Understandable, I struggled greatly with it as well. I actually wanted to be anything but Catholic when I reverted last year but I refused to let my pride be what got in the way of as deep of a relationship with God as possible. It was because of Pope Damascus that we even have the Bible so having a problem with the papacy implies a problem with the inerrancy of Scripture. I think you’d also agree Popes can be infallible given that the first Pope has 2 letters in the Bible, 1 Peter and 2 Peter.
I appreciate the discourse. I pray for the unity of all our brothers and sisters in Christ. If you ever have any questions I would love to continue our discussion. 🙏
St. John Henry Newman, pray for us!