Oddbean

yeah, man, that is harsh... but it's interesting we have sympatico and i also have had a brush with kidney failure as well i didn't quite get to the point of totally crippled but i could hardly even manage more than climbing a few flights of stairs and i pushed myself really hard to just do 5-8 mile walks here on the island this last year... ok it's pretty hilly terrain but it still was hard and i pushed myself to do it anyway, because the alternative was being on some lame hardly ever bus timetable and i knew i needed the exercise anyway, it's over the peak of the hill for me now, i'm starting to recover

Its really good when you feel the recovery phase begin. And pushing yourself (moderately) is the way. Well, more like having an intolerance for the things you have to put up with - pushing can be detrimental, but the real danger is accepting the new reality. Walking is by far the most effective exercise for healing. And sunlight. Sunlight is literally magic.

yeah, moonlight too... and dirt... in my situation i feel like something that was important to the process was getting into a new environment to really break out... to be honest, the place i lived the last 11 months was ok, but in too many ways unpleasant... too many people around, too many dogs, too many buildings at all near me... i keep looking at the epic goat track i mean to go on a walk on and after just walking to the nearest town with the post office i know that it is not a small undertaking, i will spend half a day, at least, just to go far enough to get to the next town in the other direction over the mountain lots to look forward to i will also of course take photos, because there will be ruins all over the place to get photos of... i know even right at the start of that goat track there is an old store room burrowed into the side of the mountain that used to be like a transfer station when ships came here to drop off and pick up supplies on their way to brazil and back etc...

Ah heck yeah, that sounds fun. Maybe you can find some cool artifacts by poking around the ruins. A metal detector could help. Travel heals on another level. Getting into a new environment stimulates something spiritual. I started getting my woo woo ideas in China - the change was so much that I went into a kind of rapid learning mode that I've only seen in basic training. Like, you get there kinda dumb and retarded, and the regimen and stress force you to learn 100x faster than normal - same effect happened in China. But I think it's more than that materialist explanation - its a reorganization on a higher level. And the effect is, your spirit leads the healing process.

it's important to be conscious of it though... going to new places is a major trigger... starting relationships is another trigger... having a severe illness is another trigger, they all put you into that "clean slate" state and it's really important to be aware of it because there are people out there who when they spot you in this state will try to lure you into their little "brave new world" and send you to hell for another decade...

Brave new world? Sounds like a story is involved. I learned to avoid other Americans and British. Both have some kind of envy complex going on, and its only a matter of time until it pops up and ruins things.