Why is your username Romeo and Juliet? That’s literally the saddest story ever. Do you watch older movies or read books. Do you know what Romeo did? It’s a suicide story, Romeo loved Juliet so much that killed himself because kills he would rather be with Juliet in death than go on living without her. Juliet was alive, but after finding out that Romeo died thinking she’s dead , she didn’t want to live either. 

These days suicide & self harm is illegal. And loving someone to this extent where you self harm is conditionally not allowed by law. Either way, i think you’ve been sad 😔 & I hope that you tell your girl that you’re hurting for your own well being