer, keeping a few lbs out for the next few days.

Inevitably, there are some scraps left over. And I don't trim additional fat, so the scraps are mostly muscle. The first round of scraps went to my dog. The second round? Just became a treat for me. Nothing wrong with a little fresh raw beef occasionally. I don't regularly eat raw, but no issues if it is fresh and a relatively small amount. Our portions were between 1-2 oz each.

I actually really enjoy the fact that most  anything I eat, I can share with my dog. I haven't gotten him off the kibble yet, but I plan on it. Just need a big grinder to process the chicken.

#carnivore #raw #pets


Went to the store for my weekly shopping early because it's hot out. They had London broil value packs for $3.99/lb (limit 4 packs), and chuck roast $5.39/lb. Ground beef also on sale $3.99/lb. Ended up buying 29.5 lbs of beef, total cost $133.50, average price per lb is $4.49. Even if I eat 2 lbs/day, which is a little more than average, I'm eating for $9/day. That is at least 2 weeks worth of meat, probably closer to 3 weeks, because I probably average closer to 1.5 lbs per day.

How many Americans eat for less than $10/day? $15? #carnivore is not expensive, quite the opposite.


So you attach a picture of a clam shell, rocks, and some sauce? None of that looks like fish to me. To your points, tastes better - that's subjective, but I like the whole variety of meat flavors, including many fish. Looks better? Again, subjective, and culturally biased. Way healthier? Debatable. Very dependent on the fish. Most (not all) fish aren't fatty enough for human nutritional needs. Also somewhat dependent on the diet of the fish, for both flavor and nutrition.

My primary diet is beef-based, but will eat salmon and dungeness crab whenever the opportunity presents itself. It is rare that I go more than a month without having one or the other. (Crab is lean, but lots of melted butter helps.)


Depends if you also have assets to cover the debts.  Most don't, or have no idea how to use those assets to manage their debts.  It matters if the assets are appreciating or depreciating, and the risk of losing the asset. For instance, cars make horrible assets. The rates and terms of the debts also matter. Generally, credit cards are high interest revolving debt, which is far inferior and much more uncomfortable to manage than fixed-rate low interest loans.  Finally, cash (flow) is king.  If you have the cash flow (for most, income) to manage the debt payments with no impact on your day-to-day life, and your cash flows are stable and relatively low risk, there is little to worry about month to month.


Today my company decided to lay off 14% of its global workforce. The cuts went from VP level all the way down to the workers. I think the math works out to about 2200 families lost their primary income today.

I was among the 86% that still have a job to go to. I expected this, and was prepared either way - but I have also been making moves over the past 2-3 years that would increase my chances of being chosen to stay.

I expect there will be a lot of opportunities that arise over the next few months of reorganization. I'm also ready to take advantage of those.

Don't be complacent. Fiat mining doesn't reward complacency.

(In good news, my old nemesis, the boss of my former boss, got the axe. So did her boss. No fucks given here)


Today my 17yo stepson was put on Ozempic and metformin. This is after he failed to lose weight (I think he's roughly 300lbs, about 5'9', has been obese his whole life). His A1C was 5.8, so not horrible, but on the cutoff for T2D.  He spent much of the last few months eating rice and chicken breasts, but also plenty of McDonalds. His mom (my wife) is trusting the dr's diet advice (lots of vegetables, limit red meat in favor of lean meats, low fat and fake sugar options), basically LFHC. There's glimmers of hope, they did cut back a little on UHP foods, but there's still a ton of crap (I won't call it food) in the house, and my wife won't give up pasta.

He's in for a tough road. None of what they are trying will fix him, and they won't listen to me (basic response is, well, he's not you). They still trust the dr and the drugs will get them somewhere. I've told him (out of earshot of my wife) that when everyrhin you are trying fails, there is still hope, and I will be there to talk him through anything he wants to do about his diet. I've also asked him to at least watch some youtube on carnivore and keto, just to start his own research.

He ends up using doordash at least several days of the week, because my wife, although a decent cook, is only up to cooking a dinner a few nights a week. Nobody wants my steaks, so my services are not requested. Apparently chewing meat hurts his teeth (which are in pretty poor shape, granted).

