It's very tough. I think as the father we are always going to be missing out on some because it's our duty and obligation to provide for our families. It's a very difficult balance to get for sure. I'll keep you in my prayers that you can get to a point where you are happier with it. You know the speed they grow up is amazing, and unnerving lol. Raising tiny adults is hard. Are you in a position where you can start your own business? This has increased my time with my kids from before. My business is just going into a transition at this point.