You should go to a psychiatrist brother ๐คฏ๐คฏ๐คฏ๐ตโ๐ซ๐คฃ๐คฃ๐คฃ...Maybe what you are consuming ๐ป๐ฅ๐ฌ๐๐๐งช ๐๐๐ is doing you harm.