All this is hard to watch, probably my deepest struggle with respect to diet. They may eventually come around to proper diet, but I'm thinking that may be years of struggle in the future, if ever.

I'm working a lot more directly with my biological son, but can only do so much as I share custody with my ex.

The best I can do is the best I can do to be an example. Results over time won't lie.

In other news, getting close to being able to schedule my CAC score CT. I want to do that test at least three times, with at least a year between each test. I'm prepared for a bad first result, because that will be my starting point. As long as I stay the same or improve on future tests, I'll be validated.

60 more pounds to go (before I retest my lipid particle count and phenotype). Excited to start putting some muscle back on, though. I've resisted so far, as I want my focus elsewhere first. The cholesterol pattern B issue is more important than strong looking legs.

GN.

#carnivore #diet

PS - started my bupropion protocol today to get back off the ciggies.


Is there a "home mining" solution that could be powered by a 30W solar panel? Obviously I don't expect it to hash much, bust just curious. I happen to have a 30W panel that I don't plan on using often.


If you want to dig deep into statins, cholesterol, heart disease, and related topics, this has been a very comprehensive article. This SubStack writer is worth checking out as well, overall.

https://open.substack.com/pub/amidwesterndoctor/p/the-great-cholesterol-scam-and-the?r=3qi970&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=email

#health #carnivore #seedoil #statin #cholesterol


To continue a little further down the path of history of religions, the important question to ask is why?

Religions are sustained (if not created) for a desired effect on a population. We can call this social engineering.  They may be instituted to bring people together for economic reasons, for instance to serve a populace in agriculture or development/building projects. They may be adopted to generate wealth for the powerful. They may be used to incite people to violence on behalf of the state, or to divide people so as to distract them from the actions of the state.

Religions are statist, make no mistake. This is not the same as saying beliefs are statist, but when those beliefs are manipulated by the state, for the benefit of the state, then we are once again dealing with statism.

This is why I find it contradictory and hilarious that religions such as Christianity and Islam have such a strong following among bitcoin "sovereigns". The very nature and intent of those religions is statist. Whatever happened to don't trust, verify? Good luck out there, but all I see is a divergence that cannot be resolved without abandoning either bitcoin or religion.


So far so good. It's a rare day when I have nothing really scheduled in the to do list, so not sure what to make of it just yet.


For me, the most impactful things have often been small things:
- A like or a smile, even a nod.
- showing up
- letting me know I was seen/heard

I've found larger gestures are more for the other person, as forms of self-validation.

I can tell you that almost every horrible event that I have been through could have been made much less horrible by things as simple as these.


I don't think I've found my people yet. I post random shit on here that's going through my  skullbucket, all of which I'm more than happy to discuss, pull apart, reimagine, grind on for a bit, whatever. And this echo chamber is just crickets. If I say bitcoin or something, maybe I get a like or two.

Maybe I'm not good at engaging discussion. Maybe I'm too cerebral, or posit my ideas too forcefully or something. I'm fine with it being me, but I'd want to work on that and be more conversational. Maybe it's because I'm not a dev, and couldn't care less about zaps. Or maybe I just haven't found my people.

No worries, I'll keep following those who post content I find interesting, liking posts, and writing down my mental blather. At least this is a good place to diary thoughts, even if I am just leaving notes for myself.

GN. Tick tock next note.


Unfortunately the dates don't quite line up, I was off by a year. My mental crisis was fall of 2021, I didn't quit the statin until fall 2022.  Doesn't mean the statin and poor diet didn't have a part in kicking my head in for a bit, but I can't say definitively that removing the statin had an immediate impact on my mental health.  Nor can I say that going carnivore did; that didn't happen until April 2023.

Glad I could share all of this, though - I may have shared some of it before, but I'm not shy about talking about mental health, including my own.

GN (if I don't think of more stuff I want to write down.)


Watching Ben Wehrman pod with Dr. Morales (thank you both by the way), and the Dr just put something together that I hadn't considered before.

I'd heard about statins and dementia, but he mentioned a "transitory" dementia.

