Saw this funny meme yesterday... 

On one side of the image was a spirituality beginner starter pack picturing gemstones, yoga, meditation poses and sound medicine bowls and on the other side in contrast was the spiritual veteran advanced pack - coffee and cigarettes. 
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It makes me laugh, as I am packing and getting ready to move to my next temporary abode and I get a glimpse of this ceremonial organic smoking bear blend I've been carrying around in my suitcases for the last 1.5 years. I literally got the best white elephant Christmas gift. But the last time I rolled one was literally 9 months ago (been protecting my lungs). 
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The last couple of weeks have been an interesting test around reaching out to old coping and soothing mechanisms. I've had this urge to smoke some cannabis several times especially when I've gotten a wif of it in my surrounding vicinity. But I don't have any. 

One time I spent a few minutes on my walk searching for bay area delivery services on my phone, when I passed through a weed smelling cloud. I was like "omfg, I just wanna a joint in my mouth right now". And tell ya what there's a ton of weed delivery services ariund. But I let it go.
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I am starting to even wonder if I should smoke this blend now... Lol... It's actually really cool... It maybe the chill pill I've been needing...