Shocked quartz.  Found where lightning strikes, meteors impact, or other cataclysmic violence has occurred.

So, someone has had an effect on you that you liken to such a phenomenon, nostr:npub1dsdgn279kkzrmuxxq2v686l26k8u97hjkve342zlpqcfsqk4xtpstkl2mp ?  Maybe, though you undervalue yourself as having been a mere "bed of clay" in that case.  And it is interesting that you would represent yourself as, effectively, thunderstruck.

If that interpretation is correct, you pay someone a huge compliment.  But, perhaps, there was always more that shimmers and is shot through with precious metal in yourself than you credit.