Before I sought professional help for some mental health issues I may or may not have been facing, I went through a pretty dark time - this was fall, like October/November a few years ago. I got caught up in thinking that brain chemicals (including those affected by what we ingest) were having so much of an effect on my mind that I was having trouble trusting in my own decisions.  This is something of an existential crisis, but really concerning for myself, as I value myself as a problem solver and decision maker.  Calling that ability into question really threw me for a loop. I was also questioning whether or not I might be somewhat sociopathic, or at least have some kind of disaffective disorder, as I was experiencing what I believed was a lack of emotion and feeling.

That was one factor in reaching out to a mental health professional to discuss my overall mental health.  It was far from the only factor, but it was one place we started digging at.  By the time I actually was able to start meeting with the counselor, most of that mental mistrust had cleared, though.  I have since changed my perspective a lot on all of this, but even 6 months later, before really starting the process of evaluating my mental health, a lot of that had eased up.

What had changed?  I think that was around the time I quit taking my statin medication that I had been on for several years.  I'd have to go back and check the dates on this to see if it really lines up as tightly as I am remembering, but I had never put the two occurrences together.  I may have inadvertently healed myself!  The miracle of the human body and mind, finding the offending toxin (statin) and eliminating it (by engendering a mistrust in any ingested chemicals) without even telling me that's what it did.

I did have a great experience with counseling though; read a lot of books on various psychology subjects, found the importance of self-esteem (I had always assumed I had low self-esteem), and really discovered the importance of tuning into emotion, because of how much influence emotion has in every decision, and action we take, or even any memory we have.  Contrary to a lack of emotion, I found I was just suppressing emotion behind a facade of logic and cognition.  The emotion was definitely there, and putting it in a leading role in my life has given me incredible levels of peace and contentment.

Did the statin cause my existential crisis, in some kind of dementia fog? Fuck if I know, but I wouldn't be surprised.  I wasn't wrong about the brain chemicals, just had to learn the right way to control them - through diet and not poisoning myself.


Had some thoughts about the history of religions last night.  Strap in, I guess - but I'll try not to make this long.

What I was observing was that the values of religions that have lasted over long periods of time seem to have a lot to do with the socio-political climate in which they were initially instituted.

Consider China. Dynastic rule for long periods of time. Not a huge amount of conquest or invasion.  Typically a very collectivist population.  What religions thrived there? Ones that helped further pacify the people, emphasis on group meditation and little or no materialism. Not much emphasis on the greatness or goodness or paternality of a god, don't really view the higher power as a savior.

Then look at the Mediterranean region.  Lots of wars, conquests, plenty of imperialism and conquests. Jewish tribes were beaten up by just about everyone that stopped by. Jewish religion reflects this by emphasizing a paternal god who will fight for them.  Materialism is celebrated, as long as it is done for the temple. Victim mentality is literally bred in as original sin.  I think Judaism is something of an offshoot of earlier Indus Valley religions (shares common roots with modern Hinduism) but was greatly changed and adapted to suit the cycle of conquering/conquered that defined the Jews.

During one of the relatively stable periods, the semi-nomadic Essenes find a leader who takes on the existing corruption of the Jewish temple state, and this leader becomes the symbol of a new religion - which appeals to Romans for many reasons, and soon becomes institutionalized as Christianity. Christianity is more geared to making individualists (as opposed to collectivists) more servile, while through its message of spreading the "good news" also supports conquest and war.  The people already believe they are flawed, which makes them easy to enslave, if they are not already slaves. Any materialism is still only focused on the Church, which becomes the State.  As Rome itself falls, the Church carries on throughout Europe and central Asia, splitting off and adapting where needed.

Then you have the Islamic story, which diverges early, in a war-torn and hotly contested area of the globe that had seen both wealth and poverty.  It takes on similar characteristics to Christianity, but replaces a lot of the servile victim mentality with anger and aggression. War begets war, after all. In both Islam and Christianity there is a lot of focus on afterlife, salvation, a god that will kick ass and take names if it suits him - and it is definitely a him, for these cultures.

Christianity gets a major change with Martin Luther, as it splits into Protestantism and Catholicism. Again, someone fed up with corruption takes on the institution and makes a big change.  The new Protestantism is even more individualist, has a renewed interest in conquest, and mates up nicely with the age of exploration and empiricism that is underway.  Luther doesn't become a mythical figure like Christ, although operationally was likely very similar.

