Delusions of grandeur 
And misdirection 

- if you love it, why do you make several points to desperately convince people that you do? No... it's about the money and tiddies... and he's not willing to die... he seems like too much of a spoiled bitch for that.

You're thinking, why would I work for hundreds of millions of dollars? And I will answer that I am just bored, I love my work, it brings me joy from life, money and luxury do not bring such joy as my work, that's why I am ready to risk my life for the sake of my work, that's how bright, rich and dangerous life should be in my opinion.