Thanks for your honesty.  May I recommend Secret Thoughts of An Unlikely Convert by Rosaria Butterfield.  She has quite a story you may appreciate.

Not sure about Catholic doctrine however the Westminster Shorter Catechism question 1 is:  What is the chief end of man?  A:  the chief end of man is to glorify God and enjoy Him forever.  So, marrying and having a family does glorify God, the family enjoys the blessing of children and the cycle continues.  Having six children, two who are adopted changed my life for the better.  Do it brother.  This little girls changed my heart👇.  Another absolutely beautiful story.  Grace and peace https://image.nostr.build/d463351d51571ea45e4037c942808def1694d3dabc56b0ec6e570b0eac749f92.jpg