cos what you are explaining isnt in my schema

but then, i grew up with a sick mom & then a dead one

her cancer didnt make her an angel
or a genius

so i dont know what you are saying 

 grief doesnt make anyone infallible
it just makes them someone who is grieving

.. is this an ableism thing
like believing a person in a wheelchair cant survive w/o ur assistance thing 

 are you aware that people in grief are capable of terrible things?

especially owing to the grief

do you know who elon musk is

do you imagine some of his issue isnt cos he lost a child 

 but if i wanted to learn & listen about the grief of losing a child

im pretty sure elon
& the sandy hook parents
are probably the ones to talk to
along with everyone else who has experienced that catastrophe personally 

 I'm just thinking down atypical pathways.  What if murder became legal?  That's an atypical thought.  Nobody thinks about this shit, or if they do they don't dare write about it.  What if the state turned a blind eye to murders.  If murder were legal in Nazi Germany I bet Hitler would have been killed right quick.  Might have actually prevented far more deaths than it caused.  Would America become much worse or much better?  I think it would be worse off but I'm not sure.  I see hundreds of horribly evil people continue to perpetuate their evil, and everybody just puts up with it because murder is illegal so nobody can do anything to stop it.  Maybe if it weren't illegal the people that got murdered would tend to be the more evil people, causing things to get better.  Maybe there is a turning point in a society when evil dominates so greatly that murder of these evil people actually becomes a public good, and only after the evil is cleared out does murder become a public evil again.

This is just a crazy thought experiment. Probably the kind of thinking that started violent revolutions I'm guessing.

I am not defending murder nor am I suggesting it is a public good. I'm trying to think out under which conditions killing people might become a public good.  Because we do it all the time under the label of "war" and most of the time I don't think those are the right conditions to allow for the killing of people. 

 im not sure i agree that people dont murder bad people because murder is illegal.

im pretty sure in the same way many people would have a hard time murdering a squirrel, are people pretty reluctant to murder another human being whether it is legal or not.

as in, if you are having atypical thoughts divorced from the emotional weight & the cost on the body .. im not really sure what the practical point of it all is

as in: a thought experiment for no purpose that wouldnt play out in reality anyway

just seems like a strange way to spend time?
but then, what do i know
& i do hope you are getting something from it even if i cant see what it is 

 I'm trying to say inappropriate things to stir up controversy, things you won't find on other social media platforms, nostr "exclusives" to draw people over to see stuff they don't see discussed anywhere else.

And why not understand better the French Revolution or the Russian Revolution? It's useful to understand history to predict the future.

I've never killed anybody. I'm not going to start.

But if I was going to start I wouldn't start with a squirrel!  Squirrels are so cute and innocent!  I'd start with a rabbit.