Ah, ok. I've won that argument now that you've started with the personal insults.

Why don't you take your own advice and stick to the topic rather than degrading yourself like that. 

You have a lightening node that you've opened public announced channels, but you think you have a private node.  The evidence is you complaining about having to balance channels which you don't have to do with private channels. 

So, you don't have any idea about how to setup LND as a private lightning wallet, instead, you setup a poorly optimised, low liquidity, badly connected public routing node because you didn't do any research. And now you just complain about nothing working properly.

Your own ignorance is your problem.