I mean going to church to find a woman may not be a bad thing. You may find something else that's missing to you. 

Time to move on from this one though. Is 18 months your longest relationship ever? What causes the others to falter? Do you self sabotage? Feel like there's missing info. I could have missed it though. 

Either way I wish you the best and hope you don't be what you're looking for. Try church though. It may not actually be phoney to you like you think. God does work in mysterious ways. Either way be blessed