Yea I think I just haven’t experienced the full depth of it yet which is scary. Like say a peer closing a channel on my head and after spending X amount of Sats to open up the channel. 

And yes 21k Sats a month is huge when we usually only zap so much a month. That’s also why I considered to self-host with my own server because it was too costly in the long run + having server offers many more benefits besides lightning node.