Progress on my own time-trial racing game is actually going pretty well (for now, at least).
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IZb2AZIR_XQ
Should have a build ready for patrons before the end of the month, I'm going to try and make a bunch of fun levels :)
You'd think if someone was going to put people on a 12-18 month waiting list for an ADHD assessment, they'd do something to make it bearable for people with ADHD.
I don't know what, but SOMETHING.
Trying to pull back from a potential meltdown in the usual way (pacing, flicking my hands, pushing on my face, and groaning) and suddenly remembered that I used to do this when I was very little. My parents would say I was “agitated”, that was the word for this feeling/behaviour.
Frustrating to know that the struggle was noticed but not really helped, but also super validating to recall that there was a word for when I went through this before. That it’s a real part of me and always has been.
Inside of you are two wolves,
One wolf is autism, the other is adhd.
…wait… what the fuck. These wolves are just running in circles making a huge mess! Why aren’t you fighting?? Oh my god STOP howling you sound awful together! Wait hey don’t fall asleep in the doorway, you’re both in the way so move - omfg don’t growl at me! Oh my god this is too many wolves!!!
tbh it was super awkward to spot my initial favourable impulsive reactions to some of the things that came up, and things I used to think/feel but never examined.
It was kind of exhausting to be so frequently “yeah that makes sen-UH wait actually hold on a second… oh my god wtf” in my head while watching that.
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