Then there is Hinduism - which also arose the Indus valley, but the leaders (Brahmas) soon took whatever ancient wisdom they had and made themselves untouchable by implementing castes and shrouding everything in superstition.  Translations, retranslations, published notes, poems, and everything else done to the original Vedic lore created a solid mess, where almost anything could be justified by the religious leaders.  However, once entrenched, they have been very good at staying in control, and Hindu values support that well.

Once you release yourself from belief in dogma (any dogma), it becomes much easier to see the paths through history that various belief systems have taken, and why they might have been instituted as they were. Believe whatever gets you to sleep at night, but the human story is much longer than most religions can account for,  punctuated by cycles of violence, conquest, peace, building, high society, etc., and I believe these cycles have a lot to do with the beliefs borne out of them.

(above is extremely generalized, presented without appropriate nuance, and may be offensive to some. I could research and write chapters if not books on each region or belief system, and you probably wouldn't be any less offended.)


So after this, I did a little when in doubt, zoom out.

What if all matter is data storage?
What if all wave energy is data transmission?

What if this is how it has always been - the true nature of our reality? Perhaps we are living in the Matrix, of sorts - but not necessarily a simulation we can awake from, more like a complete existence within a universe-sized decentralized? computer.

Not sure how to understand field energy (like magnetic fields) in this model, but that isn't to say it won't fit nicely.

The truth is, I'm no genius, and this is really stretching at my basic understanding of physics, much of which I've forgotten since learning it a few decades ago.

One little observation - if I started sharing most of this stuff among friends, they would be asking me to pass the pipe.  I'm doing this completely sober, and it can be just as mind-blowing, but much more "real".


Gn nostr.

But really, I'm having a though that I really want to note down. Important enough I'm ignoring my directive to not use my phone while in bed.

I'm really hung up on this trinary math/computing thing. Been on that for a few nights, finally noted it here this morning I think.

The general idea is that nature/reality isn't binary. More often, it is trinary instead. Energy moves in waves, not in ons and offs. A wave has a top and a bottom, but it also has the curvature between top and bottom. Even direct current electricity has an intermediate state between on and off; I think I learned that 25 years ago when looking at how computer memory is stored.

So how hard would it be to build a computer running natively on trinary code? That was where tonight started.

Then I moved on - why can't we build computers that are powered natively on AC instead of DC electricity? It seems we waste a lot of energy converting AC to DC in desktops and servers.

It seems to me that binary computing is well suited to DC, as DC exists as on/off states. Trinary computing might be better suited to AC, which alternates (that's the A) which implies some kind of alternating wave form.

Then this really started to spiral - if we are building to trinary, based on electricity wave forms, why limit this to electricity? Why not be able to "power" a computer with any energy wave form, like light, radiant energy, etc. This completely removes the need for AC power, or DC battery cells, I think.

So, how to encode data in a waveform? We have to be able to manipulate the waveform. That is how radio is encoded, either through frequency modulation or amplitude modulation.

Next, how to store waveform data? Now I'm getting almost ancient aliens on this, thinking that is what crystal skulls are supposed to be.

Sheesh. I think it is all possible, and way more efficient. Like orders of magnitude more efficient. Matter is stabilized waveform energy, so matter itself could be a likely store of waveform encoded data. Some matter is probably better for this than other matter, maybe that is why the skulls are crystal.

Does field energy work as well? Especially if the field undulates predictably? Could magnetic field (for example) be used to store data and/or power a computer build to natively use waveform energy?

Ok, those are most of tonight's thoughts. One important last one...

Why hasn't this been done already? I can't be the first one to think of these things, and likely someone more knowledgeable about electricity, waves, math, radiant energy, etc has to have tried this already.

Yet here we are with DC powered, binary computing. Not sure what I'm missing.


Becoming more and more convinced that our digital tech could be much improved by moving from binary to trinary systems, accounting for on, off, and the state in between those poles in energy waveforms. Many if not most examples from nature support 3 states, not two.

This could be a huge leap forward in tech, and science in general, while bringing ourselves closer to nature instead of furthering the current divergence from nature.


