Oh ok. I’m sorry you’re dealing with so much. I’m not autistic but I have an uncle who is. It’s often easier for him to retreat/shutdown than it is for him to handle complex emotions and I always reassure him that that’s ok. 

I understand the feeling of an impending doom, being in mental crisis, and having nobody to relate to. It can be isolating and lonely. I can only imagine how intense those feelings are for you. 🫂💜 You are strong, resilient, and valuable. 

You have to take care of yourself and do whatever you feel will protect your peace. Nostr is awesome but at times can be a bit much to process and internalize. 

It’s cool that you’ve acknowledged your struggle and are courageous enough to step away. We all embarrass ourselves sometimes but as someone who can go off the deep end when embarrassed I’m so inspired by your proactivity. 

It’ll be here when you return and so will people who are excited to welcome you back to the protocol!! 

Pura Vida friend. You are loved 🫂🌻💜🧡