i have a confession

i found a fresh ecig while cleaning the other day and i've been vaping nicotine lightly but regularly since and it has been sooooooo fucking nice.

pleasure has been fleeting for me (thanks depression) and nicotine lights up my brain like little else.

but a week or so in, another problem flared, and so i sat down (gingerly) to research. And...

...did anyone else know that nicotine aggravates hemorrhoids? 🙃 

i share this story as a warning.