People are talking about politicians and bitcoins and blowjobs and things. Meanwhile I'm contemplating the shape and composition of space while synthesizing Vedic cosmology with more recent Vedantic wisdom and having an inner debate on the validity of the big bang theory. While stacking and eating steaks.

We might not be the same. But dammit we're all on this ride together.


Thought about that too.

Because I don't personally listen to audio-only podcasts, I'm prone to dismiss them.

I was actually thinking of going the full YT route because I could choose whether or not to link it to what I've built here on nostr.

Part of me says I have nothing to hide, but the rest of me knows that is only true until I do have something to hide - because the past can easily be linked to the present. For this reason, I have always been wary of social media, even in the AIM and ICQ days. It's just too easy to become a target of someone else's issues.

Best answer for now is I don't know yet.


Possibly. Had been thinking about being interviewed on Dave Mac's YT channel, but haven't decided how far I'm willing to dox myself.


Easter 2023. April 9, I think it was. Traveling to a work conference for a few days, figured it would be a good time to start because I wouldn't have all the temptations of home.

Another small win, put on a pair of jeans yesterday that had previously been a struggle to button. I've worn a 38 for a long time, bought some 40s here and there, but the difference between "flex" and regular is huge. These were regular. Lucky jeans, which I really wanted but hated splurging on. Buttoned with no problem, still needed a belt to keep them on (true for any pants, for me).

I'm going to have to try my Duluth jeans next. Haven't been able to button those essentially since I bought them. I'm sure I did anyway a few times.

I may share another small win from the last week, but it's adultstr. Keeping it G for now.


Today I realized that my 3XL shirts fit different. For the last lots of years, I've worn a 3XL-T undershirt, tucked in, under any normal T, so my belly fat wouldn't roll out the bottom.

Today, was warm, wanted to do some yard work. Didn't want the extra layer. Put on a 3XL longsleeve, that always seemed to fit me short. Didn't even try to tuck it in. It was fine, didn't show any skin at the beltline.

Got done, took that off, put on a standard 3XL tee that I bought at the beach -4 years ago. Fit loose, tucked it in, didn't come untucked.

The 3x shirts are fitting loose enough I may be able to go to a 2x soon. You don't know how many shirts I haven't bought because they didn't have a 3x option.

Under 250 lbs (barely, but there) for the last two days. Last time for that was over a decade ago, and I was starving myself on salads. Felt weak, tired, and generally unwell, but I did it to see if my BP numbers would drop, since my dr said they were because I was overweight. The numbers stayed the same, and we agreed it was just genetic.

Today, my BP numbers are about the same as when I was taking 3 drugs to regulate them - and I am taking no medications. Still got a ways to go before the doctors will agree my BP is no longer an issue, but being off the drugs means I will know when that time comes, and not risk going too low.

Days like today give me hope. I am winning this. I feel fine, have had plenty of energy to do more chores than ever, without feeling wiped out after. Outside, in the sun. Not burnt, just happy and thriving.

In bad news, I ate two boston creme donuts today. Not beating myself up about it, just being honest. I still have my vices, and I'm not perfect. Still a sugar addict.

#carnivore


Or, stop eating plants that create gas in your belly as they digest. Proper human diet has a natural solution as well.


Today I tried something new. Added a small piece of beef liver to my power bowl (eggs, beef mince, a little cheddar, salt). Cooked it in with the beef. Tasted great.

Yes, not as vitamin rich as raw liver, but I see myself eating it more regularly this way (I would say I only make power bowls occasionally, maybe 2x month, but I may be doing this more often as part of my effort to get my son on a healthier diet - he likes the power bowls)

#carnivore


Dealership: you need a brake flush and hydraulic clutch flush (at the end of having the bike in the shop 5 hours to inspect and change oil - $600+). We can get you scheduled for that in a week or two...
Me: how much?
Dealership: $350
Me: thanks, will call you when I'm ready to schedule.
Me (the next weekend with 2 bottles of fluid and a $20 flush kit with a one-way valve): done. Fuck the stealership!


Field energy


Original shitcoin.


Got home from Montana. 4 days, 1500+ miles. Both my kids are here, steaks are being grilled, couldn't ask for anything more!


