This year has been challenging & amazing. Not too very long ago, I was applying for part time jobs for the first time in over a decade of self-employment. Apparently, that was just to keep my mind occupied while I waited for business to level out again because I didn't even land an interview for any of those positions & I'm still doing my own thing. 🙌
I spent a solid 3 months with almost no social interaction beside customers, random people in public... and nostr. That was a weird chunk of time. I had lots of space for self-reflection, to question my sanity, and to have it re-solidified. It was very much needed. I sorted out a lot of unnecessary self-doubt that I had been buried under for longer than I want to admit. I can't really put appropriate words to the gratitude I have for everyone who's been kind to me here. I didn't come from some other online social group. I just sort of stepped out of the shadows & started posting shit to support the cause. I never imagined anyone would respond. 😅
I started a new health journey. It has gone extremely well. Cliché but important. Sometimes you don't realize how awful you feel until you don't feel awful anymore. The whole "life begins at 40" trope gained some credence and that alone makes me look forward to what is yet to come. 💜
I set up some lofty goals & ultimately decided it's not time yet. Ambition doesn't always align with time & resources, so I'm dragging my feet on replacing my laptop & hoping the time will sort itself out. It's giving me a chance to evaluate whether some of these things would be truly worth their effort. 💭
Synchronicity has been strong this year. The universe speaks, and if you listen, you know. I heard and I'm hoping I can stay on this frequency for a bit. It feels like home. I've always been an optimist, but the level of calmness, happiness & hope I'm currently residing in is unprecendented. Despite the current state of the world, the future is bright. I believe the biggest impact I can make is to let that hope radiate for as long as I am able. ☀️
Anyway, that's my selfish recap... If you've read this far, thanks for putting up with my shit. 💜  I'm leaving '23 better than I came into it & hopefully some of the things I've touched are leaving it better as well. Onward. 😌🫶

"God gave us memory so that we might have roses in December."
-J.M. Barrie