It's not, not at all, and I'm ok.
I'm just going through a bit of an odd time at the moment, I'm a few years South of 50 ATM and I don't "Need" to work. I've taken the last 6 months off, thinking I'd like it, and I did, for the first few months. Now🤔, nope!! It's driving me round the bend. To much time, too many distractions🤷🏻‍♂️.