Not sure where to put this so I'll get it off my chest here. Lately I just feel so numb. I think it's the gravity of my own predicaments combined with everything else weighing on me that just make me feel so defeated and uncertain about what is the come. 

Yes I've sorted out how to live by on scraps and continue investing/working towards my personal goals. I have no idea how to re-acquire social wealth though. It's been difficult to make friends let alone approach new people. Yes, I present a cool and level headed personality out in the flow public life, but nothing feels genuine. Nothing feels organic. 

Nothing is felt.