Sometimes shit happens and it makes you feel like an idiot, and a failure. And you realize just how much you wasted and how much you promised that wasn't even close to where/what you thought it was.

Sometimes you put enormous amounts of personal capital and work into something and the results end up being "fuck all" and all you can feel is embarrassed, stupid, and angry.

I guess what I'm getting at is that's its ok ,and at some point that's just how shit is going to unfold if you try to do something useful. 

Doesn't mean you will end up with what you hoped for, and that's really just part of the process most of the time. 

"get back on the horse..." feels trite, but it's really all there is. Give up, or keep going are the options on the table. 

I'm not fucking giving up so...