Today I rode my motorcycle.
To Montana.
14 hours, 750 miles.
That's the note.


Where's the brown sauce? Oh.


And one of my npubs follows @hopelessromantic - for the reasons stated. 🫶


Also doing this, or at least trying. Also nice to have a very different curated list of npubs followed to have a very different viewing experience.


Some thoughts around bitcoin. Almost through with Erik Cason's book, and it hit me that the entire work is written from a framework that I don't share.

Erik comes from a generally Christian frame of understanding, where there is good and evil, original sin, a saviour (or messiah), and a single omnipotent god.

What I initially took for anger is more angst, brought about by the need to resolve oneself against that framework, do good, be aligned with the presumptive ethos of the god figure, and hold out hope for a messiah to save oneself from an existence of evil and sin.

So I apologize for that initial observation. But I look at things very differently, although I was raised in a Christian faith. I now see my reality as part of a triune, where there is what I can observe (matter/spacetime), what is unobservable (energy or light), and the intersection between the two (waves, or field energy). Yes, this is somewhat analogous to the Christian triune of god, Jesus, and spirit, but it is not the same. There is no messiah. There is no sin or hell, nothing to be saved from, and no angst involved in comparing oneself to the presumed ethic of a superior.

So my take on the significance of bitcoin is much different. I would say the most important concept of bitcoin might be the nature of ownership, and how bitcoin changed that. The other most significant concept is the network - which aligns nicely with my concept of field energy. Then there is the lack of a physical object, meaning that bitcoin can only be observed in at a point in time, with the complete ledger record at that point. Then - tick tock next block, it changes. The timechain is an entire new perspective on time itself, a very different way of observing time.

So no, I don't see it as messianic. I don't know that it will save us from some evil panopticon (and I'm dead sick of that word).  But that is my take, and definitely a different book. I do think it defies the Abrahamic religious traditions, in many ways may change our thinking around what those traditions have been allowed to become - ultimately, fiat.


And I believe strongly in meeting people where they at, without relying on my own beliefs regarding what they should be, or how they could be different. My assumptions will never explain their existence, so far easier and more freeing to accept existence without presumption.


Proud Viking. Because it suits me and the DNA apparently confirms it.


The problem being that over generations, memories get garbled, traditions become either based on what is no longer assumed to be true, or altered to suit those in power. This happens in the short term as well, as we quickly develop habits and then continue as we've "always done it this way", or adapt to fit a new directive, without much consideration as to why our habit or pattern began.

Humans are good at patterns, but horrible at time. This is possibly because our perception of time is at odds with how "reality" actually works, but that's a far more expansive topic.


Science is not a hill I want to die on.

Science is not fact. Science gets it wrong more than right. Science is just a process for learning how to interact with our reality in a way that appears to work, at least for now.

GN.

(Early, but trying to not be on the phone in the bedroom, and I just never know when I may be headed there)


But will it get brittle and crack, especially under load?

Still badass. And a good anchor for things that want to fly away in storms.


Day 1. Not great with the cigarettes (had a couple more than I planned for), OK on coffee (drank one shortly after noon that I made before noon.)

Not discouraged, though. I plan to quit smoking after I get a prescription for bupropion filled, which is how I've had the most success in the past. Also I don't plan to quit until after a trip to Montana in a couple weeks. This was just to see how powerful that calendar reminder would be, and I definitely like it.

I also overslept last night for the first time in a long time, after waking up after about 2 hours of sleep, and not getting back to sleep for probably an hour. That also is very rare for me. It may be the change in caffeine load, may be the extra hydration, but could be a lot of things.


I've watched plenty of videos with doctors explaining various estrogen-related topics in connection with low-carb diets, and what impresses me the most is the amount of symptoms and hardships connected with menopause and infertility that are reversed or alleviated.

My overall take is that eating a proper human diet helps to bring estrogen and testosterone into balance, in both men and women.

But I must admit, that was a great answer!


(This was in response to HODL's note about bear markets being tough. Stands okay as its own note, but added this for a little context)


I had to remind myself that poverty is the base case.

Any time I am above poverty, I am playing on winnings.

