similar to you, I've been a disaster not being able to follow the simple path to complete the studies and being trasported by what I felt was more important and being bored by academic programs. I felt wrong for years, unless the things I reteined important revealed to be actually important, and the things I felt was retarded revealed themself as being retarded. Today I feel blessed for what I am and what I obtained, I disciplined myself and I learn "how I work" and to double down on follow my feelings.