Thx for the background story Mr wedge. It resonates with me. Farm life is so fulfilling. And with great fulfilment and hard work comes crushing disappointment and burn out. Not trying to discourage at all. It just happens eventually and you will dealt with it. I've been homesteading since 2012 and farming since 2018. Every year you get a little better and smarter. But I burn out almost every year. Its now my main worry in farming\homesteading. Wishing you an  incredible growing season!