nostr:npub1scjc2e839xfmmsjfqr87huvu9qxenptmamfrcj6s98gv6frq5wgqh0el3p I know I'll burn out at some point, but I'm not sure when that point will be. Either that or I learn how to get a healthy relationship to studying/work and stuff along those lines. In the long run that'll end up being more productive for getting better at stuff, even if I'm less productive in the short run. But that involves listening to people who care about me, and I worry whether I'm too stubborn to do so.

I think part of it is I'm really afraid to get weaker at things in general. I'm sure that has its basis in some deep-rooted issue, so I'll have to do a lot of soul searching.