And those winnings were earned. So I wished to keep them. Thankfully 1 bitcoin still equalled 1 bitcoin, so job done.

Hardest part has been denying urges to spend a little on the climb. Still might, but holding on for now, still doing my DCA.

Almost 4 years in. No huge selloffs or losses. The times I have sold some were early stages of experimentation with testing the offramps and at one point trying to convert my entire check to bitcoin and live by selling only what I had to.

Overall, I'm down about 10% from my top, but most of that was gifted to my family, so I can't really count that as lost. None of them have sold it, even though I offered to buy it back if any of them ever wanted to sell. Probably helps that I gave it to them around the bottom, so they've only seen it climb.


Gn. 🌛


Commissioned gifts from actual artisans are far superior to anything on Amazon. I love being able to be involved in the design process.

Last time I commissioned something was jewelry. This time, leather. Same vibe.


Laughing at their article photo choice because a plant-based keto diet is ridiculous, NGMI.

This does not mean you can't eat plants and be keto. But it works a lot better if your fat and protein come (together) from animal meat.


Trying something. Put daily events on my work calendar to remind me to time-restrict certain activities. Will update them as needed.

For now,
- No coffee after noon (did this today, trying to cut way back on coffee, which I have pretty much been drinking around the clock)
- No cigarettes until after noon. (Except on when I wake up).

For those playing the long game, I quit cigarettes a little over a year ago. I was off them for 7 months. It's getting close to quitting time again, but just trying something to see how it goes with this.

All of this is (a new) part of a bigger plan, where in about a month from now, I will be eliminating a lot of things for diet/health reasons, and playing off the various withdrawals against each other. Already started eliminating things, but going further than I have dared before.

I don't know if I will make it as far as ingesting only beef, salt, and water - but I hope to get pretty close to that, at least for a little while.


Really anywhere that has the least artificial lighting. Not because I jave something against artificial light, just because those places seem to be the most calming to me.


Ngl, I've been enjoying the Teton Ranch products occasionally.


Any experiences or information on GHB, especially at lower dosages? Not really looking for the party drug experience, more for therapeutic options.


🫂

(Just hard for me to see information presented as fact that I believe to be at best to be questionably true with plenty of nuance and discrepancy thrown in)

Disgreeable doesn't need to be disrespectful.


Today I bought groceries for week.

Roughly 11 pounds of beef steaks, at an average price of a little less than $5/lb.

That's it. Done.

That's a little over 1.5 lbs of steak per day. A wildly inaccurate calorie estimate would put that at about 1400 calories per day, but I know it is more than that because I eat all the fat drippings and sometimes add tallow or butter, which I already have plenty of. If I run out of steaks, I have some more in the freezer.

Don't tell me how expensive this plan is. How many Americans eat for $55/week?


Yes. Philosophical calm.


Playing this game - and the answer to how much is however much my fiat mining can maintenance in the short term after fixed expenses.


I feel you. And I may have overstepped, and if so I apologize. Information is just that, and what you believe and how you choose to use it are entirely up to you.

Stay curious, and keep learning!


I identify as a super human.


Definitely interested. My own path is likely going to go far beyond keto for a while. The difference is that I'm not planning to monitor ketones or blood sugars. If people ask anymore, I either  tell them I'm doing keto, or that I just eat meat, depending on how much I think they value vegetables.

I also used to love tracking everything - data-driven health approach, but I've left that behind because I care a bit more about opsec and my digital footprint, the less trackers, the better.


Not actually denying a god here, just pointing out the science that explains what people are quick to blame on one.


You haven't tinkered with your diet enough until you try not eating any plants or sugars. I applaud you for trying, though. I don't buy the genetic argument just because you hadn't found a way to fix yourself with plants. Your organs definitely won't process and absorb nutrients from plants perfectly, because they were evolved to run on a high meat diet. They will process and absorb nutrients from meat most efficiently. This is why veganism requires supplements to be sustained for any length of time, and even supplements often lack bioavailablity of whatever they were supposed to supplement.

Go ahead, run your gasoline car on biodiesel and see how that works out.


"uric acid stones are correlated with the ingestion of red meat and alcohol."

