Good times for a change
See, the luck I've had
Can make a good man
Turn bad
So please, please, please
Let me, let me, let me
Let me get what I want
This time
Haven't had a dream in a long time
See, the life I've had
Can make a good man bad
So for once in my life
Let me get what I want
Lord knows, it would be the first time
Lord knows, it would be the first time
https://open.spotify.com/track/6zOcJQreuf9EEbuuxT8aHN
I am a burden on everyone in my life
I don't deserve anything
I will be alone forever
I will sit and watch everyone I know grow and love
And get married while I sit alone and do nothing
I am not a good person
I am selfish
I ruin everything with my own selfishness
I will be alone when I die
I long for a deep connection that I will never have
I will never find love
I will always be in a constant cycle of feeling like this
I will always want more
I will never be satisfied for more than a few months at a time
I apologise to my friends
I apologise to everyone I know
I am selfish, angsty, and embarrassing
I have become someone I hate
I will never have a wife
I will never have children
I will visit my friends and meet their wives
And husbands and children and feel a deep, ugly jealousy
I will be alone
I will die alone
I will end up sad and alone
And the only person to blame will be me
I love you and I'm sorry for everything
https://open.spotify.com/track/4ZgCMb7WGmqGxL7XpkYTx1
And it turns out the skills of happiness, the skills of the pleasant life,
the skills of engagement, the skills of meaning,
are different from the skills of relieving misery.
And so, the parallel thing holds with technology, entertainment
and design, I believe.
That is, it is possible for these three drivers of our world
to increase happiness,
to increase positive emotion.
And that's typically how they've been used.
But once you fractionate happiness the way I do --
not just positive emotion, that's not nearly enough --
there's flow in life, and there's meaning in life.
"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it." Mevlana Celaleddin Rumi
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