Only if you consider "red meat" includes pizza, fast food cheeseburgers, steak dinner with potatoes and broccoli and bread and apple pie desserts. This is meaningless "correlation".

Alcohol is poison. The red meat part of that argument has been fully debunked, because the studies were bullshit. Does red meat equal more uric acid? Yes, but it does NOT mean it will form stones, crystallize, cause gout, etc. unless also paired with consumption of plants, which create inflammation and cause systemic failures that result in all the various stones you've dealt with. Treat your kidneys better by removing the inflammation caused by ingesting plant toxins.


I think the body (and the brain) has no nutritional requirement whatsoever for chlorophyll. and whatever you are ingesting that chlorophyll would help detoxify, maybe you should start by not eating those either.


Parsley came to be used as a garnish for the same reason.


End of an era. Kind of like when Art Bell went off the air.


If so, it's a hell I'd gladly join you in.


Sugars/carbs ingested during pregnancy, then plant-based chemical formulas after birth, followed by sugar and plant-based "baby foods", followed by cereal, lots of seed oils, ultraprocessed chemical-ridden carbohydrate rich foods...

And dumbasses that think a god let it happen, while ignoring the actual science around sugar, metabolism, mitochondria, and cancer.


Gays see symbols of heterosexuality everywhere they go, all the time. Removing sexuality from culture is not going to happen, and would be a horrible idea if it did. I personally couldn't care less about seeing more "symbols" for a month, although I think much of it is just patronizing. There are much more egregious examples of patronization under the guise of inclusively though. It not my battle to fight, but I support those that do.


Its ok. I finally shitposted. And nostr is my skidmark to prove it!


Finished the jar today. Now what to do with the rest of the honey? May play some punch-myself-in-the-face with it later. I have issues throwing anything away that I paid for.


I'm going to call bullshit. Farts are not an aerosol of shit. Farts are gas, not microscopic solids. Sure, as the gas passes through the shit storage, it may pick up some molecules along the way, but I would seriously doubt that it meaningfully affects the resultant odor.

Digestion processes allow bacteria to do its digestive process on whatever is consumed, allows it to react against various acids, and some of the biochemical reactions result in gases being produced, including (but not only) methane.

The gasses are then purged from your system. Some of the gasses have odors, but farts tend to be more unpleasant than belches.

Personally, I would absolutely confirm that consuming and digesting plants produce a wider variety of gasses, and specifically gasses that tend to be more offensive to our senses. Plants also take longer to digest, resulting in more rot or fermentation. Fermentation itself requires sugars, and produces gasses. Plants have sugars. There is a wider range of bacteria involved in digesting plants as well, and the sugars in plants fuel the bacteria, who metabolize portions of the plants and release their own gasses through their own digestive processes.

I once tried to use a lot of soy products because I thought I was sensitive to lactose. The soy milk especially gave me some of the worst smelling gas I can remember.

Now as someone who consumes little or no plants, I rarely have digestive gasses, and when I do, they are much more mild on odor.

No, animal meat does not "rot" in your intestines. It is largely broken down by stomach acids before it even enters the intestines, and very little waste is left at all to pass through the intestine. Think about how flesh is removed from bone using lye, and the resultant sludge solution that is largely liquid. It is overall a far more efficient digestion process, and happens quickly - 15 minutes to a couple hours. The intestinal length and volume of purely carnivorous animals is evidence of this efficiency. Our human intestines have surely grown in length and volume to adapt to our omnivorous diets, especially over the last few millenia (very recent, in evolutionary scale) with the advent of agriculture.

For more information regarding meat digestion, just look to interviews with meat-only eaters who also have ostomies, where their waste is diverted to an external bag instead of being allowed to take its normal intestinal path.


Does this mean I will have relay issues when moving between nostr clients (will changes made in your client affect or reset what I may have currently for all clients that I use that also have relay control) - because that would be a dealbreaker.

Also, if I make a change to a relay list in another client, will that change alter or reset what I had set up in your client?


Might learn enough C# to do what I currently do with powershell and ms sql, just maybe a little better and more portable.


What does it mean, to ask?

Specifically, to ask something of someone else?


Dealing with humans that have all your answers can be exhausting. GN.